E-gad. I got a detailed email from Ian (my ex) going on and on about the past, how he still loves me and hopes that we can get together again. I had to stop half way in reading it because I just couldn't READ it, you know? How many times has he emailed me the same shit over the past two years almost? Ja, I'm getting pretty darn sick of it.
I don't even go on MSN anymore because he's ALWAYS on! Doesn't he have a life or something? If I blocked him, he'd just call my cell or text me asking why I "never" go on MSN.
I think the thing is, I haven't gone right out and told him that I can't stand him. I find him to be the most annoying person in the world and I wish he would just leave me alone, crawl into a hole and die. He'd probably do that too if I told him... "Without you, I have no reason to live"... GET A LIFE!... "I've tried, but the world keeps screwing me over"... WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? GET OFF YOUR LAZY ASS, GET OUT OF YOUR ROOM AND QUIT COMPLAINING ABOUT SHIT AND FIND SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY!
I'm not his frickin mother.
Ugh, he just really drives me crazy. Like, what the fuck am I supposed to do? I don't pity him or myself when it comes to him anymore. I'm over that. Way over that. I've moved on a long time ago and he hasn't.
Can't he see that?
God, he must be so blind. His stupidity and "love" has blinded him and the only way for him to probably see it is if I yell at him "I CAN'T STAND YOU! FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I can't do that though. I just can't. I wanted us to just have happy memories, a happy ending... not a verbal fight filled with loathing... I'll just hate myself for being so cruel with his feelings.
But... he's brought it upon himself... right?
Blinded