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Saturday, January 14, 2006
first time i cried in 2 frigin years
Mood: I need a hug
Music: Fragrance, by Gackt
I was going to update yesterday, but stuff happened. I didn't have the best day yesterday. I really can't believe what happened yesterday. It almost feels like a dream... or a nightmare. I don't think i have ever been that mad before
,or that upset. I cried for the first time in 2 years. Everything was just like getting stabbed in the heart with an imaginary dagger. Ripping the flesh into little slivers of nothingness.. Ok enough with the description. I just feel so.. i dunno
i can't even put it into words. Well it all started with my friend asking me to sleep over. For some reason my mind was telling me not tonight, but of course do i ever listen. So i went over there it was all right in the beginning, but around 9:00 we started talking.
Mind you, this is the friend who has the whole internet boyfriend thing. I dunno how it became this topic but somehow it went on the topic of the internet boyfriend. She said she was pissed at me for what happened the other day with the whole bad friend thing.
And i said well i was pissed at her and still alittle pissed at her. She asked why.. the whole time i was thinking why wouldn't I be. So i told her all the reasons why. Because she called me a bad friend for caring about her, he's from oklahoma it's not going to work out,
and a bunch of otrher stuff. Well to make a long story short. I told her it wouldn't work out. All the reasons why. She wouldn't listen. And aparently this kid she has know for about a month means more to her then our 6 years of being friends. I left, ran home, broke down on the way in some persons
back yard i was cutting threw. Call my friend maggie who was going to come over, but her mom wouldn't let her because it was passed her curfew ( it was 10 pm and she lives about a 15, 20 minute walk if you're walking fast that is.) I broke down. It felt so weird to cry i haven't in two years...i feel... betrayed in a way
erg, i have a project for social studies to work on... and i'm writing my fanfiction story... so yea i'm going to do that stuff to get my mind off of it.. And for anyone that reads all of this... thanks for listening to my ranting :/
ja ne for now
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