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• 2005-04-27
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• guitar, flute, learning to spell
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• I was little (akira my first anime )
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• finish my fanfiction...i doubt that will happen though ::sighs::
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sorry it's been so long, just been busy and stressed. I really scared myself tonight. Like badly. I broke down. I couldn't breath i felt so helpless. The tears wouldn't stop flowing. I started to hyperventalate(sp) and shiver. I couldn't control anything... and i was scared, really scared. I found that i need to stop sitting around and thinking. It leads to bad things. I makes me realize i'm human, and i have a brain. My eyes are sore i cried, shook, and everything else for a good 25 minutes. I haven't cried this hard.... in a loong time... it's almost been 3 years since i've cried this hard. Can you believe it three years. That also means it's almost been three years since my dad passed away. I just started bawling. I started talking about my day to a friend on the interent, and then somehow i started to mention my dad. Then it blew up from there. The stressed piled up on the grief kinda made me go overboard. He ended up calling my because i was shaking to hard i couldn't even type. Somehow i calmed down. He's such a good friend. My eyes are red, sore, and puffy. My head hurts and I feel sick/dizzy. I'm going to bed because i only got three 1/2 hours last night.. Sorry for the depressing /sad/ unhappy whatever you wanna call it post... it just makes me feel better to type it or write it. Damn i'm exhausted