Saturday, December 22, 2007

   if anyone even cares i exist hear this is the shitty day i have had on my birthday
first off i whant to thank silver for doing this pic for my b-day http://silver-the-kid.deviantart.com/art/Happy-Bday-Jouyasha-72709847

WARNING: im getting redy to rant so if you dont feal like listning how bad of a shitty day i have had on my brthday stop now

if you dont mind my rants continue on


ok now hears what happend lastnight i was out with friends having fun no cares in the world cuz i had no time i had to be home we were playing magic the gathering anyways my cards got stolen even though it was my crappy deck i still had alot of rare careds in it then when i got home i got on the com to look up pic of Edward to make me feel beter becouse i lost him a year and a half ago today so today is my birthday whitch has gone thrugh hell and i lost my grandpa and grategrandpa on 22eds so today is not a very good day for me them when i got i thought maby seeing his face would chear me up it only made me feal worse becouse scence i lost him i have only drawn him a few times and new i could never be in his arms agin *crys* so i took all my saved pic and tryed to make a slideshow on windows movie maker i still cant figure that thang out so i though ggod time to learn photoshop so i messed around on photpehoop hoping to be able to draw something whare i was in his arms agin id feal beter still cant figrre that damn thang out so i went to bed layed there for a while and my computer decided it whanted ot reboot back up mind you it was compleatly off do i got up whare i had almost been asleep and truned it off last weekend my bro ace (please welcom Ace-Dragonwolf to da) had my cds and lastnight the one song that edward always song to me i neaded to hear becouse having little edward in my arms wasent enugh and seeing the wall scrool on my wall made me sadder so maby that song would make me feel beter i couldnot find the cd case my bro hid it under the back corner of my endtable he dident do it on purpas the fell back there any way i couldetn sleep so i was up out of bead at seven this morning and i watched the news about nine i called my mom to see if she was by any chance going to see my grategrandma she told me my grategrandma was at my grandmas house so i told her never mind forget about it and houng up the phone she called back asking why i whanted toi know if we were going to see grategrandma so i could go to the magic the gathering shop to see if my cards were returned ok so she gets ready and comes and gets me we go over to grandmas house and pick up gratetgrandma and grandma and we headed to indopendince it started to rain and the rain started to freeze to the roads my mom started geting pissed i told her she dident have to take me but she insisted so we continued on we got up there when we got there i asked if i could get my birthday present whall i was there shrue she said so when we got there we found out they didnt open untell noon so my gratgrandma whanted to go somewhare and get hotcchocolate so we went to this donut place and got hotchoclate wated untell noon then went back to the magic the gathring shop i went in my cards went there so i got a new starter deck went out so my mom could pay and she told me she dident have the money to pay for it so i had to pay then on the way home it was sleating hailing raining snowing and thundering she was bicthing that it was becouse it was my birthday that all this shit happens to be bad every year it gets bad on my brithday and its my fault ok a) i cant help what day i was born i was suppost to be born on christmas but she did something (i know nothing about babies) so she could have me and be home by christmas and b) how can i control the weather anyway when i got back in the car it wouldent stop so we had to stop and push her so a guy could jump start it (i dont know i know nothing about cars eather i dont drive) and she blamesd me some more when i finley got home i went inside and new i had to listion to Savin'me by Nikelbavk that was the one song that edward song to me all the time to make me feel beter still couldent find my damn cd's so i called ace and he cheared me up a little bit by telling me he was doing an awsome pic of edward for my birthday i had a huge smile on my face so i said i can see it on christmas right? he said more like Edwards birthday i just fealt like crying but i dident than yelled at him ware are my cd's he told me and no im trying to cool down form a horrable day that isent near over yet and i dont whant to see what else goes bad im oh i dont rember if i mentchend this yet or not but i never get anythang on my brithday its always "this is your christmas and your birthday" and the presents suck and are a lot cheeper than what my syblings got youd thank after 19 years of this shit i would have killed my self by now this is the werst day of the year if i could be reborn id eater whant to be born on oct. 13 or 31 becouse october is my fav mounth and 13 is my fav number and the 31 is my fav day howleween whare i got to dress up as edward and it looked like shit *crys* i just wish i could hear his voice his english voice i have him on dvd but its all in japaneese *crys* and its played by a girl so he sounds funny
its not the presents that i whant hell i dont even care if i have a shitty day every year its just i wish someone at least cared i exzisted and that i wasent the excuse for all there problems i have talked to sevral friends today by me calling them but still and my siblings even my dad dident rember my birthday if i hedent told my mom i whanted to go see gratgranma for my birthday she probly wholdent have rembered eather *crys*




silver if you have made it this far thank you for caring and anyone else who sat and read my ranting becouse no one else will listion to me thank you for caring

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