Saturday, February 11, 2006

   Strange
This is just going to be a ranting post. For some reason, I don't know, I've just been sad lately. A familiar fealing has been in my chest for the past week or so. It's kind of like a pain, but dull, as if iced over. Not physical, but emotional. I've just been kinda hollow. Everythings been goin great though. it's strange. Like yesterday was my friend corys B-day party, which was totally awesome and fun, but at one point cory and I thought that something horrible went wrong, but it ended up ok. I was the one who lightened the mood with silliness, thats what I do normally. But it seams that I make everyone feel better except for myself. I've just been feeling incomplete. Ever since my sister fell down the stairs at capital and noone was around to help her, I've just gotten sad. The main reason is because my greatest fear is being weak, not being able to help, and the truth is, it really scared me. When it happened I just got a fealing of weakness. I hated it more than anything. and I remembered something that I didn't want to. And I've just been sad. And their was a band thing that took the entire day, which was cool cause it got us out of school for a day, and I got to say hi to Audrey from capitol. Theire's an odd fealing she gives off, kinda both happy and sad at the same time, and she sometimes forces smiles. And Aubrey needs to chill out, she's cool and totally fun to hang out with, but she's just soo angry at everything pretty much. I'm hoping that Brian can help her with that. And I'm beginning to start to hate this weird depression. At first I tried exercise, hoping the endorphin boost would help, but it didn't, all it did was make me not think about it for a while. I'm hoping it will go away tomorrow. And for people with an odd/dirty sense of humor, check this video out. http://youtube.com/w/You-touch-my-tra-la-la?v=g7mwn84CzF0&search=you%20touch%20my%20tralala
it's really odd. and I'm gonna end it with a quote
A Sunset without a sun is no sunset at all.
A life without love is no life at all.
A rainbow without colors is no rainbow at all.
And heart without feelings is no human at all.
(Rachel Fogle)
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