Monday, May 22, 2006

   ack ack tai chi!!!!!!!!!!!
ok so i have no idea wot im on about with that title!! lol. i was shoutin it round the hose when everyone was out today...lol. so zoe ent talkin to me...surprise surprize...all im doin is actin like her for a change and she dont like it...people r sayin i shud ditch her but i don wanna, plus its a lot harder to ditch a friend than it is to ditch a guy or summat...well i bought myself final fantasy X for my birthday and i was gonna but x2 but the reviews say its rubbish so i din bother...i hope my mum gets back soon coz theres a dvd of advent children on ebay i wanna get but i gotta get her permission to bid on it...i found this rele cute demin dress too that i want and i need hairbands so i mite as well add them for my bday too...its my bday in nine days and zoes makin me feel crappy about it...i never sed i din wanna be friends nemore, i sed i din wanna put her b4 me nemore and wots wrong with that?? i cant wait till i start college, i can be myself for a change...im not myself at skool coz i take the backseat too much and thats not wot im rele like...this summer after the leavers ball im gonna go tresspassin on this lil island thing that this eveil guy made. its all grown over since his wife kicked him out coz he was scum and he treated her kids like shit, hes the same guy that screwed my dad up when my dad was lil...i feel like walkin...i wanna walk away from my life...i hardly go outside nemore and im miss the sun...i miss living...
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Friday, May 19, 2006

   noooo! im turning into my mum!!!
well id just like to say thinks to everyone who commented on my last post:) u guys r the ones that rele deserve hugs!! one GIANT hug for all of u! *HUG* well yesterday i learnt the value of peace and quiet. lol. my brother kept repeating these dirty limmericks over and over and over and over and over and over again! i started gettin a headache and feelin rele tired and i just wanted him to shut up but i didnt want to be mean or rude (he's only 11) so i kept askin him nicely to stop but he didnt!!!!!! and its scary coz everyday i realise what its like for my mum everyday. kids r stressful!!! ive also learnt that arguing is futile. it serve no purpose other than aggrivating people because u can never truly win because if someone is so passionate about something that they'll argue with u then its unlikely to say the least that u'll be able to change their mind. also arguing is just trying to put ur views onto sumone else and vice versa which is wrong. listen to me!!! arrrgggggg!!!! silence is golden...i actullay believe that now!!! i hate growning up! it sux... not only that but my arm still hurt where the needle went in!! :( im not sure wot to do about oscar, i think i mite go out with him an d bryony, without zoe or summat. shes a gd friend and i don wanna hurt her feelings but she gets rele weird around oscar like i sed before. arrrggggg all this guy stuff is so confusing!!! im used to things just happening to me in life without me havin to think about it! consequences r always sumthin i deal with later...its all sooo.....complicated....
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

   BEACH PARTYYYYYYYYY!!!
ok so today was the yr 11 leavin barbecue!!! it was awesome and i saw oscar without his top on after he got outta the sea (he was surfin!!!)!!! i actually managed to talk to him today coz i knew id probably get few chances after this. we were talkin and gettin on rele well and he was explainin wot it was like to surf rele massive waves and i was pretending to be interested and hav a clue wot he was on about then...dun dun dun...zoe comes out of nowhere like her oscar sense was tingling and they spent the rest of the time wrestling each other. im sorry but theres no way on hell that she is ova him like she says she is! and i know shes my friend and all but she cud at least be honest when i ask her if she still likes him! but thats wot always happens...zoe comes along and suddenly the guys think im invisible...oh well, i guess ill just have to get used to it...i got so hacked off i went into the sea fully clothed and got drenched just past my waist...i went in agen when i realised that he wasnt gonna look my way agen for the rest of the time she was there, i needed to cool off coz i was gettin stressed and feelin dryed out so i waded back in and got even more soaked...i just wanted to drown myself, they were all ova each other, i just wanted to wade in until the sea covered my head and the current swept me away...i ran all the way to the sea away from them. they just thought i was bein stupid and crazy. if they like each other why done they f*ckin get together instead of leavin me waiting on the sidelines without a clue where i stand?! oh well, cant be helped...oh and ive deleted the no commenters from my friends list and i had a blood test this morning and the needle hurt...oh and theres a pic of me and zoe on her site vampire1649
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

   end of an era!
omg!!! its my last real day of skool!! college next!! its quite weird, like even tho i wanted to leave im sad coz its a closed chapter in my life... i got kissed twice by oscar! once on the cheek, once on the head when he hugged me goodbye...it was soooo kool today! all the girls were goin round in stripey socks and drawn on freckles! even me!!! me and zoe did the short skirt thing too! i got a load of my friends and other people to sign my shirt which was sooooooo kool! sum boys in my yr were lettin of stink bombs and rippin stuff of people shirts,sum one pressed the fire alarm! omg it was awesome!!!we did practically nothin in any of our lessons and we got cookies and dohnuts!!! and then came the end of year assembly! the coolest day eva! oh and i made peace with jerk off boy. everything is good...its the end of an era...oh and my form tutor did a strip tease for the year! it was soooo embarresing!(dont worry, he had a green tshirt and white shorts on underneath!) jerk off boy's band did this song called throw the chavs down the well! it was sooo funny! will's band did this awesome instrumental! it was a cover of this song called rush. bryony did a couple of songs with lisa too! it was all so AMAZING!!! oh and i got bry's new track!!! she produced it at home so the sounds a bit fuzzy but it is awesome!!!!
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

   fever!!!!!!!!!!
ok so coz ive only got today and tommorow left of skool i decided that even tgo im ill im not gonna miss it...bad idea! im dying! i swear i have sum sort of fever and i keep goin hot and cold >< doesnt help that now my friends r tyin to get me to pitch in for a limo to the dinner and dance thing...as if i cud afford a limo! i got my dress for free! its gorgeos and it kinda belongs in the family so i get to wear it coz its a special occasion but it dont mean i got moeny left ova! it means i had to money to start with! arrrrrrrgggggggggggggg!!!! what is it that makes people think im loaded??? not to mention the fact i gotta stay after skool for history revision coz my teacher guilt tripped the class >< i hope sum one has a phone i can borrow to ask my gran for a lift coz theres no way im gonna walk a mile on foot with my heavy skool bag like i am now! omg! i cud kill zoe! i reckon she coughed on me when i wasnt looking grrrr arrrgg! i got a certificate in history yesterday! for bein happy with who i am! my teacher was givin out silly awards and it was kool! im addicted to runescape!!! omfg! my geekiness seems to increase with age! my friends keep treating me like a leper coz im ill :( i wanna go home and take sum cough medicine and curl up with sum hot chocolate!!!! well ill visit more of ur wonderful sites later! sayonara!!!
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Monday, May 15, 2006

   furi kuri!!!!!!!!!!!
omg! just watched ALLLL of FLCL! im addicted! its sooooo manic! i LUV it!!!! im gonna download the soundtrack!!! dude! its AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!! ok, sorry ive been so irregular with posts and visitin sites and all, i got soooooooooooooo much to do i think im goin crazy but its ok. i dont mind being crazy if it means i hav fun! omg omg omg! i drew male genatalia on my friends immaculate maths book today! right on the cover too! lmao!!! it was sooo funny! the look on her face!!!! then she licked my head and hand and i was like >< ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!see? surreal! omg and i almost talked to oscar today!!! i think im dizzy off cough medicine...the last time i tried to talk to him my friend kt tried to help but she ended up doin all the talkin coz my mouth stuck together and rendered me incapable of speech! me! ME! ne one who knows me knows thats STRANGE!!!!! the last time i tried to talk to a guy when my mouth stuck itself together i stuttered sooo much it was sooooo embarrasing! lucky he thort is was adorable, so that worked out, except when he turned out to be a jerk and i dumped him...neways... hows u guys and dolls? i got a tiny fever and a headache that just wont quit! but now im high on cough medicine so its all good!!! off to ur sites now my lovelies!!!!!!!!
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