Thursday, February 25, 2010

   wow.....
i just foud this and all i can say is i was a winey lil B%$^H when i was younger .....

lol

up date i am a triathleet now and i have been wining races and doing alot of stuff for chararty

:-)
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

   howdy .......
hello every 1 how r yall doing i am prety good i trun 18 in 3 days :-D so wohoo ...... well any ways i am still watting 4 that guy with the MR2 2 hurry up and get it ready 2 seal and if not then i am looking in 2 getting a bike beacuse thay are awosome and i would love 2 have a bike i would get awosome gas milealeg and be fast like wohoo... well any ways i hung out with my home boy buba and found out about some stuff on his mind it was good hearing some stuff b/c he feels like i ues 2 feel and i was able 2 give him advice... but any ways my nabor across the street is prety cool ive been hanging out with her alil more than i ues 2 and she is awosome i have known her sence i was like 4 ....... and i finly started talking 2 lori agen and she is cool dispite the fact that she hated me over the summer...... wow..... i realy have nuthinb 2 talk about.... well i have shit 2 talk about but i dont realy have any motavation behind the subjects i am bringing up only facts about whats new with me sence i havent updated this in 4 ever but o-well its all good i have been talking 2 lil alil more and its cool i still kinda like her b/c she is awosome and i hope she can come 2 my b-day party thingy ...... i also saw bonnie a copple days ago and i havent seen her in a while so it was good seeing her agen and alot more new stuff has been going on but o well...... but ill t2yall latter
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Friday, September 16, 2005

   i just rilised
i had a dream on 8/6/05....... and i just rilised with the exeption of me dieing and her not caring that dream is knda comming true ..... well the part about her fucking around with outher ppl and not caring about my feelings or trying 2 make ant atempt 2 contact me i meen i dont know 4 sure what has heppend interms of outher guys but i know she wasent honest with me b4 and i dident let her know that i knew what happend and when it happend and when it hapend but i am not going 2 jumop 2 2 many conclugens and think stuff that i dont know 4 facts but i do know that slowy but surly the dream that woke me up in a cold sweat is comming true slowly but surly and its only a matture of time and also that she wasent honest with me b4 when i gave her chances 2 say some thing and she left it empty with no comment and just subject changes........ but yeah i just now rilised that o-well any ways i g2g ill holla at yall latter
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   a new day
who ever said better 2 loved and lost than 2 never love at all is a dumbass!!!!!!!!! but o-well shit happens tears were shead but in the end ill rise agen honestly i feel better 2 day i got raid of most of the shit that cori gacve me that reminds me of how she 4got about me like a fish flushted down the tolit having 1 swift action 2 get it out of ur life but never stoping 2 wounder about the fish in the hole sichuwation ......... but o-well i guess in this case that fish was me and it wasent realy dear and now i get 2 spend the rest of my life adpting 2 the new world fool of shit and rats but worring about my own servivle i have 2 now spend my time tuffening up 2 make sure i dont end up getting flushted out of some 1 elses life having 2 fend 4 my slfe in a new world where i just have my own ass 2 worry about beacuse no 1 is going 2 worry about it 4 me......... but over 2 day was better just had 2 push throu the day avioding shit that would bring up mameries and trying 2 make new 1s....... but it was good beacuse i saw wendi .......... and she is awosome i wish she liked me beacuse i always had a crush on her sence i met her like 2 years ago and i saw her 2 day and she looks realy good ...... ahh i know i am her friend and thats all but i wouldent mind being more but in her case she is more worried about school and being a good catholic girl wheach is good and is some thing i admire about her beacuse she has her priorties strait and she is making sure 2 deal with her life right now working her ass off so she can relax in the futcher when she prususes the cearoure she has always been wanting 2...... only problwem is that dosent help me out 1 bit....... o-well so yeah i have a gig 4 the mexican concelet 2 day wheach i thought started at 5 but aprently it starts at 7 so it is going 2 suck b/c i wanted 2 be home around 7 ish ........ o-well any ways i wounder if i should open up 2 1 of my teachers and come 2 her 4 advice in a copple areias b/c she is young and i am sure she can relate but it would probly be waird but o-well........ 2 bad i cant here yalls thoughts on my life when yall read this but o-well any ways i am going 2 go now BTW my new FRV sont is staind i can see throu you..... its awosome
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   shit happens
well shit it happend agen i started botteling shit up but o-well shit happens well i thinks its safe 2 say that yall wont be heering about cori any more ........ "...Me being your friend is not what I feel is fair to you at all. I can't afford to ruin another guy's heart who is special to me." thats just a lil of what she has 2 say 2 me ........ what i find kinda fucked up is the fact that al i ever tryed 2 do is help her the last time i saw her i was baleaing her out of a bad sitchuwation that some outher nigger got her in 2 that she can still try 2 be friends with but she cant try 2 be friends with me any more b/c its not fair....... whos 2 say whats fair and whats not taking away the only person i was able 2 trust with telling any thng 2 away isent some thing that i would cadagorise as fair and not being honest with them when ever thay are and not telling them in person not even throu a phone call having 2 do it throu a e-mail isent what i call fair ........ i meen yeah she did what she thought was best but what about what i think she dident even stop 2 think that at lwast right now the only thing i had 4 sure was some 1 i could talk 2 about any thing with honestly but now i dont even have that so she thought leving me with nuthing is 4 the best well i guess it was but not my best ......... o-well i am in the slow pain full prosess of getting over her wheach is going 2 be a bitch when u see ur life crumble infront of you and cant do any thing about it when all u ever knew just disapears with the click of a butten ......... but o-well shit happens fuck it all right now i am just worring about 2 day and now what ever it takes 2 help me make it throu a outher day is what im just going 2 have 2 do but o-well althou this is probly a bad time 2 bring it up there is this girl named louren who is 1 of cicis friends and she is prety cool and i kinda have a small crush on her and i would like 2 get 2 know her better so wel see where and how that gos ....... but o-well any ways my b-day is in 15 days and althou i wanted 2 spend time with cori 4 just a lil bit i know it isent going 2 happen b/c "its 4 the best" but o-well i would like 2 take the time 2 thank cici ........ cici i love you so mutch u are the best sister i could ever have as weird as it sounds i nearly busted out in tears 2 night as we said good bye beacuse of the fact that i was able 2 talk 2 u about every thing with cori and u are able 2 return the ring that cepted me going throu so mutch shit and now its uesless beacuse all it can do is lead 2 heart ake and u asked if i was sure when i closed ur hand around it and althou u knew it is some thing i dident want 2 do u helpted me do it any way beacuse u are the only person who can help me when it feels like non 1 else can ........... but o-well as 4 cori if u ever read this wheach i think its only a matture of time b4 u do well i hope ur happy beacuse this is ur idea of whats good and i acept it and ive been watting but call me blind but i am failing 2 see where the good is form it but o-well i just dont want 2 get started with how i feel about all the shit happning right now but o-well fuck it ......... any ways i might be getting a new car soon it is awosome and fast as fuck all i need is the oner 2 take care of there bisnius so i can bye it and i hope he hurries up with it so i can get it already and when ever hje dos it will be awosome b/c ill have a new slab 2 risk my life doing the onkly thing that can give me a thrill wheach call me a idiot but its driving fast hard and like ur running form ur worries beacuse in a sene u are beacuse it is some thing u do2 get ur mind off of shit but hey its better than doing drugs so yall cant blaim me 4 being a tean and loving supercharged cars .......... althou a trubo would be ezer 2 upgrade with bost controls insted of pullis ........ o-well ill holla at yall latter and hope fuly by then cori will be the least of my worries beacuse only she can fix what she broke and bye the looks of it she isent going 2 so i just need 2 move on
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Friday, August 26, 2005

   2day was good
2 day was good but honestly the reasion i have this site is so i can talk about my love life b/c that is the thing i bottle up the most and i need 2 get it out ....... cori i hope u read this also so u can know whats all on my mind when i cant talk 2 u at like certen times or some thing..... but 2day i found a box of stuff that i have saved of importence and in it i found some notes form cori and i read them 2 see our feelings at those times and some thing i rilised wev been friends arealy long time and throu out it all we have just grown closer and i love being able 2 know that some 1 as awosme as you existes beacuse ur the only person who can make me feel like im ontop of the world i rilise that i might have taken that 4granted when i 1st met you but i guess u dont know what u have untill u loos it and i lost u b4 and i never want 2 loos you agen thank you 4 being the best friend i could ever have and hopefuly some day were be able 2 be some thing more but 4 now ill give u ur space and we can just hang out and be like wohoo and i will alwaus be here 4 u beacuse i love you and never 4get that beacuse nomatture what happens my fillings will always remain be it across the world or ineachouthers armes i have always felt this way and i always will so plees remain the girl that brings a smile 2 my face every time i look in 2 ur eyes and hope fuly u can be the girl 2 come out of my dreams and in 2 my life in a more personal level relationship wise and i can only hope that u feel the same but 4 now i am happy being apart of ur life and hopefuly some day we can be more than friends ......... but those are jsut my thoughts on 2day and reading those letters ...... well if u arnt cori u probly have no idea what i was talking about or u do and u probly dont care and if not well 2 bad and if u do care then wohoo but any ways 2day was good b/c i hung out with pat new cici kenny steven travis jr and CORI!!!!!!!!! but yeah it was god yall have a good day now
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Sunday, August 21, 2005

   cori
happy b-day lil sandy akak javie i was able 2 hang out with my home boy kenny 2day we had a gig there isent mutch 2 say untill....... cori!!!!!!!!! i love her so mutch we were able 2 hang out and it was so mutch fun cori if ur reading this i love you nomatture what and i am so glad we can talk about every thing like the afternoon and what we have incommen and every thing i just love you i love you i love you !!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh i just wana screem AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well any ways i better go 2 sleep and cori i look fowered 2 seeing you 2 day
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