Friday, August 19, 2005

   JULIAN, BUDDY
J ulian
U nderstands
L ove
I nsperation
A mature
N eglents

B arely
U nexpected
D esiers
D earing
Y outh

Julian Barely Understands Unexpected Love Desiers Insperation Dearing Amuture Youth Neglagents


.......... that was a school project thingy and i thought id share it with yall
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   2day
well cori and i worked every thing outand she now has axus 2 this site and its good that she dos b/c now the stuff i never realy can bring my slfe 2 tell her she kinda already knows now and its all good :-) so far the new stuff is i meat this 1 girl that now sits beside me in 1 of my clases and she seems prety cool her name is cicilia and every 1 calles her cici wheach is going 2 be weird b/c i already have a home girl named cici co form now on the difrence between them will be getto cici is the girl at LBJ and prepy cici is the girl at anderson but o-well any way ive been hanging out with my home boy blain who is the QB 4 LBJ and hes cool ive also been hanging out with my home boy angel and its been fun i am going 2 get 2 see anniclia 2day she is awosome she is like my sister b/c like she is 1 of my best friends that i can relate 2 with on a closer 2 home levle .... like i have alot of ppl that are like sisters like jena prepy cici and lil is more like a sister that i wouldent mind going out with agen so like idk she is more like a best friend than a sister who is just asclose as a sister only difrence is shes some 1 i still like more than a friend but yeah she fits in 2 that cadagory also thou well like prepy cici shes like a sister b/c she is some 1 i can relait with on a levle where we can just talk about any thing and there are things i dont under stand about her and there are things she dosent understand about me jena is some 1 who is like cici exept i can relate with her on a levle alil closer 2 home like she wont heaseatate 2 kik some 1s ass and lil e well she is some 1 who i cant relate with b/c she is sota like sisi in the areia where she has been shelterd alil but she is difrent b/c althou she hasent been there she can under stand and that is some thing realy awosome about her and the fact that she may not be there when i want her but she is always there when i need her every time even if it meens waking up erly and if it meens going 2 sleep late so thats some thing i realy admier about her....... but then u have annalica and she is some 1 i can joke around with about any thing and she wont take ofence b/c shell joke like that right back and like ive knone her about 6 years now b/c we met in 6th grade and ill never 4get the time we met she trund around and just hit me so i called her hideyius and then i had 2 go 2 satturday school and some how we became friends ........ but o-well she is cool we can relate b/c shell do stupid shit and she grew up just like me so we dont have 2 sugger coght shit b/c we know how it is throu exprence ......... o-well she is realy cool and i am going 2 hang out with her 2day ....... it sux i dident see alacen 2 day :-( i like seeing her b/c she always gives me a hug and she is a realy sweet girl and fun 2 talk 2 hope fuly we cann start hanging out outside of school b/c she is realy awosome well i figured out what my name meens and all the words discribe me in difrent ways so im about 2 type that out as my next post so ill t2yall latter
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

   2day so far
2day was prety good over all i was able 2 sleep untill 9:15 then i got up 2 go 2 school and got there and it was fun i am not realy trying 2 make friends like i ues 2 all the outher years idk y it is like i am not trying 2 make friends this year i am just there i talk 2 who ever talkes 2 me and who ever sits at my tables but i dont go out of my way 2 talk 2 ppl any more like i ues 2 i guess it is b/c i have 2 many friends or the fact that i am not there in the morning or after school b/c i have 1st and 7th off and i leve with friends i already have 4 lunch ....... o-well i think i have only seen about 3 ppl that i would want 2 go out of my way 2 meet 1 person who i dont think i have even seen yet buy my friends know her and want me 2 meet her 1 girl that well i already know but she is realy cool she ues 2 be in 1 of my classes last year and i saw her every now and then at lil es stables but she is realy sweet and this outher girl who i dont even know but she is in my alg 2 class and she seems shy but i want 2 get 2 know her b/c she seems cool ive been trying 2 hang out with lil e but that hasent been working out b/c every time i say her lets hang out she never can wheach i understand b/c school is about 2 start 4 her 2moro but kinda sux b/c i miss seeing her :-( i need 2 call up cici i might 2day b/c i havent seen her any time recent and it kinda sux i need 2 find out how shes been doing and about the stuff that has been going on in her life and i am happy b/c i talked 2 jena and that was fun her and i talked about whats been new with her and how life has been treeting her i finly got my car inspected and when i was up there i saw my home girls older brouther and that was fun we were talking 4 about 20 min or so and then after words tords the end of our conversation i found out he was her older brouther but that was fun and then he left soi was sitting there bored so i called cori and it was weird b/c some 1 told her that i said some stuff about she was laying on me and some thing about how ive been telling ppl that stuff like i am bragging about it and what i dont under stand is the fact that i lissen 2 every 1s life and i always here what ppl have 2 say but i dont realy talk 2 any 1 about any thing personal only ppl i talk 2 are cori my older brouther and some times every now and then mat and my brouther meat her 1 time mat knows as mutch as yall know and cori kinda hurt me when she said that she dosent know what 2 think of me any more b/c if any 1 knew me better than my brouther it would be cori even ppl i dont tell as mutch stuff 2 like cici jena lil e and a slect fiew know that i dont spred romers i dont gosiup and unless u are 50 asking me how fast i was going or my prents asking me y i was late im not going 2 lie 2 u and i honestly have no idea who told her that and y she bleved it b/c what do i have 2 prove?....... the way i live my life is like this if yall want 2 know about me just ask what ever u ask ill answer im not shy about any thing i lissen 2 what ever ppl have 2 say but i am not randomly open with my feelings and all of my thoughts unless u ask me 2 or i can trust you enugh 2 be like that with you if u ask me my openion about things u might ant 2 think twice b/c im not going 2 suger coght it and i am going 2 tell you exactly how i feel or what i think u may like what i have 2 say and u may not i dont care what u think about me b/c in most cases ur thoughts dont afect my futcher i dont show off or brag about things b/c that dosent realy help me in any way im not 1 2 "kiss and tell" and im not some 1 who wants 2 get layed b/c althou it would be nice i restrain my slfe form thinking with my dick and i would rather think with my head and act on whats going 2 better my life and help outhers rather than whats goung 2 plusure my mind and fuck outhers i try 2 be there 4 outhers b/c i am 1 2 say form exprence that every 1 needs a sholder 2 cry on i would rather screw my slfe over 2 help some 1 out than make my slfe look good but make some 1 else look bad....... and idk but i thought she knew that stuff about me and i was suprised that she dident question it when some 1 said i said some thing that "i said" b4 riliseing that i would bend ovrt back words and castrait my slfe b4 i would do any thing that i thought would hurt her..... over all i dont blaime her 4 being upset with me thou b/c not knowing how i like 2 live my life then hearing that would even upset me but the fact that i never would do any thing like that is what gets me the most and i just hope that we are able 2 patch things up b/c the last thing i would ever want is 4 my world 2 come crashing down on me agen and having 2 bild it up anew ...... but hey my day isent over yet it is only 5 right now i still have a outher 8 hrs b4 i go 2 sleep so i better get started with the rest of my day and ill probly tell yall about it 2night like i normaly do uless i deside 2 go 2 sleep and in that case well then yall will find out sooner or latter
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Saturday, August 13, 2005

   my day 2 day
i love cori so mutch!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh yall have probly gotten tiered of heering about er but o-well she is perfect 2 day she came over and we hung out at 1 piont we were in my bed and she was laying beside me and i was holding her in my armes and it felt so right it was like 1 of those perfect moments that i wish would never end and we weretalking about some stuff and adventures in our lifes and it wass fun but then she had 2 leve :-( but it kinda made my day when her dad told me take care of my girl i trust her in ur hands ....... b/c like he is leving back 2 cali 2day and this was the last time ill see him 4 a while but idk it was so awosome 2 know that he dosent ever trust ppl with cori and with me he wants me 2 take care of her and it is like he wants me 2 be the man in her life 2 be there when she needs a sholder 2 cry on or a friend 2 laugh with and idk it is hard 2 explane how that made me feel heering it form him but i want 2 be the person cori trusts with her secreets and trusts with her heart and hopefuly some day we will be the perfect copple but 4 now things are complacated but i love her and when we are 2geather we bot never want 2 leve and maby some day we wont have 2 but i love her and i want 2 tell the world and well i dont think i can do that but this is a start ............. but any who the rest of my day concested of hanging out with matt travis buba and i talked 2 micky and lil E and i like talking 2 lil E but it is weird b/c when we talk it is likeshe has outher stuff on her mind and like when we are on the phone she dosent realy talk back 2mutch b/c most time she is on the computter or doing some thing and i wish her and i could talk like we ues2 b/c she is my best friend that is a girl b/c althou she isent realy there when i want her she is always there when i need her and idk i rember a day when she was there when i wanted her also but 4 now i am happy knowing she is the best friend i have b/c when it comes down 2 importent stuff she has always been there and i hope some day she will treet me like she ues 2 where we would talk 4ever and always spend the better part of the day hanging out with eachouther and it was ezer 2 getlost i eachouthers eyes b/c noe we hardly see eachouther ....... but o-well shes cool and prety awosome ......... and whe i talked 2 micky 2 day i found out some thing i find realy realy funny ...... at 1 piont she wa making out with this guy thast is my home boy and will remain nameless but thay were making out and she saidmy name ...... and i find that funny b/c she says she dosent like me but then y would she be thinking about me when she makes out with some 1 else and latly ive been ignoring her b/c she hasent been treeting me as wel as she could and now shes been calling me talking about she misses me she even told me she loves me 1 time and idk it was weird b/c she isent some 2 play around like that and in all honesty i think she is confused and dosent know what she is talking about b/c idk she is weird and 1 of the most hardest 2 figure out b/c some times she will be like all wanting 2 see me and hug me the next she is the most anioing person b/c she wont sut up about how bored she is and how she wishes i would take her some where else so he is just weird in all honesty i think she likes me alil but dosent want say any thing and she gets mad when i am having fun and it isent with her and just her so she starts compling ....... but o-well all i know is i <3 cori and i better get going but ill talk 2 yall latter
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   vacation
my vacation was awosom i coght a shark and way 2 mutch stuff happend 4 me 2 wright down here
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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

   i like chees burgers mawahahahaha
2 day was awosome like wohoo right now my homr boy travis is sitting next 2 me and we hung out like all day ...... but b4 we hung out i went with cori!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wohoo!!!!!!!!! :-D i have come 2 the concligen that i love her so mutch!!! i had 2 go up there and pick up my pants b/c i 4got them up there b/c thay are some football pants i stold form reagan and thay are good 2 run in so i went and got them and idk every time we hang out it is like time dosent matture b/c there is never a daul moment and it is like wohoo i dont know what i would do w/o her in my life but we like were sitting there and took pics and all that outher fun stuff and then after i left it weas like i always feel ..........have yall ever been with some 1 and u were so happy that when u leve it is like u just had the best day of ur life and no matter what happens nuthing can mess it up b/c that is just how that person makes u feel so awosome and it is all b/c that person makes u feel that way just thinking about them?........ well thats how i feel after hanging out with her and it is awosome ...... it sux thiou b/c i wont see her 4 like 2 or 3 days now :-( ahhhhh but o-well ill just have 2 deal..... well after i hung out i went with my home boy travis and hung out with him and went 2 run i am prode of my slfe b/c i am having him do some shit that u would never think he would be able 2 do by looking at him he is improving with every day and thats always fun its like wohoo but o-well any who after that we went 2 watch a movie where i picked up my home girl micky and buba was with us also and we saw it then i dropted them off and travis and i went 2 dacys house wheach is a home girl and we hung out there and left around 1:30 ish then i went 2 siminasd house and also saw her friend where we hung out untill around 3:30 ish then i came home with travis and packed up some shit and then i am here ....... but o-well any who i better go now but i just wanted 2 let yall know how my day was ...... ps ...... i am so haoppy b/c on friday cori is comming 2 my crib with her kinfoke and we are going 2 have a bbq and it will be badass and like wohoo but o-well yall wish me luck on my fishing trip ill tell yall all about it on thursday when i get back and it will be like wohoo and it will sound all fun like but any ways monkeys are green!!!!!!!11 mawahahahah o-well ill holla at yall latter take care and ceep pimping althou it ant ez
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Monday, August 8, 2005

   2day was awosome
2 day was awosome i got up and went 2 see lil e that was realy realy fun b/c i like hanging out with her she is awosome we sat around and talked about some stuff that was on her mind and it was fun and her sister and her b/f boght me some food!!!!!!! and yall dont know this yet but i love food!!!!!!!!!!! so wohoo but any ways then i went 2 see cori!!!!!! lol wohoo i was able 2 meet her dad and he was talking about how he heard alot about me wheach was prety cool..... so i helpted them move 2 a house that is closer 2 mine :-) after helping them move her mom dad and bro left us there at the new house so we went 2 her new room where we hung out and cori and i dancted 2 some mexican music then we talked and after a while i asked if she was hungree so i took her 2 mr. gerattes where i talked 2 1 of my home girls up there and she gave us a discount :-D ...... then after that i called up travis telling him 2 be ready 2 go run b/c i am his trainer and i am getting him in shape as well as my slfe so after that cori and i dropted him off and went 2 her house where no 1 was there agen so we get in and snded up talking and idk what it is about her but me and her could talk 4 ever b/c idk it is weird she said that hopefuly some day i can stay the night at her house b/c we would be able 2 talk like 4ever and that is some thing i would love 2 do b/c idk but i love talking 2 her b/c like she is the only girl that makes me feel like nuthing else mattures and like i feel like i am a superhero after talking 2 her and after spending time with her it is like i love being around her ad i hate being away form her i feel weird thou b/c at a copple pionts 2 day i felt like kissing her but i dident and honestly i dont know y but like there is just this bond that we have that i have never had with any 1 else b4 and some of yall reading this are thinking that i am just some emuture adalesent who dosent know the difrence between love and lust or wanting and needing but like if u know any thing about me i a not 1 2 be in alot of relation ships b/c i dont like wasting my time but with her i have feelt this way 4 about a year n ahafe now and i have always less the day b4 than i do the day after b/c as every day passes it is like i fall deeper and deeper it is like im falling in2 a never ending pit of happyness as time gos on i just get deeper and deeper but as i get deeper it is like i could never be better and then the next day comes making me feel that much better and more inlove it is like ahhhhhh!!!!!!! emotions are 2 heard 2 explane but if yall have ever been there yall would under stand but any ways it was cool thou b/c then i went and got a chance 2 bond with her dad and i thnk he likes me so thats always fun but after the day was over and after about 5 hrs of talking and flirting i had 2 leve :-( but when cori walked me 2 my car out side she huged me 4 about 2 min and it felt good 2 be in her armes and have her in mine so after hugging a long time we talked a while then we huged agen then i gave her a good night kiss on her forhead and then i went home ....... so that was my awosome day and if yall have any thoughts about her or about my day plees let me know :-D but i g2g so ill t2yall latter bye and good night
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Saturday, August 6, 2005

a realy fucked up dream
hey ppl i woke up like 20 min ago and i had the weirdrest dream i have had and idk i realy hope it dosent come true ..... well at least some of it b/c most of it could never happen but im just going 2 sum it up with out going in 2 2 mutch detail but it was me simina cori and some outher guy and and cori and i were staying the night at siminas house but 4 some reasion she lived in a huge house that just happend 2 be ina tree....... so we stayed there and the outher guy went 2 hang outw with simina and me and cori were talking and whall simina and the outher guy were some where making out then finly cori kissted me wheach is some thing i would not mind happning and we started kissing and then a while latter we stopted b/c simina came in and then a searious of words were said wheach i dont care 2 say but lets jsut say 4 what ever reasion i was thinking with mymanhood and not my head..... (wheach if u know me being like that is not me) so i went with simina and fooled around a lil and then we met up with cori and that outher guy and thay had fooled around alot and i think it wass 2 get back at me and then we went 2 a store and cori dident want any thing 2 do with me she dident want 2 talk 2 me or any thing all she would talk about is how thay fucked around (wheach isemt cori like) and then then the stor was getting robded and like the guy was running out the dore with a gun and 4 some reasion i ended up getting shot in the lung and as i was dieing i woke up ......... so over all that was just 1 realy weird dream b/c i never dream but o-well on a lighter note yesterday i woke up with my cat having its paw stuck on a chair b.c her clarse were on it and it and wouldent goback so she was kinda upset but o-well any way i guess ill talk 2 yall katter and ill holla at yall latter
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   my day and talk with cori
wohoo i am wrighting a outher thingy honestly the main reasion i got ths site is 2 get my feelings about my day down concerdering i never do let my feelings on every day shit out so this is just 1 way i guess....... well i am realy happy b/c i hung out with cori yesterday and we talked about alot of deep type shit and it was grate and 4 those of yall who dont know who cori is well i think it is safe 2 say she is my 1st "love" ..... but o-well i liked being able 2 talk 2 her about what was realy on my mind and my true feelings b/c i dont realy have any 1 2 talk about that stuff 2 b/c no 1 realy cares but we were able 2 talk about it 4 about 2 hrs and it was awosome so i am still happy about that b/c she was able 2 trun a realy shitty day good and that was fun 4 achange b/c normaly i am the outher way around trying 2 make every 1 else happy and trying 2 make every 1s day better and i look track of time and 4get about myslfe and yestarday was the 1st day i can think of ever realy talking about searious shit 2 some 1 and them not freeking out or like running away and trying 2 do some thing else ....... i guess that is y i feel so strongly about cori b/c she is honestly the only 1 that i can talk 2 about that stuff at this piont in my life but o-well its all good :-) well any ways 2 day was a prety awosome day 2 i think my home boys g/f likes me more than she dos him and i find that weird b/c 2 day is the 1st day she has gotten 2 know my personalaty b/c normaly i am not doing any thing when i see her and it was funny b/c her friend also likes me it all started when me and lil javie were going 2 cicis pizza 2 eat and i tole the m,anneger some jokes and he hooked us up with some food and that was cool and then we were eating there and then juan (lil javies older bro) and 2 outher girls came over and we were at a table 4 6 with 5 of us there and when bissnus died down abit the maneger decidid 2 come talk 2 me some more b/c here i am a 17 year old making a 25 year old laugh his ass off and some how brighting up his day and then the 2 girls were looking at me like i was crazzy thinking man this guy is weird ...... but any ways i was able 2 get him 2 hook up my friends with free sodas and he chilled with us more and then the girls looked at how mutch i ate thinking i ate alot b/c there were 13 pizza crusts a empty salid plate and a elptying pasta plate that i was working on then thay found out we were only there 4 5 min b4 thay cam e and that i avrege about 25 slices a day ......... 10 slices make a pizza .....so i ate about 22 and then trund 2 the gur walking around cleening tables and said "what up with ya" then the girls looing me alil confused when the outher guy said " my nigga lil julie what up with ya boy" and i start talking 2 my home boy tim as thay sit there woundering how i know him concerdering by now i have talked 2 about 8 ppl (i skipted alot in this story) so as i talk 2 him some foot ball coch comes up 2 me 4 a austin TX foot ball squad comes trying 2 recrute me so i talk 2 him and hopefuily;e ill be starting tieden ..... yall know what i am going 2 skip the rest of what happend at cicis b/c this is getting 2 long but ues ur imaganation form here ........ so i take them home and we all pile in my slab and go 2 my home girls crib where i meet some 1 i havent seen sence 5th grade....... amd ot kinmda was weird b/c he ues 2 be all cool and looking like he is going 2 grow up 2 be a gangmember or some thing and here i find out 7 years latter he grew up 2 be a prepy white boy trapted in a getto black boys boddy so now i am looking 4 extacost 2 try and change that but its all good b/c alot of mytfriends are prepy white ppl along with every outher stero type and lable out there b/c what can i say i am werid and some how i know 2 many ppl ..... so then i go 2 my outher home girls house where i make 2 more friends ontop of the outher friends i made 2 day so we go play blind mans bluff and then i take 2 girls home then i go visit my outher 2 home girls then i go take my 2 home boys home and then i come out finishing the day making 3 new home girls and ceaching up with 2 old home boys and making 1 maneger friend who is prety awosome ...... so comming out of the day with 6 more ppl i know isent 2 bad if u ask me so all i can do is now waite untill 2moro and see what happens there ........ o and if u wounderd y i just sumed it all up at then end ..... well hey i got tiered what do u want me 2 do site here and sleep type....... mst ppl are gettingg up2 go 2 work right now and i just got in like 2 hrs ago so i better go 2 sleepbut i love all of yall eventhou i dont know any of yall but its all good ill holla at yall latter and good night
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   making this site
hey every 1 althou i know no 1 i am julian and the only reasion i am on this is b/c my home girl lil e is on it and the thingy on the site said join now? so i thought y not so here i am if any 1 is reading this plees feel free 2 have a wohoo day b/c i hope u have a wohoo day b/c monkeys are green and i am wrighting this thingy
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