Friday, September 16, 2005

   shit happens
well shit it happend agen i started botteling shit up but o-well shit happens well i thinks its safe 2 say that yall wont be heering about cori any more ........ "...Me being your friend is not what I feel is fair to you at all. I can't afford to ruin another guy's heart who is special to me." thats just a lil of what she has 2 say 2 me ........ what i find kinda fucked up is the fact that al i ever tryed 2 do is help her the last time i saw her i was baleaing her out of a bad sitchuwation that some outher nigger got her in 2 that she can still try 2 be friends with but she cant try 2 be friends with me any more b/c its not fair....... whos 2 say whats fair and whats not taking away the only person i was able 2 trust with telling any thng 2 away isent some thing that i would cadagorise as fair and not being honest with them when ever thay are and not telling them in person not even throu a phone call having 2 do it throu a e-mail isent what i call fair ........ i meen yeah she did what she thought was best but what about what i think she dident even stop 2 think that at lwast right now the only thing i had 4 sure was some 1 i could talk 2 about any thing with honestly but now i dont even have that so she thought leving me with nuthing is 4 the best well i guess it was but not my best ......... o-well i am in the slow pain full prosess of getting over her wheach is going 2 be a bitch when u see ur life crumble infront of you and cant do any thing about it when all u ever knew just disapears with the click of a butten ......... but o-well shit happens fuck it all right now i am just worring about 2 day and now what ever it takes 2 help me make it throu a outher day is what im just going 2 have 2 do but o-well althou this is probly a bad time 2 bring it up there is this girl named louren who is 1 of cicis friends and she is prety cool and i kinda have a small crush on her and i would like 2 get 2 know her better so wel see where and how that gos ....... but o-well any ways my b-day is in 15 days and althou i wanted 2 spend time with cori 4 just a lil bit i know it isent going 2 happen b/c "its 4 the best" but o-well i would like 2 take the time 2 thank cici ........ cici i love you so mutch u are the best sister i could ever have as weird as it sounds i nearly busted out in tears 2 night as we said good bye beacuse of the fact that i was able 2 talk 2 u about every thing with cori and u are able 2 return the ring that cepted me going throu so mutch shit and now its uesless beacuse all it can do is lead 2 heart ake and u asked if i was sure when i closed ur hand around it and althou u knew it is some thing i dident want 2 do u helpted me do it any way beacuse u are the only person who can help me when it feels like non 1 else can ........... but o-well as 4 cori if u ever read this wheach i think its only a matture of time b4 u do well i hope ur happy beacuse this is ur idea of whats good and i acept it and ive been watting but call me blind but i am failing 2 see where the good is form it but o-well i just dont want 2 get started with how i feel about all the shit happning right now but o-well fuck it ......... any ways i might be getting a new car soon it is awosome and fast as fuck all i need is the oner 2 take care of there bisnius so i can bye it and i hope he hurries up with it so i can get it already and when ever hje dos it will be awosome b/c ill have a new slab 2 risk my life doing the onkly thing that can give me a thrill wheach call me a idiot but its driving fast hard and like ur running form ur worries beacuse in a sene u are beacuse it is some thing u do2 get ur mind off of shit but hey its better than doing drugs so yall cant blaim me 4 being a tean and loving supercharged cars .......... althou a trubo would be ezer 2 upgrade with bost controls insted of pullis ........ o-well ill holla at yall latter and hope fuly by then cori will be the least of my worries beacuse only she can fix what she broke and bye the looks of it she isent going 2 so i just need 2 move on
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