Tuesday, October 2, 2007

alot of things have been happening in my life here of late some good and some bad and it just makes me wonder what is all of this for? i've never hurt anyone at all because i know how people feel most of the time being an empath and all, but that's not the point the question i ask is why me and what for?
" forgotten thoughts of yesterday whose to blame for my mistakes and i don't why i believe say i believe in the truth from inside go away go away go away from me leave me alone, ignorance spreads lies how much will money buy well i'll take my time as i drift and die"
puddle of mud, drift and die
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Monday, October 1, 2007

   AWESOME!!!!!!
YAY I TOOK A SAIYUKI TEST AND GOT GOKU I'M TOTALLY THE SHIT!
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Saturday, September 29, 2007

forgiveness
are we ever truly forgiven for our sins? I don't mean by some "higher power" or "God/Goddess" but by the people we love and who supposedly love us back? i believe that the human syetem of forgivness is not only flawed but a complete and total hoax made to make people feel better about themselves. yes some people do truly manage to forgive and forget but this number is very little, a peron will say they forgive you and have forgotten what you have done just to throw it back in you least expect it...
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Friday, September 28, 2007

   survival
weel about yesterdays post the doc says i have a 50/50 chance because it has subsided before back in 8th grade basically the doc said to increase my chances is to have fun and keep my endorphines up because i'm stamped as a carrier there's a good chance it will subside but i find out in 20 days the result but even if they only give me a year i will survive i've got way to many things to live for, and way too many friends to leave...
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Thursday, September 27, 2007

   i talked to kat yesterday it was weird but were on the road to becoming friends again,but on a less happy note the heart disease i had in 8th grade that dissappeared has come back the reason i have it is because of chemical compounds that were injected into my body before and after birth ( i told some of you about this last year) but anyway the doctor has given me a year or less to live, ilove you all of my dear friends and please just pray that it subsides like it did before. "time can doctor the broken heart but only love can heal it"
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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

   forgive me
why is it so hard to forgive people? for any people out there who have done me wrong i forgive all of you even those who ripped out my heart and smashed it to tiny little pieces. But first i must ask forgiveness from those who i have hurt and lied too.Amy i'm sorry i left you in such harsh ways i truly am if i'd known how much you cared i would'nt have left at all. kat i'm sorry i got into to your business i was just so angry taht you had still spoken of being friends but did'nt stop to say hi when you were right down the road i'm sorry for alot of things kat i'm sorry for the way i acted when you left it was totally immature and childish. for this i apoligize my friends and i can only hope that these two will still extend a friendly hand once again when times are dark for me again...and if you don't then i understand.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2007

   i wanna go car surfing again.....i can't help it I'M ADDICTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007

   well i guess i'm doing better now hey if you guys wanna see something funny go to Dragon609 on the otaku and check out her latest ranr it's fuckin hilarious thanks for brighting my day kat.lol
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Friday, September 14, 2007

   my life has gone horribly wrong I currently have nothing to live for except my baby sister i fear i may be turning in to the very thing i despise...emo.
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Thursday, September 13, 2007

   WHAT WILL THE MERCURY FORCE DO WHEN THE 1000 NATIONS OF THE JYU EMPIRE RAIN THEIR WRAITH DOWN UPON YOU?
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