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• 1990-04-24
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• In the solitude of my mind and my heart...
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• 2006-05-02
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• student/street fighter
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• skylar
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• I got my black belt in judo
Anime Fan Since
• 7th grade
Favorite Anime
• hellsing, eyeshield 21,street fighter
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• to find happiness
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• practicing my martial arts
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• football,fighting,and being able to make any girl smile ecspecially my friends
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Thursday, December 11, 2008
what's a guy to do?
Do you ever just feel confused and hurt sometimes for no apparant reason? Well i'm hanging out with the crew tonight and wanted to update, I feel so depressed as of late I have somthing to say to a person who is very dear in my life, but i know if i do i'm just going to hurt myself in the process. I don't know how to put it in words and if i try he/she will just casually blow it off....he/she asked me what was wrong and i just could'nt bring myself to say anything except for "I'm fine" and i gave he/she an appriciation note for all the years of a wonderful friendship for christmas and it seemed to just make he/she feel bad...i don't know what to do i'm so tired of putting on this fake act of happiness and pretending like i'm fine all the time......alot of people have told me to just get over it but damn it's not like i can just throw away my memories and thoughts out of my skull! Some people know how i feel and they understand that when you lose that first true love you never really forget them...and i would'nt even if i could. i don'know anymore though my life fucking sucks, i can't find anybody who makes me feel the way this person did, don't know if i ever will i just feel so empty again like i used to and i hate it... but you never know maybe it'll work out in time maybe it won't,but every dog has his day, don't really know why i'm saying that, not like it's really gonna happen just wistful thinking i suppose... i should really stop doing this to myself...
song of the day "the face of god
by:HIM
always,
Devin
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