Sunday, April 2, 2006

O... my... god...

I was at a friends house today and realized how much I really love him. I don't mean, man, he's awesome, I love him. I mean, I want to grab him and kiss him. The kid at school, and Ty don't even compare. I've known him for a long time, but I just realized how much I love him. I can't even believe it. It's so stupid. A while ago, his sister told me that he liked me, and I said "Poor guy. Can't he find something better?" But, now, I wish that she wasn't just saying shit to piss him off. I almost told him that today, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. All I could do was smile, hug him and say bye. I've been home from his house for 4 hours now, and I feel like I've been away from him for years. It's fucking killing me!! I want to tell him, but I can't!!! *Dies* Damn it! *Sigh* Well, here is a poem that I just finished writing about my weekend in a nutshell. I could touch your face. We could leave this place. I tell you I love you. Do you think it is true? You laugh at me as if it were a joke. Inside I just want to choke. I love you so much. I'd love to feel your touch. We fall into a hug. On my heart it will always tug. You think I'm kidding. Here I am sitting. With you, yet alone. I want to talk to you on the phone. When I'm not with you I want to cry. I always feel as though I will die. I listen to your music. It makes my heart sick. You have no idea, though I've said you are hott. Your lack of love makes me want to rot. I want to pull you near. I want to keep you here. Every one is in the dark about my love. They are like a winter storm, and it is a white dove. I've been told you like me, but know it to be a lie. Knowing that makes me want to cry. I almost told you today. I have so much to say. When you hugged me, I almost lost it. It sends my heart into a fit. My mouth opened, and all I said was "Goodbye." I couldn't let you hear my cry. With a smile and a wave, I was gone. Till next time, I'll feel your song. Well, Friday sucked. I slept most of it anyway, so it didn't matter much. Saturday, I woke up so early that I thought I was dead. I spent the day with Reoku's uncles and Swordpsycho. Then my friends Jesse, and Cassie came. It was good to see them after such a long time. My friend (the one I like) and his sister came. It was fun with them. I spent the rest of the day with him and Reoku's youngest uncle. He kicks ass at the guitar. Then I ended up going to his house (thanks to his sister ^^) I spent most of today with his sister, but I got to spend a little bit with him at the end. And he gave me a hug before I left. Well, I gotta go now. Bye. ^^

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Saturday, April 1, 2006

   April Fools Day!!!!

I've been awake since 3:30 this morning. I usually don't wake up until noon or some time after that. Damn... Spring break is almost over. But, hey, I get to see my friends at school on Monday. I'm waiting for Reoku to talk on Yahoo... So far... nothing... Swordpsycho and his mom are bringing up dresses for me to try on for prom, today. Yay... what fun... I hate girly crap. Nothing much going on. Gonna spend the whole day with Swordpsycho, and Reoku's two little uncles. Yeah... Exciting... Mistral was supposed to come up this weekend. But, she couldn't because we had no where for her to stay. ;-; Damn my parents. But, I'll get her up here some time soon. Or... She'll just do what she's best at... poofing... XD OMFG!! Reoku just told me that her dad's dog had puppies!!! YAY!! PUPPIES!!! HURRAY!!!! Ok. I'm done. See ya. ^^

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Friday, March 31, 2006

   Moo.

Well, tomorrow is Reoku and John's prom. YAY!!! Happy dance for them, damn it!!!! Um... I get to go to prom sometime next month. Can't remember the date, though. Rusty'll tell me. Food is good... I can't wait until it's done... Um... Nothing really to say. Dunno if I'll get to other sites today. See ya.

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Thursday, March 30, 2006

Quick post

Hey. Short post today. Sorry, I won't get to any sites today. Much love

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Well. I got on Yahoo! and Reoku decided that she was going to be idle after I said something to her. *Rolls eyes* Whatever. I don't care anymore. I'm going to prom with swordpsycho. Just as friends, though. Um... That's about all that's new here these days. My life is kinda boring. See ya.

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Monday, March 27, 2006

Quiz

For all my friends, this should be fun to see who knows me the best. I just made this quiz. Take it plz. ^^ http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=060327204132-593587& As for the day. It went well. I slept most of it. Spent the rest of the day running around town with my family. Had to go to therapy with my sister. She's screwed up, I guess. Well, I was waiting hopeing to talk to Reoku when I got home, but, she isn't home, thus, she's not online. Damn her. Well, see ya.

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Sunday, March 26, 2006

Weekend over.

'Sup. The weekend was fun. Had a small fight with Reo-re. But, that was over quick. John was mean to me. XD Not really, I'm just messin'. Um... Nothing else to say, except, Reoku, you didn't post again as Reo-Himura. XD

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Thursday, March 23, 2006

Another Roadrunner United song. ^^

I was electrified by your eyes as they froze Inviting me inside of your life to grow Everlasting setting sun You’re my angel, you’re the only one No one close and nothing compares in the end We will be together again I'm so mesmerized by the light you expose Igniting a fire deep inside of my soul Everlasting setting sun You’re my angel, you’re the only one No one close and nothing compares in the end We will be together again I'm so mezmerized by the light you expose Uniting fire deep inside of my soul Everlasting setting sun You’re my angel, you’re the only one No one close and nothing compares in the end We will be together again Darkness shall fall with the strength of us all Darkness shall fall Darkness shall fall with the strength of us all It shall fall I raise my white flag It’s the last flag I’ll ever raise Don't stay away Staring at you and all you are I believe Yeah I believe Yeah I believe (So much sadness, what happened to happiness...) Everlasting setting sun You’re my angel, you’re the only one No one close and nothing compares in the end You’re my angel, you’re the only one We will be together again I love that song. It's called Army of the Sun. ^^ Well, big weekend coming up. Time to test my patience once more. Can't wait to see Reo-re and John again. ^^ Nothing else to say. Bye. ^^

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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Just lyrics today.

The End Just when you thought it was over The sky turned black and we all fell to Earth Dead in our tracks, we were frozen in fact Choking to breathe, then came the seas Wash away impurities, wash away all that couldn’t be Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that our end is so near Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that our end is so near Standing at the end of our world Breathing in the chaos behold None will be found, it’s all toppling down Cities will seethe, none could believe Wash away impurities, wash away all that couldn’t be Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that their end is so near Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that our end is so near Save me Save me from what will engulf this world Save us Save us from the end, save us from ourselves Save me Save me from what will engulf this world Just when you thought it was over The sky turned black and we all fell to Earth Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that our end is so near Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that our end is so near Everyone will be washed away Drowning in the hell that we made I cannot believe that our end is so near Bye Roudrunner United. Half-pain Romaji Lyrics Tatoeba dokomade modorebaii? Oshiete Subete wa Itami wo tomonauhodo azayaka Hontou wa Wakeaerumono nantenaikara furikaeranakatta Watashi ni michiru yakusoku wa yagate Itsukano Kagayaki suteta Kaerenai asa no hikari noyou Tsumetai kokoro no soba ni iruyo Kogoete Tsuzuki wa kobamenaikurai hora asahaka Kitsukazu ni kaketa kanjou hiroi atsumete Yurushi wo motometara Hitori no yoru ni kanashimi no shikumi Anata no Nukumori kakushi Afuredeta sonoyami ni obieru Watashi ni michiru yakusoku wa yagate Itsukano Kagayaki suteta Kaerenai asa no hikari noyou English Translation How far back should I have to go? Tell me. Everything is so painfully vivid. The truth is, we couldn't understand each other, So I left and didn't look back fall into a light sleep I don't carry out Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being I never carry out my promises So long ago, I threw away my brightness And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return. It lies beside this cold heart, frozen So completely mindless that it persists forever Numbly, I gather the remnants of my emotions, And searching for redemption, I... fall into a light sleep I'm beginning to learn Fall into a light sleep, on a lonely night I'm beginning to learn the designs of sorrow The hiding away of your warm presence Makes me fear the overflowing darkness. fall into a light sleep I don't carry out Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being I never carry out my promises So long ago, I threw away my brightness And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return. Witch Hunter Robin theme.

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Ello.

'Sup? I'm in a decent mood... I think... Am I? Oh well. ^^ Well... Nothing to say. Me and Reo-re are good again. Matter of fact... I'm thinking to myself while talking to her right now, "what the hell is she talking about?" XDDDD Oh well. See ya.

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