Thursday, March 16, 2006

   Time to unload.

Well, this probably won't do me any good, since Reoku NEVER visits my site anymore. Matter of fact, no one does. Heh. I feel like I'm just fucking surrounded by friends. Wouldn't you? Who am I kidding? There is no, 'you'. *Rolls eyes.* Sorry about being such a bitch, but, it seems that I'm just fallowing suit. You see, people tend to get bitchy when their best friend fucking forgets completely about them! I'm sorry, Reoku, but you have been such a bitch lately. It's like you don't hear anything I say! I'm sick of hearing, "I hope I didn't offend you." Jesus christ! Why the hell did you say it, then!? Listen, next time John comes up here with you, I'm staying home. I figure that it's a hell of a lot better to be alone and be ignored, than to be with my best friend and her boyfriend, and be ignored. Don't bother coming to my house to get me next Friday, because I'll probably just slam the fucking door in your face. Gee, seem familiar? I believe I did that when you were being a bitch while you were here last weekend. My god, I was talking to you on Yahoo, and you were sad that you had to get off. Not because you wouldn't be able to talk to me. The one who you won't be able to see until next weekend, and won't be able to talk to for a while. But, beacuse you couldn't talk to John when he got online. John, the one and only, the one that you see every fucking day! And I swear to god. If I hear that he cries again because 'it's his fault' I'll fucking say what's on my mind. I'm sick of being nice to people for the sake of my friends. Because, honestly, I was blaming him. But, no, I couldn't say that, because that would have hurt you. You know what? I'm fucking sick of worrying about hurting you. You don't seem to care much about hurting me. You used to say things about how much you hated people who are in a relationship and shove it in your face. Do you remember that? I sure as hell do. Because, if I'm not mistaken, I agreed with you. Huh, silly me, I guess I was the only one, wasn't I? Everywhere I look, it's 'I love John' this, and 'I love John' that. For once, JUST ONCE! I'd like to have a normal conversation with you! I don't talk about the guy I like 24/7. As a matter of fact, I've never written, 'I love' anyone anywhere for more than a day. I'm happy for you. Believe me, I am. I'm just sick of not being able to talk to you. Pan is, too. She's just too nice to say anything about it. Well, I'm not anymore. I'm sick of hearing Pan cry about how she feels neglected and shoved aside. Because I can relate. This is the same fucking thing that happened with Tab. Me and her were really close. Best friend close. Now, I can't even say hi to her, without hearing about what Timmy did that day. I'd love to talk about the random shit that we always talked about, and not have a guys name pop up. Wouldn't you? The only times I even bring up the guy I likes name, is when you start talking about John. Me and Pan aren't shit compared to him, are we? Because, I'll tell you right now, that's what it feels like. I don't care if I'm second best, or who I'm second best to. But, when you start telling me, without really telling me that I am, I'll fucking go off. Huh, kinda like now. My own peom (Life) pisses me off, now. It seems like it's all a lie. I'm done feeling sorry for myself, and have been. But, you make it so fucking hard to not feel sorry for myself. It makes me think of how truely alone I am. I don't even have you anymore. Now, I'm only thinking about me and Pan. The ones who are being neglected, and are sick of it. Did you know, that she doesn't think that you like her anymore? Christ, Reo, how wonderful of a friend you are. People who forget about their friends, and think about no one but their significant other, make me so sick. I'm done losing friends. I see who my real friends are, now. Btw, tell Liz, that whether we're friends or not, Chris' birthday will still be celebrated. I won't let anything stand in the way of that. Chris' birthday will not be ignored just because I'm in a fight. He's more important than that. "I hope I didn't offend you." ~Kaatje

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Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Life

Is life really all bad? Is everyone really so sad? Are we all just wallowing in our pain? Are we really left out in the rain? Just stop crying. Don't give up on trying. We all go through ruts. Sometimes it makes us nuts. Is it true that we can never move on? Is everything we've ever done really wrong? Why can't we just be happy for what we are? Why don't we believe in our guiding star? Just stop crying. Don't give up on trying. We all have our regrets. But we can still go on, so let's. Do you not hear anything I say? Are you really that far away? Have you just lost touch? Have you given up on trust? Just stop crying. Don't give up on trying. Learn to laugh and smile. And please, stay with me a while. Will you ever take my hand? Come with me to Neverland? Let go of all your sorrows? Live to see tomorrow? Just stop crying. Don't give up on trying. I've wiped away all my tears. And paved a path without fears. Will you fallow the path and walk with me? Do you believe that you'll really be free? Will you hold my hand, and love forever? And your past, you'll forget to remember? Just stop crying. Don't give up on trying. Life has it's let downs. And our smiles sometimes turn to frowns. But will you let that get in your way? Will you let it lead you astray? Do you want to be lost forever? Or do you want to be together? Just stop crying. Don't give up on trying. Remember I am here. With me, you have no fear.

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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Quick post.

Hey. Quick post. Nothing much going on... Um... Bye

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Monday, March 13, 2006

Hm...

We have a 2-hour delay all week this week!!! Yes! OGTs rock!!! Until I have to take them... XD Damn things. Well... My day was boreing and uneventfull... Um... See ya. ^^

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

Weekend

Well, my weekend was something short of grand. But, it didn't totally suck ass. Events: 1. Reoku came up to my house with her boyfriend, John. 2. We all stayed at Reoku's little house up here. That was Friday. 3. Me and Reoku got in a fight. 4. John blamed himself. 5. I acted like a bitch. 6. Reoku and John felt bad. 7. I got over it. 8. Reoku got over it. 9. John didn't 10. Reoku and I beat the stupid blame out of him. (Not really beat.) 11.I ended up staying with them instead of home. And that was all on Saturday. Yay. And on Sunday. 12. John kept feeling bad about stupid things. 13. Me and Reoku were good again. 14. Normal ruitine set back in. 15. Just as everything was getting completly great, tey left. Yeah. Fun. Well, now that we're done playing catch up, I gotta go update other crap. See ya.

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Tuesday, March 7, 2006

Hospitals suck. >.>;;;;

I had to drink this moldy orange juice tasting stuff today. XP Catscans suck. I decided that the coffee machines in the hospital are gay. But, the test went ok, I think, and I'll figure out the results next time I go to see my dumb ass for a doctor. ^^ Fun. *Rolls eyes* Other than that... Nothing... OH!! The new Nickleback CD is good. I just stole it from my dad... XD Ok... Now, I'm out. ^^ Bye.

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Sunday, March 5, 2006

Moo.

Hey. My arm hurts really bad... Stupid Jessie... >.> Ok, I'm done. I spent the weekend with Reoku. ^^ We spent the whole time talking about how we missed people. Like her missing John. ^^ Oh well... I have nothing to say really... Um... Bye. ^^ ~Kaatje^.>

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Thursday, March 2, 2006

Back.

Hey. I'm back. I've been grounded. >.>;; It sucked. My sister, Bex, had her baby on her birthday!!!! ^^ I was so happy!!!! He is the cutest thing I've ever seen!!!!! I love him!! Ok, I'm done. Nothing else to say. See ya. ~Kaatje^.>

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Tuesday, February 21, 2006

My parents are lucky!

If my parents would have had a boy, I would be so gay!! I hate girls with a passion that is burning even more!!! You know those chicks that flirt with EVERY guy, no matter how old, young, ugly, gay, straight, cute, ect... they are? I know so many of them, it's making me hate the entire (minus a select few) female race. Argh!! Ok. I'm done. ^^ So... I have nothing else to say. See ya. ^^ ~Kaatje^.>

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Monday, February 20, 2006

'Sup

How is eveyone today? Not much to say. Just letting you guys know that I'm alive. Well, see ya. ~Kaatje^.> P.S. Reoku & Chibi sbg, I miss you!!!

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