Monday, September 12, 2005

Dude whoa o.o

This isnt Kaatje ^^ This is her friend Reoku-Himura, this one sees she's been at home ever since schoo lstarted @.@ so this one is updateing for her. ^^ HI MUFFIN o.o but meh. Gotta go now, at least it was updated!! And this comeing weekend, Kaatje!! We'll be there at the Caverns!!

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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Home

Hey, I won't be updating for a while. (Not sure how long.) I'm going home and have school starting tomorrow. See you guys when I see ya. ^^ Sorry, no poem today. Don't have the time. ~Kaatje^.>

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Monday, August 22, 2005

Poem

KILLER They call you all these names You don't understand Why do they hate you so You walk low with shame You can't mend Why do they hate you so Your not really what they think Your not a killer Why do they hate you so Of insanity, your on the brink Your heart has no filler Why do they hate you so Terror in their eyes They scatter, hiding their children Why do they hate you so To them, you seem to be a fly Buzzing around, waiting to kill them Why do they hate you so It wasn't your fault You didn't mean for any of it You know why they hate you so Your mind formed a volt It told you to do all that shit! You know why they hate you so You really are Just another Killer A/N: Skitzo's are fun!!! WHEE!! Just so you know, I'm aware that it doesn't rhyme well. I meant it to be exactly how it came out. ^^ Hope you liked it. ~Kaatje^.>

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Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sorry

I can't find a good NIN midi. So, for now, I've got two songs from Disturbed as my midi. I ask that anyone who knows where I can find a decend Head Like A Hole midi, pm/comment the link to me. Perferably with words. Well, sorry that my theme has been wrecked by this inconvenience. As for now, I have to figure out what poem to put up here. I haven't put one up for a while... PRIDE I bow my head in the silence. A cold shiver comes. Tears fill my eyes. The day I've dreaded all my life. My daddy didn't come home. The fire is out, The trucks are in the bay. I wipe away my tears. I knew I'd have to be strong. It's so hard not to cry. All this time I've prepared for. This day, I knew might come. His last words were "I love you." As he walked out the door. I'll miss my daddy more than anything. I know he's in a better place. I just want everyone else to see, He's one of the many, Who have died, With hearts full of pride That's all for now. See ya ~Kaatje^.>

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

Whoa! Two posts in one day... Maybe you will get a poem... Doubt it.

Hey, I just spent the past hour 1/2 to two hours changing my site. I LOVE REZNOR!!!!!!!!!! ^^ The damned thing wouldn't work. I hate being dumb sometimes. *sigh* Oh well, it works now! YAY!! ^^ I think I shall put a Nine Inch Nails song up here now!! ^^ ONLY I'm becoming less defined as days go by Fading away Well you might say I'm losing focus Kind adrifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself Sometimes I think I can see right through myself [x3] Less concerned about fitting into the world Your world that is Because it doesn't really matter (no it doesn't really matter anymore) None of this really matters anymore Yes I'm alone but then again I always was As far back as I can tell I think maybe it's because you never were really real to begin with I just made you up to hurt myself [x6] And it worked. Yes it did! [Chorus] There is no you There is only me There is no you There is only me There is no fucking you There is only me There is no fucking you There is only me Only [x3] The tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be scab and I had this funny feeling Like I just knew it was something bad I just couldn't leave it alone, picking at that scab Was a doorway trying to seal itself shut But I climbed through Now I am somehwere I am not supposed to be, and I can see things I knew I really Shouldn't see And now I know why (yea now I know why) Things aren't as pretty On the inside [Chorus] I like that song, 'cuz it reminds me of me... Yeah... kinda... I have made things up just for the hell of it, and/or to hurt myself. And it does work... occasionally. But, (everything seems to do this lately.) it reminds me of Dennis. Damn it! What am I?! A freakin' school girl?! Shoot me, anyone... Whatever. Anyway, gotta go. ~Kaatje^.>

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Moo.

Hey. I signed a few gbs today... added some friends... Slept... That's about it. XD BTW, for Inu-4-Ever, Chris is an asshole. Otherwise, I'd have tried to get him to go out with me. But, he's an ass, so scratch that. Anyway, I need food... Wait, that's not what I was gonna say. XDDD I'm going to make a theme for my site. I think I shall get a new bg. REZNOR!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes. Reznor... Mr. Smex. ^^ Sorry. Nothing else to say... Well, see ya. ^^ Sorry no poem today. You probably don't wanna hear them anyway. ~Kaatje^.>

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Friday, August 19, 2005

Whoo-hoo!! Back, with quiz, and poem!!

Thnx muffin-head, for the posting while I was gone. Well, here's a quiz I took. Fullmetal Alchemist: You as a State Alchemist by SilvernFalcon (User)Name?: Age?: Favorite alchemist?: Edward ElricAlphonse ElricRoy MustangScarIzumi CurtisWrathKimbleyTim Marcohother Favorite homunculus?: EnvyGreedGluttonyLustSlothPrideWrath Your alchemy element: Water Your alchemist name: Frozen-Hearted Alchemist Roy Mustang...: ...Wants to kiss you. Edward Elric...: ...Has a picture of you. Scar...: ...Hates you. Envy...: ...Has dreams about you. Your alchemy success percentage:: 60% Your rank: Brigadier General Quiz created with MemeGen! And here is a poem. BLOODY My heart was bleeding in your hands Did you even notice When I held you close Did you feel the blood soak your clothes I love you But your love hurts me I wish I could tell you that I still feel the same Depression has me by the neck Slowly tightening it's grip They say love will always win But I don't find it true I find it a lie Just as you lied to me YOU KNEW I LOVED YOU!!! YOU KNOW I STILL DO!! Where are you?! I want to see you! Please... Come back... See me... Please... I'm dead And bloody. A/N This is dedicated to Dennis. I still love you. Never stop believing that. Please talk to me.I know you probably won't read this, but it's true.

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Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Well...

Since Kaatje hasn't posted in a while, I, Muffin, shall fill in for her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Everything is sad. Sad, dreary, dull, horrible. Muffin is my best friend ever in the whole world. I'm going to give her several baked goods, such as cookies and muffins and cupcakes! And then we're going to throw a huge party and only the coolest peoples may come, like Reoku and Tillz and Muffin and them allz. Much love, Kaatje ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Yay! Wasn't that great? I hope you all liked my Kaatje impression. Leave a comment, let me know. Peace, love, and Muffin

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Thursday, August 4, 2005

A poem from the Muffin (Gasp!)

Where were You today? I called. Why didn't You answer me? Now darkness surrounds me, takes away my breath. I can't see Your face in all of this. Where are You? Where can I go? Darkness on all sides, No hope in sight. "Look up," You whisper in my ear. My eyes turn skyward. One ray of light meets my gaze. I let go, and run to Your arms. (Capital "Your" = Jesus. Not a typo)

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Alas. Another poem.

MY DREAM I look in the mirror this morning. To see the tears streaming down my face. I want to hold you. The way we used to be. I want you to still love me. The way I still love you. I never wanted to leave you! You know that... Don't you? I look deeper. Wait! Am I imagining things? Was that really your face I saw? The look... So cold... Your eyes. Were they full of tears as well? Or was that simply my imagination? I pry my eyes from the mirror. Just for a moment, I see that I'm alone... But then, I look back up... And your still here. Hold me! Stay here! Don't leave my tortured soul! I never wanted to leave you! We parted on such horrible terms... Can you ever forgive me? I wanted to stay forever. Did you? Would you have? The knife rested in my hand. I thought I wanted it. But, then, I thought I didn't want you. It's closer to my wrist. Was that a tear? My tear? NO! My eyes are dry! I look up. There you are. Your hand reaching for me. Tears streaming down your face. Your begging me. "Please, stop. Don't hurt yourself anymore." The knife falls from my hand. Tears streaming down my face. I'm begging you. "Please, don't leave me here alone! Forgive me!" We embrace. The way we used to be. Your arms keeping me safe. I never want to leave. I open my eyes. Your gone. I look around, knife in hand. And it was only a dream. You'll never come back for me. Never come to stop me. Never care for me. Never forgive me.

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