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Well, it is now a new day, and I'm still on. My dad and uncle have been talking for HOURS!!! It's so... weird...
I hope my muffin-head got the e-mail about my new pass. Sorry muffin, I didn't mean to not tell you about it, but I lost your addy. >.>;;;;
Here are just a few words to remember that I've been trying to keep in mind. They've been sticking with me since we lost Chris...
Keep your friends and loved ones close. Tomorrow, you may wake up and they'll be gone. It's the hardest lesson to learn. Don't be mean to anyone. You may only realize you love them, and how much you need them, when they're gone. Let them live on in your heart. Go to places they've been, and never, EVER, forget the "GOOD STUFF."
I wrote that two days after he died. Sorry if I'm droning on and on, and no one wants to read all this crap.
Now I have a poem.
SWEET REDEMPTION
I look in the mirror
Searching for something clearer
The words were never spoken
Our lives weren't worth a token
We tried and strived so hard
All we have is an "I'm sorry" card
Why does life have to end
To live, must we pretend
I lay down and cry at night
As I pray for light
This darkness I've always loved
has left me here and shoved
To relive my life, I'd change one thing
I'd revive you, to be our king
I'd live each day loving you
The way I always wanted to
I sit and try to learn why
You killed yourself, and made us cry
I've wanted to say this for so long
But was always afraid that I was wrong
I'm not sure I could ever say this
I love you so much, Chris.
Sorry my mind is on one track... I'll stop that for a while now...
Well, news lately... Still no computer that I can acually use besides this one... Only gonna be on this for a few more minutes... Um... Nothing else to say.
Words of advice; Don't let love slip through your fingers. If you truely love someone, and need them, don't be afraid to tell them. If you do, you'll spend your whole life like me, wondering if things would have been different. Though I don't think they would be, I just can
't help it. Love may be something that I say I don't believe in, because I never really did, and now I really don't, and don't know if I ever will again, but it is something that you should NEVER take for granted. Love everyone, and everything you have, and will ever have. Love what you've lost.
Those are my parting words to you guys. See ya when I see ya.
Much love
~Kaatje^.>
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