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I was at a friends house today and realized how much I really love him. I don't mean, man, he's awesome, I love him. I mean, I want to grab him and kiss him. The kid at school, and Ty don't even compare. I've known him for a long time, but I just realized how much I love him. I can't even believe it. It's so stupid. A while ago, his sister told me that he liked me, and I said "Poor guy. Can't he find something better?" But, now, I wish that she wasn't just saying shit to piss him off. I almost told him that today, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. All I could do was smile, hug him and say bye. I've been home from his house for 4 hours now, and I feel like I've been away from him for years. It's fucking killing me!! I want to tell him, but I can't!!! *Dies* Damn it! *Sigh* Well, here is a poem that I just finished writing about my weekend in a nutshell.
I could touch your face.
We could leave this place.
I tell you I love you.
Do you think it is true?
You laugh at me as if it were a joke.
Inside I just want to choke.
I love you so much.
I'd love to feel your touch.
We fall into a hug.
On my heart it will always tug.
You think I'm kidding.
Here I am sitting.
With you, yet alone.
I want to talk to you on the phone.
When I'm not with you I want to cry.
I always feel as though I will die.
I listen to your music.
It makes my heart sick.
You have no idea, though I've said you are hott.
Your lack of love makes me want to rot.
I want to pull you near.
I want to keep you here.
Every one is in the dark about my love.
They are like a winter storm, and it is a white dove.
I've been told you like me, but know it to be a lie.
Knowing that makes me want to cry.
I almost told you today.
I have so much to say.
When you hugged me, I almost lost it.
It sends my heart into a fit.
My mouth opened, and all I said was "Goodbye."
I couldn't let you hear my cry.
With a smile and a wave, I was gone.
Till next time, I'll feel your song.
Well, Friday sucked. I slept most of it anyway, so it didn't matter much. Saturday, I woke up so early that I thought I was dead. I spent the day with Reoku's uncles and Swordpsycho. Then my friends Jesse, and Cassie came. It was good to see them after such a long time. My friend (the one I like) and his sister came. It was fun with them. I spent the rest of the day with him and Reoku's youngest uncle. He kicks ass at the guitar. Then I ended up going to his house (thanks to his sister ^^) I spent most of today with his sister, but I got to spend a little bit with him at the end. And he gave me a hug before I left.
Well, I gotta go now. Bye. ^^
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