Thursday, November 6, 2003

Is it possible?
Geez, I never knew this about him... more conflict in the household. Mum and dad were yelling, and throwing stuff, then it was decided.

"Let one of them choose!" My dad suggested.

Me, Mike, and Gavin hid our faces behind the pillows. Cameron, with his hood on, thought he was naturally invisible... after all, it's like that at school. When the hood is up, you don't talk to Cameron, and he doesn't talk of hear you.

"Fine, have Cameron choose." Mum said.

Cameron's eyes widened, and he let out a long whiney sound, and slamming his head on the table.

"Cameron!?" Mum freaked out thinking Cameron had fainted or something.

"He doesn't speak mom..." Gavin pointed out.

Now, I've never described Cameron to you... Cameron is... (Thinks hard) he's a very quiet boy. He only shrugs, shakes and nods his head and he's done.

Cameron speaks, and he's smarter than me, and Mike combined, he's like Gavin; straight A material.

Cameron is the type of guy who wears that hood, has friends, but of a selective group, and he speaks in low voices to others, but when you look over your shoulder, he's laughing and yelling with friends. At home, he's mute. (Anyway...)

"M-me?" Oh, this sound was nothing but a squeak to my ears.

"I... Gavin will do it!" Cameron turned to Gavin... but Gavin; Gavin was long gone by that time, he was already up the stairs. Mike right beside him.

"Traitors..." Cameron and I mutered under our breath.

"Well Cameron? Wanna live with me, or your mum? C'mon you stupid boy, say something!"

I glared at dad. He had no right to call Cammie a stupid boy, no, no, that's MY job!

"Hey! Leave him alone!"

I grabbed Cameron's hand and led him upstairs.

"I wanna live with mom!" Cameron said loudly.

My dad gasped.

"Oh Cammie..." My mother ran to hug him. Dad sighed deeply and walked to the door.

"Cameron, you're a stuid boy d'ya know that?"

My mum turned to him.

"Get out!"

I never heard mum scream at him that loud before >_<" heh, it was rather surprising Oo"

"Cameron has a voice?"

As you can see, Mike is the more dim-witted one, I'm a little above him >.>"

This now, this has been strange. Since then, Cameron has been talking more, and he's nicer to me... it should be good right? But... it's not >_<"

I enjoy being chased by BB guns, and I like hunting him to get my Snicker bars back... a turn for the worst now >_<" I'll have to pick on Mike now... and he's already made his peace with me Oo" *Sigh* I dunno; I'll live I guess heh.
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Wednesday, November 5, 2003

Takin' some tests till later >_>"
*Steals from AJeh ^^; Really must stop theiving >_>"*

Your Anime Life by kazoku
Your username
Gross income of creators	$1,863,271
Genre	Mecha
Your role	Almost A Hero But Not
Your secret	You have super powers that no one must know about.
Will you save the world?	No, you're too busy playing Final Fantasy XXVIII to care.
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

*Steals from Solo*

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?
Geez... better cut down on my bad actions >_<"
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Saturday, November 1, 2003

Okay.
Heh, feel like taking quizzes today >_<" heh, this one... I forget where I took it from >_<" but, it says I am yellow o.O"

What color are you? (Anime Pictures)
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It's cool ^^
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Aww, Great! >_<

<<>>???What Kind Of Angel R You???<<>>( Anime Pics )
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Aww great, this would explain my short temper >_<" Lol.
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I hate you.

3 days ago… I… I made some harsh decisions. I said some mean things… and, I made someone feel like crap.

Where had you been all my life? What have you done for me? There is no way for me to forgive you…

He walked through the door, rather tall, casual dresser, no trench coats like in the movies. >_<” Heh, The boys’ faces lit up and all of them in unison cried out; “DAD!”

Me On the other hand, I stayed on the couch. Now, I never told anyone here at OB about this… I don’t think anyway, but my father left me when I was 3 months… I HATED him growing up… he never called, he never asked about me, he never left me a note to read when I reached the right age so he could apologize, I needed something!

I tried to sneak up stairs. The stairs creaked as I climbed them slowly and stealthily, trying not to get caught by him. Then, my stupid cat ran past, I stepped on her and she screamed bloody murder, making me freak out and fall down the stairs. (I Was Pretty Embarrassed ^^;)

Me thinks: Oo” Geez, way to go Gianna! You stupid girl!

I rose to my feet. I saw him look up from the boys to see me with my cat who grasped my arm refusing to let go, with my right hand clutching my head in agony.

“Ginny?” His voice curving, giving it a short surprised shriek. “How ya been girlie?”

Now, I know it’s not nice to tease, but who knew this guy had an English accent. Made me wonder a bit >_<” I stood up and threw my cat on to the couch where she hissed at me and ran.

“My name’s not Ginny.”

“Oh? If I recall, we gave you that second middle name… Yeah, it was going to be Gianna Virginia Martinez.”

I shuddered at the thought.

“Virginia?”

“My sisters name, Ginny is a dim version of it… so, I thought we’d name you that.”

He motioned to me asking for a hug. I pulled back.

“DO I KNOW YOU!?”

I never raise my voice, but I made an exception that day.

“It’s me Gin… your old dad”

I just stared. Seeing the disappointed look on the boys’ faces, I slightly shook my head.

Then, my mum stepped in.

“Oh… Gianna this is-“

“Not my father…”

My mother shocked with disbelief to my harsh words. Seeing my “Father’s” face go pale and sad seemed to make me happy deep inside… but a part did hurt.

“But, Gianna, this is—“

“The man that left cause he wanted his children to be a team of six, strong boys, but what he got was five boys, and a girl! So, he left cause that wasn’t what he wanted, making us struggle the first couple years, then, when we finally we catch our balance, he appears and suddenly wants a hug from someone he deserted!”

I really don’t cry much, but I felt the water rising in my eyes. The boys had stepped away from him, acting as though he was a criminal.

“Gin… I know what I did was wrong but--“

"I hate you."

I ignored him and walked upstairs… packed some stuff, took my backpack, and my Cabbot (Rabbit-Cat animals like Ryo-Ohki heh, they do exist, I’ve got one, but she’s white, and makes no noises cause she’s more bunny then cat >_<”)

And my Zidane plushie which is my fave ^^ then, I climbed out my window, waved bye to Alex for a while, and walked myself five blocks over to Camay’s house, where she let me stay until he he left.

That night, I made some stupid decisions… I drank, which, my mum finds okay, as long as I have 1 or 2, but tat night, I can’t recal but next day I had a HUGE hangover. Usually I’m very careful and obedient, but that day, I was hurt… so, I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way.

I woke up frustrated, sick, and I accidentally threw up on my Cabbot >_<” I gave her bath, it wasn’t my fault! She was white like the rim of a toilet seat… thought I was in the bathroom… I didn’t go home ‘til this morning… my mum disappointed… and him gone finally.

My brothers gave me slight support, ‘til they all decided to sit on me and beat me up like always o.O”

Now, things are normal… but, I can still feel that hangover inside… plus, my brothers are teasing me. Every time they see me, they hold a beer under my nose, and make me want to throw up… also, when I hit the keys; I hear them twice as loud… it hurts!!!!!

Heh, a rather exciting, week for me. I realize my actions were harsh, stupid, and dumb, but what do I know? I’ve a pyromaniac brother who French’s my dog everyday OO” heh, now, if you’ll excuse me, I’ve an ice pack to attend to, and a hangover from yesterday to work on @.@”
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Thursday, October 30, 2003

*stole-ed from Ajeh, whole stole-ed this from Juu, and thusly Solo too*
*Steals Ajeh's quoteee* Stealing is sooo fun ¬_¬ {Lol}

(1) what is your name? Gianna Marcelina Martinez {My nickname is Ginny... but, NOT GinnyLyn... just to clear that up ^^}
(2) Are you happy with it? Yeah, cept my middle name >_<"
(3) Are you named after anyone? Sorta.
(5) Your screenname: Kaede-san
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? *With d\serious and deep voice* NO.
(7) Then what would you name your children? Girl: Well, Ginny {It's all GinnyLyn's fault, now I looove that name >_>"
Boy: Aran {Is pronounced Auron though}
(8) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? My mom said she was gonna name me Giovanni o.O" man, makes me think she had too much time on her hands >_>"
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? Hrmmm.... Auris! Alex's older brother! ^^ His name is sooo cool!
(10) Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? Gianna, most say "Gina" once I was called "Ginjer" o.O"
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? Nah.... 'less I got married I guess...

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BASICS
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(12) Your sex: Female
(13) Straight/gay/bi? Straight
(14) Single? Nooo.
(15) Want to be? Probably a cartoonist... maybe an actress? Bah, I dunno -_-"
(16) Your birthdate: February 22, 1989
(17) Your age: 14
(18) Age you act: Varied... but, mainly silly and hyper; I'm the funniest of all my friends ^^
(19) Age you wish you were: 18! So I can leave my idiot brothers and get my own place 'stead of lose my plushies and clothing to a lighter!
(20) Your height: 5'4" or so...
(21) The color of your eyes: A Dark, Dark brown
(22) Happy with it? With my eye colour, yes o_O
(23) The color of your hair: Black
(24) Happy with it? Got a problem? No, I'm good ^_^
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? Right handed
(26) Your living arrangement? Erm... just me, a small section of selected plushies, another corner with my computer, HUGE window near my bed, where me and Alex usually communicate... or that Alex will climb through. A tv, and, and bathroom dorr that connects to my brother's room... which is why my room has a few of their clothes on my floor o.O"
(27) Your family: Mom, 22 year old brother,21 year old brother, 18 year old brother, two sixteen year old brothers, and me >_<" the only girl...
(28) Have any pets? Many
(29) What's your job: Erm... I work at a Tower Records with my brothers ^^"
(30) Piercings? Noop.
(31) Tattoos? Noop.
(32) Obsessions? Scribbling on my right wrist, and clinging on to my male friends' hair. Snuggle soft? o.O
(33) Addictions? I've a strange addiction to fire now...
(35) Do you speak another language? Somewhat German, English, and French ^^
(36) Have a favourite quote? I didn't do it >_>"
(37) Do you have a webpage? No.

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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? No. *Writes another random OB member's name on shoes. This weeks pick; {Besides Desbreko's} is... Hmm... I guess Solo's and Ajehs ^^ Lol*
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Yes
(40) Do you have any secrets? *"Accidentally sets her brother Cameron on fire* No. No I don't. ¬_¬
(41) Do you hate yourself? When I hit my foot against a table with no shoes on, then yes. Any other time... then no ^^
(42) Do you like your handwriting? No. Too... "Happy" you could say?
(43) Do you have any bad habits? Setting things on fire, and blowing up seagulls >_>"
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? "You're a freak..." o.-
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? HEY YOU STUPID SEAGULL! GIVE ME MY SHOE BACK! OO" Not that I've ever lost my shoe to a seagull >_>"
(46) What's your biggest fear? Cameras and their flashes.
(47) Can you sing? Sorta... never sung before others >_>"
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? *Is dressed like her brother Gavin* Nooo. >_>"
(49) Are you a loner? Yis. At times anyway.
(50) What are your no. 1 priorities in life? I don't know... never asked myself that o.o
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? No. I'd first pretend to not like me to hide my secret crush that I had on me. Lol. Most likely yes, unless I get hyper off sugar or something.
(52) Are you a daredevil? No. Unless making a mean picture of my English teacher counts.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? I can zone out, tilt my head and stare you in the eye and mumble stuff without even noticing it. Oh, and I'd probably try to bite J00 >_>"
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? Hit me, and you'll be in a world of pain. Sit on me, and you'll be in a world of pain. Touch me... and you'll scare the shit out of me... then you'll be in a world of pain... so I guess I'm passive huh? Lol.
(55) Have you got a journal? No... 'cept this one... and the one were I write down the many mistakes of my brothers.
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? Strength: Creativity, funny person - Weakness: Lazy, lack of Karma.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? The lazyness ¬_¬
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity. Which one would you choose? Creativity
(59) How do you vent? Huh?
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? Yis. I don't usually give a sh*t... alls I know is that if you even tap me, i react and hit you accidentally.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Naw... I'm okay ^^
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? No. brother pressuring me in to being like him, Mr. Straight A student.
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Give out packages of pain, and it'll come back to bite you... or come out at night and hack your hair short instantly making you a girl with a boyish hair cut OO"
(64) What do you like the most about your body? I is Mini Ginny ^^ artistic... yet, nothing like her -_-"
(65) And least? The elbow... it hurts!
(66) Do you think you are good looking? Normal
(67) Are you confident? No.
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? Ash's Totodile... yis, we loves to jump and dance in circles o.O"
(69) Do people know how you feel? Yis.
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? I don't think so

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DO YOU...
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(71) Smoke? Nooop
(72) Do drugs? Nooop
(73) Read the newspaper? FUNNI-- Erm I mean... Yis... I uhh... love the... news?
(74) Pray? Yep
(75) Go to church? When we do. Usually, every other week.
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? Sometimes... they must be from OB though ^^"
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? Plushies, actually, my possessed Zidane plushie GinnyLyn gave me ^^
(78) Take walks in the rain? I hate the rain.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? Frequently, lol.
(80) Drive? Nooo.
(81) Like to drive fast? When I get the chance >_>"

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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice? Yeah. It's okay ^^
(83) Hurt yourself? Many times...
(84) Been out of the country? Yeah
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? I get sick too.. what are you trying to imply? o.O
(86) Had sex? No
(87) Been unfaithful? No
(88) Been in love? Yis.
(89) Done drugs? Nope
(90) Gone skinny dipping? No, lol
(91) Had a medical emergency? I've ridding on the back of a bike with Gavin, and broke my leg, and my wrist o.O"
(92) Had a surgery? Never
(93) Ran away from home? Lol. If I did, my room would be nothing but ash o.O"
(94) Played strip poker? Yis. But I never lose ;)
(95) Gotten beaten up? Yis. Sat on, bitten, kicked in the butt, fell down the stairs.
(96) Beaten someone up? CAMMIE! *Huggles her older brother Cameron*
(97) Been picked on? Yis.
(98) Been on stage? Nooo, I refuse to -_-
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? Lol. Once, this month,'cept I had no date, just got a little drunk when celebrating Gavin's Birthday Mother very dissapointed.
(100) Slept outdoors? Yis, thought we heard Big Foot while at it o.O"
(101) Thought about suicide? Wonder what it's like...
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? >_>"
(103) If yes, what is your record? >_>"
(104) Gone one day without food? ^_^ Easily
(105) Talked on the phone all night? Yeah: Alex
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex first Erm...
(107) Slept all day? Yeps
(108) Killed someone? Who told!? I mean... no. Never.¬_¬
(109) Made out with a stranger? No
(110) Had sex with a stranger? Lol. No.
(111) Thought you're going crazy? Once saw this guys dressed as Barney... could've sworn I killed-- erm I mean, cancelled him and his show >_>"
(112) Kissed the same sex? Do moms count?
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? I've played along with an old friends plan to act as though we were together >_>"
(114) Been betrayed? Yis.
(115) Had a dream that came true? A lot
(116) Broken the law? How is
(117) Met a famous person? I wish.
(118) Masturbated? No. I don't have the right "Equipment" for that o.o"
(119) Masturbated with something other then your hand? (Read above line)
(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? Ants as far as it gets, and my first seagull... all the others purposely -_-
(121) On purpose? I burn ants... and Seagulls blow up >_>"
(122) Had sex? No
(123) With more then 1 person? ¬_¬
(124) Threesome? ¬_¬
(125) Orgy? Oo"
(126) Whip cream? No. unless you mean to eat, like right out the can. But, not for that >_>"
(127) Bondage? OO"
(128) Whipped/gotten whipped? No... been smacked with a skateboard, but not for this occasion.
(129) Blindfolded? What kind of questions are these?
(130) Tied someone up/been tied up? No.
(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? No.
(146) Stolen anything? Mom's gum.
(147) Been on radio/tv? No.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit? Nope
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? Not serious ones
(150) Considered religious vocation? Vocation?
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance? No.
(152) Bungee jumped? Nope
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? Yeah

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CLOTHES and other fashion
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(154) Shoe brand? Converse
(155) Brand of clothing? Anything
(156) Cologne/perfume? Deodorant is as far as it gets, lol
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Uniform -_-;
(158) How about parties? Casualness
(159) Wear hats? Quicksilver, Fox, and Vocom beanies...
(160) Judge other people by their clothing? No.
(161) Wear make-up? Nope
(162) Favourite place to shop? O.o"
(163) Favourite article of clothing? Collard shirts.
(164) Are you trendy? No.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? .. don't start me on this

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BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets? Not sure
(167) Miracles? Yes
(168) Astrology? No
(169) Magic? No
(170) God? Yes
(171) Satan? Yes
(172) Santa? No.
(173) Ghosts? Mebbe
(174) Luck? Yis!
(175) Love at first sight? Yis.
(176) Yin and Yang? Yis.
(177) Witches? Nah
(178) Easter bunny? Used to, til my bunny died..
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Not since Leprechaun came out O.o" made a note to myself saying; "Do not mess with the L-Man"
(181) Do you wish on stars? No, lol

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DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? Yes
(183) Do you think God has a gender? Yis
(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? No
(185) Do you believe in organized religion? Yes
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? Heaven or Hell..

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AMIGOS
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Yis.
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? Alex.
(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Yeah... my friends aren't that smart >_>"
(191) Your favourite inside joke? Lawrence with his; "Do you find me Randi baby?" quote O.o"
(192) Thing you're picked on most about? My hate for cameras.
(193) Who's your longest known friend? Sakuna
(194) Newest? Ana
(195) Shyest? Rowena, Maribel
(196) Funniest? Lawrence, Aran
(197) Sweetest? Andrew, Josh
(198) Closest? Sakuna, Rogelio, Maribel
(199) Weirdest? Lawrence
(200) Smartest? Jayke
(201) Ditziest? Does dopey count? Loly
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? Sakuna.
(203) Last person you talked to online? Alex
(204) Who do you talk to most online? Desbreko, and Auris
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? Alex
(206) Who do you trust most? Too many!
(207) Who listens to your problems? Anyone that I can grab and pull a chair upto ¬_¬
(208) Who do you fight most with? Cameron
(209) Who's the nicest? ..Gavin
(210) Who's the most outgoing? Mike
(211) Who's the best singer? Alex
(212) Who's on your shit-list? Ed.
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? No.
(214) Who's your second family? Always friends
(215) Do you always feel understood? Yeah
(216) Who's the loudest friend? Auris, Ed, Alex
(217) Do you trust others easily? Yeah
(219) Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Mum and Dad, my brothers, Alex.
(220) Do your friends know you? Yeah
(221) Friend that lives farthest away: Well, I've friends in OB who are far away, but whome I know, very well, is Jayke (Londoner now) and Shaun (IRELAND!)
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Friday, October 24, 2003

   Current Mood: Feeling Loved ^^

Heh, today during P.E. I felt sooo crummy... but, Alex changed that, for me, heh, never knew how nice his voice was... then again, I find men from England do sing well. It's an old song; made sometime around the 1990's by Third Eye Blind.

One of their first songs, from their first music cd ^^:

"Hey will you stay awhile
My smile will not mislead you
Cause I've been alone
My faith turned to stone
Still there's something in you I believe in
Close to the pierce I go wild and fierce
Still I let you be, I feel you next to me
Cause inside I feel a wind that starts to blow
I'm taken in your undertow
Everything is fine, I'm lonely all the time
Cause all I want to do is be there
For the things that you're going through
Well, is it good for you, is it good for you
Cause you haunt my nights when
I don't know where my life should go
Well, is it good for you, is it good for you
Hey child please stay a while
My smile will not mislead you
Cause I've been without, I go wild with doubt
I grab at you, I can't stop grabbing at you
Cause I feel you cross my mind
In disarray, intoxicated ricochet
There's nothing wrong just don't take too long
Cause all I want to do is be there
For the things that you're going through
Well, is it good for you, is it good for you
Cause you haunt my nights when
I don't know where my life should go
Is it good for you?
Good for you?"
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Monday, October 20, 2003

New Friend ^^
Heh, had an interesting conversation with some guy today ^^ heh, he's actually very nice... even let me draft him in to my evil, not-so-important league of evil plushies >_>" Lol.

And to think I feared him for quite sometime... heh, even talked him in to taking down these two OB queens by growing mop-tops >_>" *Evil laugh*

yet... screwed up the converstaion when my brother threw me out of my computer chair, stole my evil "Possessed" Zidane plushie; currently possessed by GinnyLyn OO"

heh, meant to talk to him again... and pleaded his forgiveness... but... that didn't work... he was gone... gah! curse me elder brother ^_^ oh, and my other brothers >_>"

Oh well, easy come... easy go ^^ right now, am gonna tune out... if I see anything new... will post... for the while, shall torture evil Deschu whithout him knowing... wait... too late T__T *Growls*
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