Wednesday, August 17, 2005

lessons learned
I've leanred something. Never share your picture with someone you think of as a friend. No matter how long you've known them.

I once knew this girl who lived in Denmark. We were friends. Well one day I had a picture of me when I was young on a site called yesterdayland.com. Saddly that site last account I had was gone. But I showed it to her. Well she sent one back. Well hers though wasn't very good she was sitting across the room on her bed with her head down in a book. Well then she tells me she's going to Austrailia to visit a friend for christmas. That was 2-3 years ago. Well the other day my friend Cat who I've known less than 2 years asked me to look at this web cam pic of herself. Well I felt it only nice to show her mine. Mine saddly had to be my id card pic and you know how bad those are. But it was all I had. Well I guess things started going downhill long ago and now getting worse. First she use to be a big help when I wrote my fan fictions cause I could just tell her my ideas and since she was current with the story editing and helping out by making sure it made sense and stuff, then one day she stopped. Now I try to avoid asking her as much as possible. I have another friend that I work on my stories together with her, but difference is Cat is on AIM now! And my friend Clarity I have to wait hours or a day before she gets on and gets the message when I'm trying to work on it now! That's why it was so hard losing her cause now I have no one to help me. Then yesterday she announced she's thinking of leaving my neopets guild. I kept badgering her on it. But she claims its no fun anymore and when I try to press for details it, 'WellI feel uncomfortable when people talk about Animes. Yu-gi-oh and a few movies is all I watch.' I told her that there were a lot that others talk about that I didn't know but that it doesn't bother me much. She's all I don't care. So I tried to press her into making a desicion now! And leave! But she's little miss high and mightly and well I'll let you know what I decide. I really have to think about it. Like I can do anything if she decides to leave.

So from now on I never show my picture to anyone again. If I lose online friends that quickly. Maybe somethings wrong with my personalty, perhaps that why I never had many or kept them for more than one semester in school. But I know I won't no matter how tempted I am show my pic to Clarity. I definatly don't want to lose her! She's the only other person who really talks to me. Even if 95% of what we discuss is the story we're working on.
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