Thursday, December 27, 2007

EXPLORATION...(no, nothing dirty)
Well, I decided I should look around my computer since I've been stuck at home (even the cameras I got for Christmas weren't any fun because I couldn't go outside), and guess what I found? My missing chapters of Rumor!^^ For those you didn't read the first installment (Chapter 0) or just don't remember it, I'll add it in with chapter 1.
JD, hopefully this helps-have some fantasy to get your mind off of things, ne?
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Rumor-Chapter 0

My parents gave me to the orphanage when I was five years old. They left me with the Mistress at the door; they didn't even hug me goodbye.
"We'll come back for you soon. Be strong, Iszak."
"Can't I come with you?" They turned and embraced the winter afternoon as the Mistress shut the door behind them. My question lingered in the air as I attempted to hold back my tears; attempted, but failed.
I waited for my mother and father to come back for me; I waited for five years. Every morning and every night, I peeked out the window for their silhouette against the ever-gray sky. By the time of my tenth birthday, I completely had given up on my parents' return. Instead of wishing for my parents when I blew out the flickering yellow candles on the cake the Mistress made, I wished for a younger sibling. A younger person for me to teach and take care of, like parents did for me before they gave me away. I got my wish a day after I blew out my candles.
He was skinny and short; scarcely conversed with the others with big, brown sad eyes. He reminded me of myself when I was first brought here. Mistress found him wandering around in the outdoor market, so she took him in. The only piece of information he gave us what that he was four years old. According to him, he didn't remember much else.
He and I did everything together. he looked up to me as an older brother, and in time, he told me his name: Roby.

The Winter Moons came, and brought with their arrival was the most terrible and frost-bitten snow storm ever to meet out side of the continent.
The Mistress became deathly ill and passed away. In her place, a rather fat and selfish Master took charge of the orphanage. Roby and I, along with the rest of the children, endured his stay.
The master ate almost everything in the kitchen, leaving only stale crackers and water for us to consume. When I finally reached nineteen, Roby became deathly thin, not being able to move out of bed anymore due to lack of energy. Even my late-night quests to the kitchen for food were always ending in hopelessness. The Master squandered all the food money on his five-course meals, leaving the completely dry.
Roby's moaning grew worse with every passing night; we had not been fed for a month already. His crying out of pain grew worse as well. I sneaked out to the kitchen again, but alas, my stomach growled just as the Master happened to pass by on his rounds.
"Boy, what are you doing here this late?!" His multiply-chinned face turned pink with rage. When I didn't answer, he took me by the collar and threw me to the snow-covered, gravel-paved street.
I heard shouts from the outside coming from the orphanage. Lights turned on in my wing.
"He's dead! Guys, he's actually dead!" Shock overtook me as I lied still in the snow, listening to the cries of my roommates.
"Quiet up there! You are all supposed to be in bed!"
I cried silently letting only small whimpers escape my shuddering body. My little brother, the only family I had left, had died.
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Rumor-Chapter 1

The snow pierced my face as I cried into the frozen street. I felt my skin become numb with every whimper I released.
I heard the crunching of old snow closing in on me. I ceased my teas and listened. The tracks stopped at my head.
"Boy...?" A young female voiced called at me. She sounded about fifteen. "Get up, you're in my way. " She sounded commanding. I scrambled up to a kneeling position. I looked up and saw a girl dressed up in red clothing standing before me: a hooded cloak, a knee-length dress, and red boots. I tried to look at her eyes, but her hood allowed only her nose and mouth to be visible.
She tilted her head slightly to the side. She kneeled does and opened her arms to me. "Come here. "
I didn't answer; I didn't move nor anything else but shivered while I tried to silence my cries. She came closer and pulled me to her; my head on her shoulder, her hand gently stroking my hair.
When I couldn't hold it in anymore, I creamed and wailed to her, crying aloud to this kind and peculiar girl, this stranger.
She held me closer as I clung to her. "It's okay to cry, don't be ashamed. " But I was ashamed. I was ashamed of my teas, ashamed of crying to this person, ashamed of letting her tell me these things because I know she is only saying them for my comfort and for pity.
We stayed clinging to each other for what felt like hours. "Sorry, " I said when I finally stopped crying. I stood up and wiped my face across my bare arm. Wait, bare arm? I looked down to see my ragged clothes. My hand-me-down shirt didn't have long sleeves. I started shivering again, now that I remembered that I was underdressed in mid-winter.
The girl looked at me. "come with me. "
"Wha-? "She death-gripped my wrist and started running toward the pier. Everything was a blur as we ran through the streets. I ran into several barrels as she ran, dragging me behind, but I don't think she noticed.
When we finally reached a stop, I had callused feet and was facce-to-face with a dilapidated one-floor storage shack.
"Xerampelinae, " the girl said in a strange tongue, then knocked on the door once. I heard several locks being undone and taken off from behind the door. I jumped back when the door opened. The girl walked in; I followed after.
It was warm inside, most likely because of the what seemed like a hundred gently burning candles lighting up what I think was what looked like a living room; there wasn't enough light to tell.
"Where is everyone? They can't all be sleeping already, can they? " I turned to find the girl in red conversing with a tall man in a dark brown overcoat and a wide-brimmed hat.
"You left early in the morning and didn't come back until now, it's almost four in the morning, of coarse they're gonna be a sleep, Namine. "
The girl in red, who I'm guessing is Namine, sighed and pointed to me. The man came closer and looked startled. "What's he doing here? You know the rules, you made them! He's not supposed to be-"
"Quiet down, I'm just giving him a place to sleep. Can you show him to my room and meet me back here? I'll tell you everything. "
"Fine. " Did he just glare at me? "Come with me, or stay outside-your choice. " I followed him up a set stairs then to the end of a hallway to the right. He opened the end-most door and pushed me in. "Be grateful Namine's doing this for you. Usually she wouldn't give a damn and literally step on people like you. " He shut the door behind me. there was a window in the room.. i walked toward it and looked outward. The moon was reflecting on the ocean. I saw Roby's unmoving face in the moon, but I shook the vision away.
I heard talking from downstairs. I crept out of the room to the top of the stairwell.
"Namine, what the hell possessed you to let a complete stranger come into our hideout?! "
"He got thrown out! I couldn't just leave him there."
"Yesterday, you cursed at the people on the corner when they asked you for 10 Tril. What's the real reason you let him come in? "
"Fine, I thought he looked kinda nice, alright?" I felt my face get hot.
"So you invite him in just because you think he's cut?"
"AND he has M.E. circling around him. Didn't you notice? It's thick!'
"Yeah, but that's not the point! The point is-"
"Forget it, I'm going to bed." I scrambled up and quietly made my way back to the room. I just got into bed when Namine knocked on the door. I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep as she opened the door and waled over to my bed.
"I know you're awake. And by the way: your bed is over there. " She grabbed my head and turned it toward the other side of the room, where another bed stood; I didn't see it before.
"Sorry..." I got up and settled into the other bed.
"Good night, " she said as she got into bed, "and don't let that 'cute' comment get to your head. " I felt my face get hot again and was taken to the shores of sleep.
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Monday, December 24, 2007

A reading from KF's journal-
December 23, 2007-Monologue 33
I feel horrible. I had an emotional breakdown earlier about a bunch of things I've been trying to get my mind off of lately. I didn't DARE tell Judd and Dad about them.
Reasons:-Joseph
-Jimi
-lack of caffeine
-stress
I let them continue believing it was just stress and lack of caffeine, though I know that's not all. But if I led them on anymore, they would figure out I'm still in contact with Jimi.
Tomorrow's Christmas Eve and things aren't getting any better-after all, it was 12/24 last year that Jimi and I were banned from seeing each toehr ever again.
My head hurts; goodbye.
"Crying out; this isn't how I go"
-KF
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Well, there you have it-that's what's been going on. Too much caffeine, too much stress, too much worrying about people's wellbeing and my love life.
I'm not going to rely on over-the-counter drugs (like stress mints), not on caffeinated products (no matter how awesome), and not on other drugs (questions? I won't answer).
My New Year's Revelation: Improve my life for the better.
-KF

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

I hate...
...IB program, biology, reports on the state law, dim light, hot rooms, forced insomnia, no caffeine, school hours, reading textbooks, relationships, etc...
As you can probably tell from the above, I've had a pretty lousy week or two...What happened? Well:
-I broke up with a great person and now he doesn't want to get back together
-I didn't study for my biology test and I still have to read the chapter
-I just barely finished my report on my state's compensation law, dim light and hot room;I'm forcing myself to stay awake tonight so i can just finish reading the bio chapter and not worrying about getting up late for school
-my back hurts like hell right now from bending over paper and laptop for so long
-I am hungry and craving caffeine, but I'm cutting back on the caffeine and there's no food in the house that I can make without waking up my folks
-IT'S TOO HOT IN MY ROOM
Oh, yeah, I'm 15 now...woohoo! No celebration and got a late cake, but I got some really spiffy things. Ok, I'm going to stop complaining now-I guess I was just using this to blow off some steam, sorry!^^
-KF
End time=3:06am
Just watch the first part of the video-after that, you can just tell he's trying to be funny...but it's a pathetic way of doing so personally.

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Saturday, November 24, 2007

CAFFEINE...
...has gotten its hold on my soul!! I've been on caffeine steadily for the past week and a half now. Effects include:
-stuffy head
-sleepless/almost sleepless nights
-when sleep occurs, woken up by 1pm
-craving more caffeine (by habit)
-laziness, but for some reason can concentrate more
The caffeine usually kicks in at night, mostly around 2am if I'm still awake, which is all the time since I've been off for Thanksgiving vacation (unfortunately, I couldn't hit the stores for Black Friday, at my aunt's 'til midnight). Most of my caffeine comes from Mountain Dew products, random sodas, Jolt, and an assortment of energy drinks that my brother has introduced to me.
I've taken pleasure in finding caffeine-related products, and something interesting came across me in Google Images-Surge Stix...inhale the caffeine instead of drinking it or swallowing it as a pill. What happens is that you bend the stick (it looks like those cigars with the filters) until you hear a snap like from a glow stick, the liquid is vaporized through the filter, and you inhale the vapor. The caffeine instantly is introduced into your bloodstream via your lungs, giving an instant jolt, supposedly anyway. I scared myself when I was thinking "Hey, that sounds fun"...
Since then I've been trying to find substitutes for my caffeine craving, like Smarties candy!!
I've also found researched and found out that there is little difference between amphetamines and caffeine...they are quite similar, along with what it does. Look it up for yourself, this is all really quite interesting, just don't use yourself as a test subject for caffeine and what it does to you like I have...TRUST ME...

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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

I hate being a chick... (warning: girly talk ahead; If you do not wish to read about a girl's boy-troubles, please disregard the following)
...because I'm so boy-crazy that it's so friggin' hard to tell who I actually like nowadays. I feel like a whore and a slut and complete jerk when I say this, but I don't even know if I said "yes" to my current boyfriend because I actually LIKE him like him, or if I just like him as a friend and just settled for him...I feel horrible-sometimes I just have that feeling of regret on my mind because I never see him-almost literally. I met him at my church's Jesus school (CCD for those who are catholic like I am)(well, supposed to be, I'll explain that later in a different post) and we had a lot in common and we talked a bunch and...yeah. But now, I have no idea what to do-he doesn't even call me. There's guys at school that talk to me more than he does...Why did I say yes??! Now, if we do break up, our friendship will be very beyond awkward...Please, I need some advice here!
-KaidaFaye

OH! Do you guys remember this song? Tis by Sixpence None the Richer (w00t!)


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Monday, October 22, 2007

It's Perfectly Fine to be a Happy Individual...
...because then you'll be the only different person in your collected society wherever you happen to be, then everyone will secretly wish they were as happy as you because they're too worried about what's going to happen in the future when what they should be worrying about is the present and how to spend it.

Starting high school made me realize that everyone is still trying to realize his or her place in life and not paying attention to what is really important. Most of the population in my school is mostly organized into stereotypical classes of human and personally it's making me EXTREMELY aggravated. So far, I've realized that if you are not put into a certain group at the school, the student body will either consider you a complete outcast and not fit for society or will be an oddly kick-ass person. There is hardly ever a person in between in this matter--I happen to be the person in between;both a blessing and an annoyance.

I've also come to realize that the freshman students have a horrible reputation for a reason-they never graduated from the previous year in mental terms. They're still thinking that the best thing to be in high school is being popular for the seemingly rebellious pranks when in retrospect they're actually quite stupid to do in the first place because the only result is a pissed off teacher. It's way better just to act like yourself, befriend the upperclassmen that took your classes in their previous years, and listen to the warnings and hints they give you-just make sure the older friends you choose aren't retarded in actions. Basically what I'm trying to say is that it's awesome to be yourself because in the end you'll be glad you did. You get better and more mature friends that way.

On a much less serious note-IT'S ALMOST HALLOWEEN!!! I'll be cosplaying Tifa from FFVII Advent Children this year-my costume looks so kick-ass!! And I've finally got my lazy self up and started looking at html and css again so I can acutally say that I've been trying to get a website for my comics :D So...how are you guys?
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Saturday, September 29, 2007

Adapting
Have you ever received an injury so many times that you just end up getting used to it? Since I was a kid, I've been prone to nosebleeds, and so has my older brother. Our doctors always said it's nothing serious. This morning, I hit my nose on the headboard on my bed trying to get the remote that turns on the lights in my room(it's hard to explain how, but if you want me to I will), and my nose started to bleed' I already knew what was going to happen, so i caught the blood just in time. I got blood all over the bathroom floor though 'cuz my dad didn't know what was happening until I said my nose wasn't waiting for him to get out. It took an hour for the bleeding to get to a low speed, but even though I'm used to nosebleeds, today's was the longest it's ever lasted. My mom said if it didn't stop after that hour then we would go to the emergency room, so thankfully it stopped when it did-I don't like the smell of hospitals!! And all this happened this morning^^
Anyways, Vikki-chan is going to help me set up an actual website so that I can post all my webcomics-it's gonna be called "kaidafaye.net" (go figure)-keep a lookout for it! I'll tell you guys when it comes up online, kk?
Well, ja ne!
-KaidaFaye

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

   I'm Happy :)
I'm finally over that dude I was telling you guys about--I'M FREE!!!!!
ANYway, now I like someone else(it's a secret) and i'm perfectly happy. To those other freshmen out there, do you guys get "adopted" by your upperclassmen? My older friends are claiming me, saying I'm their freshman. My very awesome new friend Calvin said when my friend Quaid adopted him, he felt like part of his soul left him. If that's the case, I barely have a soul left!!!
Except for all the reading, I'm really loving this high school thing, and I gots a lot of spiffy new friends^^ So...how's the new school year going for you guys?
PS:tomorrow is the official first day of fall!!!
-KaidaFaye
Holy crap, I love this dude is pure genius!!

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Thursday, August 30, 2007

   High School KaidaFaye!!!! XD
Hey, check this out! I wrote this post originally in my Inquiry Skills class cuz it's basically like a study hall^^
Life's been giving me lemons and I'm still attempting to make lemonade. I'm finally a FRESHMAN!! Heehee...but some things have been happening. Remember the promise I told you guys about? The one where when I'm 18 or 19 years old I can date the guy I like without my parents getting mad at me? Well, I'm trying to block him and the promise out of my mind right now;plus he's got himself another girlfriend again (fast worker,eh?) Then one of my best friends(we'll leave him nameless for now)-I liked him in 8th grade but blocked him out cuz he like my friend and after I dated FrogFace(ex-bf and classmate) I told myself never to date another classmate again. Well, "Nameless" isn't my classmate anymore, but now he has a gf too after he got over my friend.
So now, I'm trying to concentrate on G33k!! and my little drawing collection made of drawings on the back of my spare index cards. Unfortunately, one of the pictures fell into a fresh puddle of SPIT at lunch (thanks to classmate Tyler), so may the cover of the collection rest in peace...I'll try to get a copy of the drawings on my Fanart/Gallery link(in the Menu to your left)ASAP; I don't have a scanner, so I have to take pictures of them and send it to my e-mail. Well, tonight I'm going to try to replicate the drowned picture tonight, plus another for the collection. RAWR!! MY WORKLOAD IS INCREASING! Well, ja ne...
-KaidaFaye
PS-I feature my friends and myself in the collection;AND the drawings are in COLOR!!^^

I LOVE this song!!

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

90s Reminescence
Hey, guys!^^ It feels nice when you find out the bands of your favorite and familiar songs from when you're a kid. For example, Third Eye Blind, or the ever-popular Goo Goo Dolls. I found out the Goo Goo Dolls made almost all of my favorite old songs, like Slide and Sympathy. I was searching YouTube and I found this:

Watch it, it's SOOO awsome!^^Just goes to show, the decade you were born in is gonna be your favorite, ne? So, if you're bored this summer, and just browsing the interwebz, go on youtube or google,, look up the lyrics to that song you vaguely remember from when you were a kid, and watch the video or just listen to the song after downloading from Limewire or some other file-sharing program that I know you guys have. You'll enjoy it, trust me :)

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