Wednesday, December 19, 2007

no.027 //19.12.2007
Well let's see, tomorrow is Phillip Tao, Yamashita Shoon and Hitsugaya Toushirou's birthday...

Since my last entry, I guess I've changed a bit...at least. I've gotten over that guy...and now it's the holidays...I changed scout groups... camp is just around the corner after Christmas...and yeah.

I received my report...but... it's not mine. I got Donna's report instead xD~ So I gotta swap it this Saturday...and collect my Wink Up magazine... and Wild Adapter manga if they have it...

Nothing much has changed in my lovelife... my troublesome lovelife was what made me open up a myotaku account anyway... Me and a close friend like the same guy, he likes another girl, I say screw guys because it's year 12... and I gotta focus on drums too... Holy... knowing myself pretty well, I know I won't last... maybe I should at least beat 'him' in staying single... another 3 years plus of single life to catch up to him...

IMHO, I think that relationships weren't for me to begin with. I felt this while reading through my MSN contacts and their corny nicknames/personal messages... I seriously can't do those kinds of things... It's too corny for me LIKE WTF. To be honest, all the corny shit makes me feel sick, whether it'd be 'I don't need anyone 'cuz I got you boo', 'You're my sweetheart and I'm glad you're mine', 'I'm into you, I need you boo' and finally 'every kiss and every hug you make me feel in love' [credits to a particular someone...]. Plus I can't say I miss someone when IMHO I DON'T. And in relationships, you have to put out time and effort for things to work out... I'm not cut out for it. I got other stuff to worry about... As long as I'm thinking within this mind frame, kids, let alone marriage is out of the question. I guess I'm the individual type inside out... I had all of this year to figure this out, from failed crushes to the Chemistry teacher telling me that I'm an individual learner, and that I'll understand things better if I read things through on my own. Aish...

I can't say too much on here because it's the INTERNET... but I hope that this Christmas, I get my drum kit [mom and I agreed on an electronic one] and take this chance to see everyone, especially my old love [not the right word?], Akimoto Takuya~ and whoever else ;D. I get the hunch this Christmas will be a great one, despite my dad being overseas and such...

Take care and Merry Christmas to you all~

<3 kaizenkaoru