Saturday, May 27, 2006

   no.008 //27.05.2006
well i didnt write last week cuz..
TAKUYA DIDNT CUM TO CHURCH LAST WEEK
but he came this week so...

man today was embarassing. my tutor was meant to read out this tongue twister thing, but he made up this love letter crap to moogle. geez. and then at the end i saw 'her' walk wit moogle. why does 'she' always go suck up to the guys i used to like? piss me off but yeah....

at church.. b4 mass started, i went skits at this girl, josephine. lizzies pissed at her too. so i went up this stair thing to look out into nature. akanishi jin popped into my mind [my latest obsession] and i went back into the room when i felt better [around 5.53pm]while up there in the cold, i thought about son and takuya. i wanted them to come or else i'll probably blow up from all this anger. and YES THEY DID COME! MADE MY DAY MAN!

and so, i was a bit happier. but i was happiest when i had to do the bell for the eucharist. instead of ringing the bell, i hit it like.. umm. a drum? lizzie, my lil sis, told me to pretend that the bell is josephine's head. man i had the time of my life. sure, i felt mean, but at that moment, it was stress relief. i felt MUCH better. i wonder if anyone wondered why i hit the bell so hard...

takuya took the eucharist today, and as usual, hed wait at the back for nothing. until the priest finishes giving his occasional speech, he'd leave the church..sadly for me...

i wanted him to stay. oo and when his lil bro came in, he was ducking away from takuya at the door. man that was so cuteeeeeeeeeeee!!! but im surprised that the people who i have never spoken to are the people who make me feel better...

takuya looked kinda.. angry or tough tough cuz..looked kinda mad...iono.. all the other days he looked calm or lost which was cute as... oh he got his blond tips again!!! and his ll bro changed his hair too. looks maaaaad~! man i had this idea of changing my hair so it looks like akanishi jin sorta. i wanna keep long hair, but i want it to look more anime-ish with hmm. gravity-defying bangs. nah too overboard. i want akanishi's fringe. yeah that. heh heh heh

anyway ive spoken enough. did i mention i was over fangie? hell yeah i am. started getting on my nerves, calling me when hes bored geez...

anyway take care anyone who actually reads this. i'll write next week if takuya comes. im not so sure if i love him. im still deciding.

owari,
kaizenkaoru