Thursday, December 7, 2006

today was alright, I guess. Last night I found out that my mom has diabetese, so I was devistated. Then my mom went 2 the doctor and the doctor told her it was just on the borderline of diabetes. That's a relief. I told my mom about my depression. She said that she was never able to tell. I then told her that it was because I faked a smile every day and that I didn't want to worry her or my dad. I just hope she didn't tell my dad. It makes me feel a little better that I opened up to my mom. Not mutch other than that.
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Wednesday, December 6, 2006

Today kinda sucked. That guy who keeps calling me emo was bothering me again. I'm gonna report him. I'm so sick of his B.S. Sorry that I'm not on as long anymore, i've been busy lately. On Monday I have a field trip, I think I'll b home @ the regular time. I have a few questions that I NEED advice on. 1. Do you think that a friend should go out w/ a frined's ex? (1 of my friends wants 2 go out w/ my other friend's ,ex) 2.How do you tell a friend that they r a poser 3. How do you get it out of a friend that they r lying about doing something just b cause u r and they say it 2 b cool? Please answer my questions,I REALLY need help with this! Another thing, That guy who I talked about b 4 who I think likes me,well, a kid told hinm that I wanted 2 go out w/ him (LIER!!!!!) He had a smile on his face and was looking at me like he wanted to make out. He asked me if it was true, n I said that it wasn't his smile faded a little. Then he said. "Yeah, we r just friends." o.k, this is the LAST! question: Do u think he likes me n what should I do? well, ttyl!
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Tuesday, December 5, 2006

   ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ- today made me tired. I had a math test my first period. It was open notes n me n my friends helped each other out. At flex, I got sooo pissed. This girl askw\ed me if I wanted to b on her team 2 see who can get the most hugs. I told her no because I don'y like 2 b toutched, sdo what does she do? She starts pokin me n stuff. I told her :"you ever fucking touch me again, you'll b sorry!" She's all "What, r u gonna kill me" When I didn't answer,she got scared n ran off calling me mean. BS! She's the girl who always annoys me, trying to get me to buy her ugly jewlery n she listens to my private conversations.Then those idiots on my bus wouldn't shut the hell up and were joking around about a merderer and that they werte gonna b killed. That kinda pissed me off because I believe that death is an ohnor, for many reasons. I'm sooo annoyed, yet soooo tired! -.- ZZZZZ
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Monday, December 4, 2006

not mutch happened today. sooooo bored!!!!This kid named lance, who is a spaz did the funniest thing in social studies. Someone dropped something, really loudly on the floor and he screamed like a girl REALLY loudly. It was hilariouse. Then at chorus, I had to sit next to and share music with the mentally challenged girl, daniel. I talked about her on a post, around november 20 or 21. Well, she was all over me (again). She told me something that really made me feel bad for her. She told me thsat she was nervouse. I asked her why and she told me that she's afraid of people because they are mean to her. I felt so bad and it really made me mad that someone would make fun of a mentally challenged girl. It's not their fault they are like that! If anyone makes fun of people who are mentally challenged, thwey should feel bad. It's just not right. N-E-ways, still depressed with those little "bad" (u know what I mean" feelings. well, not mutch else to say, pretty boring! ttyl! oh: here's a few things to get into the holiday spirit (I know that sounded corney) This is my chemical romance's song all I want for christmas is you.
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Sunday, December 3, 2006

sorry I didn't update yesterday! My best friend was sleeping over for the whole weekend and she just went home. I hadn't seen her in 3 months. We had soooo mutch fun!!! We went to wal-mart and I got a new black nail polish, the naruto collector 2, anime insider, and some naruto cards. Then we ended up watching a lot of anime. Though I missed the new trinity blood. I missed it cuz we were doing some naruto role playing n we got into it. It was soooo sad, but fun. *sigh* soooo tired!!!!!!!! That was the best weekend that I've had in a long time. Well, ttyl, p.n. me! I got a new back round, finally!!! It's souji okita from peacemaker kurogane! I think I'll set that as my theme. Here's a song that I've been looking for for 5 months. My chemical romance-all I want for christmas is you:
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Friday, December 1, 2006

today was alright, except 4 1 thing. When me n zoe were having a private conversation, our other friend was eaves droppin. Then our second other friend and her were talking about it! I wish people would mind their own buisiness! Other than that, it was cool. It was team spirit day @ school today. I had 2 wear green things, cuz I'm on 8 green. Me n raunk, zoe n whitany were drawing all over eachother with green marker. I'm happy cuz my best friend who I haven't seen in 3 months is coming over tonight 2 sleep over, so I don't know when I'll b online again. I might b on for a while 2 day, cuz I don't know when she's comming. well, ttyl
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Thursday, November 30, 2006

today wasn't as bad. We have been having spirit week @ school. Me n one of my BFFs Zoe, were twins. She dressed up like me and all goth because i wouldn't dress like a prepy guy like she does. It was cool. We had a guy who is our friend, Devon take our picture. I had to take off my glasses for it and when I did, we looked exactly the same!!! It was sooo wierd. So glad tomorrow's friday. My best friend in the whole world, Brittany is going 2 sleep over. Then on saturday me n her r gonna put up and decorate my family's christmas tree. Last night when I was talking 2 britt we had the strangest conversation. We were saying that we could be reincarnations of anime characters. She said mthat I could be a girl version of Tsusuki from yami no matsuei (descendants of darkness) because I cut like he does. He hides it with a watch, while I use a wrist band. He was also in the hospital of an extended period of time and so was I. Another sadly, but true one is that I told my friend about the suicidal feelings I've been having n she told me it was like Tsusuki. Soooo wired!!! I didn't even know that he wanted to die!!!!! My friend keeps worrying about me and keeps calling me 2 make sure that I don't kill myself, I really don't think that I would, but it's a possibility.
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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

today was a mix of good n bad. The good part was that my school book fair I baught a manga book with no tax in cluded. The other good parts were that I got 2 keep track of points in spanish. And in chorus I heard our old concerts on cd. Here's the bad part. The kid who did the razor blad the other day sunk to a whole new low. In math he told me to go back to the dark, windowless cubicle that I came from TT. I want to strangel that kid sooo badly!!! Then I told him to burn in hell and he pretended to cry and he said, and I quote! : I guess I'll go be emo and slit my wrists untill I die!" TT, that part REALLY pissed me off. wouldn't he b sooo glad if something really did happen to me. I can't get rid of those bad thoughts n it's starting to friek me out.
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

today kinda sucked. We had to do square dancing in gym (go ahead and laugh) I was supposed to be paired with this idiot who I hate very mutch, but instead the teacher was nice enough to give me a new partner. Another shortened day. Where were you people yesterday? Almost no one was online! I don't feel like getting into details about the rest of my day, too depressed about it (like I've been for the last 2 weeks and it's really starting to get to me and I'm not thinking straight) Hope u had a better day!
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Monday, November 27, 2006

I have early dissmisal all week. yup, conferences. Today kinda sucked, This kid named math in my math class is an ass. He started calling me a man and I called him a woman. Next he frieken asks if I'm emo. I told him it's none of his damn buisiness. Then he started calling me emo. then guess what he did? He grabbed a ruler and pretended that he was cutting himself!!! Then he said "Oh, I'm cool, I cut , I'm in the black parade!" I nearly went berseark. That kind of thing pisses me off. I couldn't upload my story last night because the stupid website was being retarded TT. I do have 1 thing to look foward to. My best friend is comming to my house friday ^.^ . I haven't seen her in about three months. well, hopefully you had a better day than me! Here'a a kick- ass AMV with the song in the end by linkin pard. This is a tribute to Okita Souji from peacemaker kurogane:
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