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Friday, February 11, 2005
 *sigh*
i feel horrible...my mom is smoking and crying. i just simply dont know whats wrong with her! i mean she never has smoked before and it really bothers me! its just...i cant explain. then there is the fact David is leaving for a while in florida and i wotn be able to see him on V-day and for another 2 weeks! oh its horrible. then another on of my friends is moveing and crap like that. But also with my mom...well she got sick and her Boyfriend is parinod about getting sick from my mom and so when she went to go see him he said "You shouldnt be around me." So my mom then said "Fine then i guess i'll see you some other time." and you know what the wrost part of it is, he didnt even stop her to say sorry! isnt that horrible. then my stupid ass father makes things wrost! he goes and call her a pile of shit and saying no one will ever love her! gosh sometimes i do feel like i walk on a lonly road...
Alone in the dark,
No one to love
walking down the road
a lonley dark road,
The one i've known
all my life
to this day
i still walk alone,
the only one by my side
is my shadow
but it fades
do to my shame
so i rot away
in the dark
alone, cold
no one to shed light on my life.
i know i could of done better but nothing seems to please me right now...*sigh* i guess i just out of it. well guys see ya later!
Kamiya~
P.S please read the post below this one! ^^
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Wednesday, February 9, 2005
 PARTY!!!
Oh yeah it’s been a year and one day since I became a member of MyOtaku! I don’t think I would be here if it weren’t for some special people who helped me out through my tough times. I’d like to thank all! It’s been great having you all for friends. Al of you are so kind and caring. I admire that that I do. For the past year that I have been on here I learned many things. Like for instance never go out with a guy on the internet that’s has the name LORD in it. For example Lord Kain. That relationship ended like a shit bag tossed on someone’s head. Then I also learned many things about the computer. It took me a while to learn. But I learned it! sp\o many good and bad experiences here also. Like good would be the day I meet Sindalla and we became wonderful friends. Sooner I became her first and only sister. But now there are many more. I mean yeah she has mote and not me be the only female. But I still like the fact I was her only one. Then I also meet many kind, caring and sweet people. Like Panda, Mamma Vash. AND MANY, MANY MORE! I remember when I first joined. I was pretty much alone and didn’t care. But things moved forward and I had a lot of friends. Then my first love. Mike. But after I told him, his G/F asked him back out. But then Lord Kain came I know I was suckered into his sweet talk but I was too foolish. Then me and Mike were together *sigh* sometimes I wish things would have worked better. But after mike came my beloved David! I just love him so fuckin much it’s not funny! Then some other times I remember on here. Like when Bijou died. All of you were there for me to cheer me up. Also when things were kinda falling apart with Sindalla and everything I patched it all up. With the help of some other people. I just miss those days where you could make a friend and be friends with them. But know since I joined and the months passed by, things have been falling apart. Now one friend hates each other guts and then they don’t want the other friend to talk to that one person. I say "Screw you, be foolish and ruin this world more. It’s already fucked up!" because it’s true. What the Iraq war has been going on for about two years now? COME ON PEOPLE THAT’S PATHETIC! I wish every single bad person on this earth would die and go to hell. What I mean by bad is, the people who kidnap murder crap like that. Because I know we are all not perfect. But I don’t know how I got to this point in my talk all I know is I’m glad I joined and I plan on staying as long as I got good friends like you guys! ^.^
Kamiya~
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Sunday, February 6, 2005
No picture...
Ok so I don’t have a pic for this one because my FRIEND wants me to hurry up but I want to be a loyal otaku person and post every time I have the chance to post you know? But anyway uh...I guess I’ll be seeing you and I’ll post a longer post next time! ^^ ok then guys see ya!
P.S I LOVE YOU DAVID!
Kamiya~
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Saturday, February 5, 2005
Ugh
So tired, so hungry...gosh I had so much fun last night. Ok I’m at my Dad's once again and he took me to the thunder ally bowling night last night. Basically you just bowl and have fun while music is playing and the lights are off and everything is just glowing. So I bowled alone while my dad was in the bar area. With that I was all alone and kinda moving my body to the beat. But anyway then these guys come up next to my lane because they were gonna bowl two. There was this one guy who just kept looking at me through the whole night. It was freaky! >.< too freaky because I would stare at the corner of my eye and he would be staring at me! But luckily before he approached me guess who I saw!!! DAVID! If you guessed David then your right! David came up to me and hugged me. I whispered in his ear "You came on time look." he looked the corner of his eye and he saw that guy turn around and walk away. I felt sorry for the poor guy though because he looked so sad. But I’m truly faithful to my David! ^^ and he is truly faithful to me too! At least I hope! But I’m sure he is!!! I’m 99.9% sure that he will remain faithful to me! Before I leave let me tell you this. Wal-mart got The Grudge (Seen it) Mulan 2 (can’t' wait to see it) and Shall We Dance the new one they made with JLO (Jennifer Lopez) just in case some of u don’t now her! ^^ but I guess I’ll see ya!
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Thursday, February 3, 2005
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Ok this is an awkawrd post because i'm being bad again! >.< i'm nots going to school...but for a good reason...i think... But i'm sorry about all this pink! i really dont like the color either its just that since its only V-day and thats wy. as soon it is over i will change colors right away! i'll have a Dgi Charat them which means my site will be like pretty blue and white and stuff like that! ^^ but i guess guys i'll talk to you later and please tell me what do you think of my Tokyo mew Mew theme? i know some guys might not like it but i know my guy will! see ya guys!
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Wednesday, February 2, 2005
 So fuckin mad!
Ok today was a shitty day for me! First off school was soooo fuckin horrible! I mean to begin with the moment I stepped in class.
Me: good morn....
Mrs. Foster: Ayla get to you seat!
Me: ok...
Mrs. F: Hurry before I give you a refurl!
Me: okay I’m hurrying! *rushes to chair*
Mrs.> F; don’t give me an attitude! *fills out refurl* I have this ready for you!
Lucky class ended before I got into more trouble. Then my day just go even worse! But what got me really ticked off was this guy on Sinny's site. Oooo he got me soooo fuckin mad! I mean he was being a real jackass calling Sindalla a slut! Does he even know what a slut is!?!?! Because Sindalla is no slut!!!! Gosh people these days always getting me soooo fuckin mad! Trust me you don’t want to see me when I am mad! But I guess on the pulse side I’m moving to another apartment away form people I hate! >.< but I still love David! ^.^ and I’ll be changing my sites around tomorrows or Friday because that’s when I know the internet will be mine! ^^ but guys this is a hint of what theme my new layout will be for V-day! K guys here ya go!
But see ya guys! ^.^
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Friday, January 28, 2005
 Hi people!
Hi guys how are you? me i'm just fine! i would like to wish one of my frineds a happy birthday! her username is Teperacoora (sp) soor if i spelled it wrong! ^.^' But its friday and i'm loveing it! But as i said in one of my post i had huge plans for Saturday! well i'm telling them to you now. so tommrow i plan on going to my friends house and watch two movies. the first one is the three kings saga i got from the PX on base. then the other one is Inuyasha the second movie! but for my b-day friebd i'll give you your present tommrow ok then see ya! ^.^ ok guys i have to go now and i'll update tommrow for sure k guys bye!
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
Whoopie!
I'm just feeling a whole lot better now! David is all better! Then yet I guess it’s the fact that his mother always gives him a lot of medicine when he is sick. And I mean A LOT!!!! I got to hug him today and it felt so good! And he gave me a quick kiss on the Cheek before he left to first hour. Because you know there is no PDA (Public Display of Affection) that’s stupid! But since I’m in such a good mood! I’m gonna make every body else in a good mood or better! I have some hilarious pictures to show you guys! ^.^ ok this is a dog’s death wish!
Poor doggy! Here is a human pizza!
Doesn’t that look weird? And last but not least here is 2005 Miss Idaho!
Now isn’t that funny a potato! Well guys go enjoy the rest of your day and please go to David’s site and wish him a happy b-day! ^^ His Use name is SamuraiXKenshin! K see ya!
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Wednesday, January 26, 2005
*sniffle*
I've been feeling horrible lately not feeling so good. I've been depressed and sad a lot. At night time I cry because I feel like I’m alone. But I know I got David and all but for some reason that won’t help. Last night I felt like I was going to cry my eyes out. I had a lot of stress and tension for the past 3 days. But it didn’t start until I got my period which I started on the 23. So I still have another 4 more days to go. I just feel so horrible. Alone, left out and outcast. Just crappy stuff. Now with out whether changing it will affect me even more. Gloomy weather makes me depressed and tire plus my period. That’s not a wonderful combination! But on to TODAY! Today it was much better for me because everything went out as I planned it to! It was just great me and my friends we just were so happy together! I didn’t see David today because he got sick so I went and gave him a visit. I gave him a great big hug but no kiss because I don’t want to get sick either because I have some wonderful plans for this weekend! I'll tell them to you on Friday! ^.^ ok but I must go now! I need to call Sindalla!
Kamiya~
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
Well today I’m leaving my dads to go back to my aparmetn1 I’m really happy for it too because I get to be with David again! He can hold me in his arms and I’ll feel safe once again. But then yet I don’t want to go back to my apartment because I feel like a stranger in my own apartment and its not a very good feeling because Vanessa and Danny (my sister and bother in law) are always on their lazy buts and they always watch TV so I cant watch TV! There is barely anything I can do with out Vanessa nagging on me! I can’t eat, sleep, and play Gamecube nothin! Ok eating is because my sister is like "Ayla you already ate 2 hours ago." then I go "Well I’m hungry again Vanessa!" and with the sleeping process Vanessa and Danny are always being so loud so it’s hard to sleep! T-T then with my Gamecube problem it’s that I can’t play if Draven is in the room sleeping which is practically almost all the time! So it’s hard to do anything that I like without my sister Vanessa getting mad at me. She thinks she can control me as a mother! She soooo cannot! Because she isn’t my mom! So yeah you can see why I hate my apartment so. But I’ll think of the good things like David! He’ll be there to welcome me with warm arms! And we can spend the day together like we usually do! So yeah that’s the part where I just can’t wait!
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