myOtaku.com: KamiyaUsagi

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Gender
• Female
Location
• Somewhere in lala land
Member Since
• 2004-02-08
Occupation
• To live by: Trusts takes years to build but seconds to shatter
Real Name
• I have many names...

Personal

Achievements
• To know about LP their sucha wonderful band!
Anime Fan Since
• as long as i can remember
Favorite Anime
• Rurouni kenshin, YuYu Hakusho, Inuyasha, Fruits Baskets, Outlaw Star, Tokyo Mew Mew, Pokemon, Hamtaro (yes i know and i'm proud!) Alice 19th, Shoalin Sisters, Trigun, Chobits, Pita-ten, Digi charat... and it goes on and on! ^.^
Goals
• Lets see to finally one day meet Linkin Park!
Hobbies
• soccer drwaing beating up boys, video gmaes!!! ^.^
Talents
• drawing and laying vidoe games i'm really good at those!

myOtaku.com: KamiyaUsagi

Monday, July 12, 2004

man....
I'm hearing voices in my head...i'm having painful flassh backs...why now...WHY! 50 is leaving i'm not sure...but i...i...*starts to cry* I dont know who to turn to anyore...my mom cant understand what is happening to me right now. 50 and Sinny are really the ones that could understand me. I have been treated so horribly in my life. and the fact that i knew at one point my sister hated my guts. And knowing all the bad things in my life are going to affect me soon..and i mean really soon...i got drunk last night from the beer in The refrigortor that danny had...i threw yup last night. I cant bare this sit anymore. But why? why is it happrening to me...am i not meant to live a life of happinees but darkness that consumes me. Soon to suck me in to feel not emotions. I look in the mirror i dont see the happy little girl i once was. But a sad teenager with no meaning in life! just to site there! and let bad things happen! is that what my life is! just to be horrible! to soon go to my bad ways! turn goth! drink, smoke! i dont think so! but what is my meaning in life...at first i thought it was to be happy and have many friends and joyess memories...but thats not it...is it. My meaning in life is to sit there in the darkness! for no one to care about me! to make me lauh and smile! is that it! someone please tell me that's not it...But if 50 leaves...that basicly what my life is going to be. Same thing idf Sinny leaves too. Soono i am beggining to think about that one post Leo Yusue posted up...we probaly are the worst Online community. And remebering what Anime Fag said...i take my loyalty a step to dar...it gets me sad..some on please cheer me up i need it badly....
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