Sunday, May 22, 2005

Arigato...but...there's somethimg else....
Thanks you guys what you said made me feel a lot better......I have something else to say, I told myself I'd be more open.

Well, you see lately I've been feeling pretty depressed, Not all of the time. ...ehh...you see the way I feel about my father...well, I feel sorry for him... I feel sorry that he had to miss out on so much...but at the same time I'm kinda upset at him...because my mom's trying to talk to him about all the divorce thing but he just wont answer...I don't know why but...umm...@_@...he does meaningless stuff just to make things worse...like not showing my mom the phone bill, and when she asks him a question he wont answer...so many times I've tried to think of how he feels but...If I was in a situation like this I'd try to make it as easy as possible for everyone, not make it worse...@_@...just got to hang in there, just got to...but what is there to hang on to?
*sigh* I'm really, really, mixed up...I...I...don't know...;_; I'm hanging in there but just bearly...but I don't know what to hang on to! I feel like 12 years of my life was just wasted! (not counting school and stuff.) I never felt comfortable on my own home! ...I don't even like calling it my home...because your suppose to be comfortable in your home...at least most of the time right?

Okay...I just got to take it one day at a time, Don't look back to the past, that already done..and do look at the future...I'm not there yet, I'll just live in the present.
...There’s something shizuka said once and I like this saying a lot...It make me feel better:

Tomorrow can worry about it's self

When I think this to myself it makes me feel better. Yep. Yep.

*sigh* Sorry, I ranted ...-_- I've never done that before...I guess I didn't want to worry you guys but... as shizuka said: I always tell you not to worry, but if I don't tell you what's bothering me, then you will worry!

Well, The reason that I wasn't here the last two days is because we went and took some more boxes to Montana. Sorry I didn't tell you before I went! ...ah, I got a cool pendent thingy!^^ It has pink and clear crystals on it.^_^

Well, That about all, I'm really sorry but I haven't been going to your guys site's lately, I'll try to go to them but I might not make it everyday...>_< Gomen nasai!

^^ I want all of you guys to have a wonderful day!

Oh! And...Thanks for listening to me, just having someone listen makes me feel a lot better.

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