Saturday, August 27, 2005

Nanimo.
(nothing.)

Okay then. Thank you everyone for your words of kindness. They really mean a lot to me right now. Everything should be okay. Eventually. I hope.

And about my life… nothing worthy on mention has been going on. I actually am not sure why I’m updating lately. You guys come here to read something that’s at least halfway interesting, right? Sorry. ^^;;

Anyway I wasn’t productive at all, because my mom was supposed to have a phone conference, but my “father’s” (I use that word very lightly) lawyer didn’t have the courtesy to call my mom’s lawyer to tell him that she would be gone. So we have to wait through the whole weekend, on pins and needles wondering what in the world is going to happen. *sigh*

So… yeah, this is how I have to spend the last two days I have before classes start. Worrying myself sick. It’s not so much the thought of the trial, just that overhanging cloud of sickness and depression that comes with any thought whatsoever of our “father”.

So yeah. Hopefully I can distract myself from my life for the next two days. And while after that, because if we have to follow that parenting plan… v_v


But I’ve decided that because I’ve been left out of it, and the court isn’t going to do anything with a minor that’s in college, I’m finally going to do it.

I’m done. I’m cutting off all contact with him.

~~ And Kana-chan, I really, really want to be there with you and SakuraYume, but I think that it may be better for you to have a sister that’s mentally sane… If I go there, I don’t know what’s going to happen. I would go to give you support, but if I went, I don’t think that I’d be in the mental state to give you that support. I hope that you can understand. The last thing that I’m doing is abandoning you. I really think that I can do more for you if I take care of my mental health. I can’t help you if I completely break down. But if you need me to come with you, I don’t know how I could say no……… ~~~

~ Kanau

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