Thursday, July 20, 2006

   I wrote this to my g/f a while back..... ^^
I love the way you laugh. When you giggle, it reminds me of angels singing. When your eyes gleam with happiness, amusment, sadness, I can see it so very clearly. And, even when dipped, engulfed in disappointment, remourse, fear, you always keep a firm control of yourself, control of your emotions. Its a strength that i've never known you to be without. Your strength resonates...Your passion resonates.....everything about you, just warms the hearts of those who know you, your strength being somthing everyone wants for themselves...and so, being the caring person you are....you give them your words, and the strength in your words, the wisdom in your words. You say that people are always calling you wise beyond your years....can you honestly say you dont believe them? You have a certain way about you, and, so caring, thats what truely resonates, seeps off of you, into the very air around you. You're a hard person not to love...
You've been through so much....seen so many horrors....dealt with so much more than that of the average teen, it's amazing how you remain so.....wonderful......so....strong. You see how some people deal with their horrors....no matter how small they may be...they get all dependant, and start whining to others for comfort, to the point where they simply want to give up on them....but, you, despite all you've been through, you dont show it. It is never apparent, you dont get others involved, at least, not a large amount of people, just those who know you really well, and you're even able to just stay your regular self around people. Not only that, but, you're always able to keep a level head about things.... It's truely amazing, how strong you are.... I love you, and admire you so very very very much for it......as if that wasn't enough....but you have so many other....wonderful qualitys, as well.......
There is wisdom in every word you speak. Seriously....Your very essence is seeping wisdom....... You always know the right things to say, the right advice to give, you have the ability to peer into anothers soul, and know exactly what they're thinking, exactly what they're feeling..... I guess that's part of being empathic...? Being empathic gives you a whole different outlook on life, so much different than others.....and, allows you to give such advice, with such perfection. Your words make me so happy, your ability to bring out the thoughts from the deepest part of my mind, and make me realize what I should have, all along... Yiur words reflect your strength.
Not only that, but, you care....so much about others, about everybody around you, regardless of who they are. Iff they have a problem, you help them with it, or at least try to. You say that people come to you, no matter where you go or what you do, they flock to you. They do that, becuz, they can sense the careingness that just eminates from you, surrounds you, creating a mist, a fog, even. Its so obvious that you're a good person...a wonderful person, and people cling to that. Its what makes people fall in love with you. Its what made me fall in love with you. The pure warmth that comes from being around you, the fact that, I know, no matter what, I'll always be cared for...It's a wonderful feeling, and I love it.. I love it when im engulfed in it. I love being near you, talking to you, even thinking of you, gives me that same feeling... I love you, so entirely and completly.
It is impossible for me to accuratly depict how and why I love you...so much that my heart aches....so much, that you never leave my mind.You were, at first, one of my best friends, and, just as so many others do, i fell for you, i fell for you, and chastised myself for it. I knew that it wouldn't bother you, but I never, in a million years thought it would become mutual....It wasnt even a thought in my mind that you might some day return my feelings...and, I didnt want to get hurt..so, when I became more aware of what I felt, and when it increased...I made myself distant, not wanting you to find out...becuz, I thought it would be difficult to deal with when you found out...I didnt want to get hurt....Like, when I told Liz what I felt for her, It was half to get my mind off of you, becuz I thought I had more of a chance with her, than you ::chucklez slightly:: and when i clinged to her as I did, it was so that I couldnt concentrate on you......I did have feelings for her, dont ask me why, but i did...but, what I felt for you was so much stronger, and only grows stronger and stronger with each passing day. The day you asked me out...I was so incredibly happy...You have no idea...::thinx on it:: actually, you probably do.... I was happy, worried, didnt know what to do... of course, you know all of that as well. I love you...so unbelievably much.... I just....love you... I never want this feeling to go away... I never want the happiness you make me feel.....to go away...to use Itachis term, (which, in turn, is mine) ...a constant feeling of euphoria.. You make me so happy...I love you so much.....
I love everything about you...The way your skin looks, so soft, and pale, contrasting so perfectly with your dark hair...The structure of your face, the clearness....the look of velvet....its so lovely....and the skin of your neck....purely teasing... Its just as soft looking, and lovely as your face, if not more so.... and you often have purfume on....its beautiful....just asking to be kissed... licked, suckled on....I was amazed when you told me that nobody had ever done that before....kissed your neck...I dont see how anyone could resist its beauty..... Your hair.....is purely beautiful.....when its down....its just...downright sexi..... the way it contrasts with your skin, and the way it falls over your face, or when its tucked behind your ear. It just makes me want to run my fingers through it, then place a kiss or two on the top of your head. ...Your eyes...are.....Enchanting.... truely enchanting. They are so....unique..... so beautiful..They practically describe your personality.....one of a kind.....a rare find...just as you are...The way your eyelashes fall over your face when you look down....your eyelashes...so beautiful... Did you know, that when you write, or read, that you have your eyes tilted down, with your eyelashes sweeping your cheeks....creating the illusion that they're closed, and, generally have your head tilted to your left? I like to watch you when you write, just admiring your face, your hair, your eyelashes.......alot of the tyme, my lip quivers from such a strong urge to kiss you....to kiss you passionatly, with all of my love... but I dont want to take you away from your thoughts.........I dont want to appear even more clingy and hopeless ^^;;..........
I love you... so much.... so so so so much.......... I dont think...no...I know this doesnt even come close to describing it. And I knowI'm.....dependant, and...underconfident, and clingy.....but I try my hardest for you....becuz I love you so much.....and Love is a strong word.....I refrain from saying it seriously, unless I completly mean it..... I mean, I may seem like the type who would get all clingy and dependant....no matter what...who it is....but...thats not true, at all....I have had a shield up...I never even thought that I love Liz, or Roque.....I do have a shield up....and Love is a very big word for me....and,I love you... with all that I am....You have no idea....In the true sense of the word...I would die for you.... I would....if you died....I wouldn't be able to...go through life, seriously.... I love you......so so so much.... I saw a quote online one day....and thought of you...immediatly...To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world..... You are my world.


With all of my love.........
Riska-chan







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