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Birthday
• 1991-11-02
Gender
• Female
Location
• Limbo, Hell's getting pretty populated these days, so I had to move here. It's real nice actually, very err...spacious and...empty ^^ hey, my voice echoes here though
Member Since
• 2006-03-12
Occupation
• Shinya/Box's student
Real Name
• Nai/Kaoru

Personal

Achievements
• great artist according to all of my friends; naivete
Anime Fan Since
• Wow...err...6th grade? maybe earlier, like, 5th
Favorite Anime
• Death Note, Tarot Café, Model, Petshop of Horrors, Paradise Kiss, Bizenghast, Fruits Basket, Hunter x Hunter, Gravitation, The Wallflower, Sensual Phase (sorta), Chocolat, Kindaichi Mystery Series, etc.
Goals
• To avoid having her mind raped by Shinya -_-, that would be real good for now
Hobbies
• Instruments (Guitar/keyboard/occasionally violin/bass (but I don't have a bass so >>)
Talents
• Haha, not everything as Shinya says ^^u I'm pretty good at costume design, and quick sketching (not as good as others, mind you) and I'm really good at being in denial ^^

myOtaku.com: Kaoru Cashew

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Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas!

Music: Breathe In - Imogene Heap (Frou Frou?)

Ahhh, it's Christmas everyone, hope you had a wonderful Christmas and got everything you wanted <3! And stocked up on the most calorific foods evarrrrr!

My Christmas was good. Got a very pretty scarf! (I'm a scarf fanatic <3) and a really nice little necklace. It has a peacock feather on it x3 so it's very much like me (pretty and so flamboyant that it hurts)

Ahhh, I may not be on again. I have so much going on. I have AP Euro hw, English reading (a Tale of Two Cities ARGH), Midterms AND a debate tournament that I have not prepped for in two months >> arghhhhhh I hate working. So much for break

Otherwise, I'm taking at least two days off for myself though. I need a vacation, I'm getting burnt out, and it's showing in my schoolwork. All those As have turned into Bs and Cs (although, I'm picking them back up to As). Lately I've just been busying myself in work, considering I can't stand social contact now.

I'll get into that rant later, considering I'm in a great mood, because it's Christmasssss! I played Phantom Brave ALL day and was ABSOLUTELY uselessss ahh it was WONDERFUL! And I steroided up my little chibi characters into little chibis of ownnz0rz! x3

Catch you all later, I feel sleeppyyy

-Kaoru

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Woo!

Music: Closer -Nine Inch Nails ; kudos to dirty music

Oh my GOD has it really been two months since i've been on? >> Jeebus Lordy people, and you all didn't beat me to death? I'm so sorry

Especially to you NarutoBlackmail I SWEAR TO GOD I HAVE YOUR B-DAY PICTURE THAT'S LIKE A MONTH LATE DONE! I will send it before hell freezes over so don't put me on the hate list *yet*

As for the rest of you, ahh I missed you all so much! I've been going through one helluva time at school cause of my friends >> majorrrr problems. I'm not really at fault, but my other friends are arguing and essentially hate each other, and thus I'm caught in the middle? And getting pretty damned pissed off at it all because it's about a stupid guy gahh

Other than that, I've made a helluva lot of new friends to fill that void. It's not as bad, I'm good at making friends quick (haha :3 i'm less zany and a tad more mature in person. Hopefully I'm not that immature here x3)

Anyway, school is going pretty awesomeeee! I got an A on my AP test (i PWNED you srs and jrsssss :3 biznitch a 14 yr old sophomore PWNED yaaa!)

Well, I should say 15 now :3 my birthday was Nov 2 so. That went fairly well. It was really tense cause one of my buddies was in a hospital and the other was pissed/mopey/emo beyond all reason, but I got a lot of gifts from my family and other friends (God they spoil me :3)

Ahhh more to come later

By the way people. If I go on another hiatus, any of you care to email me and yell at me? Cause I don't wanna forget about otaku cause I still have my art to post up! :3

-Kaoru

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Friday, September 15, 2006

Ne.

Music: AFI, Malice Mizer and Gackt

uhh yeah .__. i swear i'm not..totally dead

Today was okay. Sorry for like, appearing once every month nowadays. I'm really stressed for time, but the good thing is i'm doing well in all my classes (cept chem, think I flunked there xD tis okay, still got a month and I hate chem =__=u i deserve the right to fail)

My AP course is going SO well. I was so proud of myself, i was the only one of two people who got the only Bs in the class while everyone got Cs and Ds. Although, it is awkward to see really good honors kids cheering for a high C XDD

Teachers are okay and all but, somehow I feel really just stiffled. I lost a good friend like, ages ago, I don't think I placed that but, she was driving me insane by making me in general feel inferior and killing my moods. Yeah, well, the only reason i'm bringing that up is I swear one of my close friends is doing that too >> about now I really don't care. I just feel so like, numb, it doesn't matter. I guess you could call it heartless but, I can't care anymore.

I feel bad though, lately I kinda just wanna hang in the corner, listen to music by myself and just have everyone leave me alonne. But at the same time, I can't afford to do that. Everyone *else*, which seems like a damned conspiracy XD, is having crappy lives too so, it's almost hypocritical but I have to stay beside them >>

I dunno, I guess im kinda getting nostalgic about my old home but, at the same time, I know if I go back, i'll just go through hell again. I guess for now i'll just hang tight and it'll pass.

Anyway, I did some pretty good stuff in the while i was gone. Gonna post some art maybe tomorrow. Keep your eyes open :3 Hope you guys are doing well too!

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

ah damn

Music: Still MM

Aiight people, school started for me, so i'm gonna be REALLY infrequent on my otaku >> I have AP courses, honors courses and the whole sophomore-trying-to-be-a-jr-wannabe course schedule .__.

So i promise to try to make it somedays >> but if I'll probably post less than once a week or week and a half. If you really wanna contact me, PLEASE feel free to AIM or email :3 Wish ya luck on your school too!

-Kao

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

Going Out for a Bit

Music: Claire - MM, Brise - MM, Au Revoir- MM

I'm in such a Gackty mood today .__.u i've been sketching him all day, it's scary. I'm gonna start breaking out into Vanilla in the middle of the street +___+ man my life is a musical (but i'm not complaining. The acting sucks though XD)

But yes, before I go into a rant about how awesome my life would be if it were a musical, i'm taking the time to tell you, i'm apparently going to North Carolina from Thursday (today) to Sunday night, so I won't be able to check your sites till Monday ;__;uu so sorry! Buuuut i may have net access there considering my dad's got a super spiftay-uber-niftay laptop that works at the speed of light +___+! (except when you turn it on, ironically enough, so if it crashes, i'm pretty much screwed)

Ahh, Tuesday i went to my buddy Kaji's house. I feel guilty, cause I was having the worstttt few days and I was really quiet and awkward .__.u but then she fed me and I basically rolled over and told her I loved her x3 Feeding me means I'll be your bitch *almost totally mom's word*

But yes >> my dietary patterns were all screwed up from Friday-Tuesday. I would eat once a day and then be totally out of it >> but now they're all fine so.

ohhh, my mom's best buddy had a baby, remember my bitching from last post when she left? Yeah x3 she's reallyyyy adorable! Born 8/13 at 9 for all you KH2 fans XD Shinya's just jealous Arya (the kids) was born on akuroku day

Ohhhh and I made the most kickass brownies on EARTH. I was SO proud of myself, because i'm a good cook and all, but my brownies ALWAYS are demented. I made them on Tuesday, and I have no clue what I did to the ingredients, I just threw in some stuff that I eyed in and it came out deliiiciouuus. Even my mom (who hates everything I cook and thinks I'm hoorribleeee [only cause I ruin her kitchen cooking XD so she's trying to dissuade me out of the hobby]) said they were good!

I also got new clothes yesterday x3. Not many, cause technically we're supposed to get back-to-school clothes next week but, there were some really nifty shirts! But I think i'm gonna make my own, cause I like my ideas and can't find them anywhere so >> and i'm not that bad with cloth cutting/designing. I just can't sew for my life (my 8th grade sewing teacher, I swear wanted to STAB me cause I was that challenged with a machine-but my pair of pants was beautifullll). My mom is phenomenal at it, and my grandma is a GOD at it, as i've said before x3

Ohh, and we went to Walmart for some awkward reason .___.uu that place is SO big *hasn't been there in ages*. And I met my buddy Dana who works there x3 we had a GACKT RANT! (i'm so skilled at bringing him into conversation x3). And a KH2 rant and an Orange range rant +___+u! I also made her listen to my MM, which is my current band obsession cause I miss their musiiiiiccccc!!!

I also met my buddy Martha, who I haven't even heard from since the beginning of this year. She was really really nice to me -^___^- (senior already graduated; to seniors, i'm like their child .__.uu they baby me much) but we talked a little about life. She kept me informed about everyone and picked out a shirt for me x3 Twas nice!

But yes, i'll spare you all of this monstrous rant, and I didn't even get into the musical part of my life .__.u eek, that shall have to wait, lovelies. I'll get to it eventually <3

Be safe and see you soon -^___^-

-Kaoru

PS: Hikypoo shall color Turkeyman and send it to me or else *shakes fist*

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Monday, August 14, 2006

>> forget drowning

Music: Thankkk youuuu x333 -Orange RANGE people, Locolotion - Orange Range (ALL YOUR FAULT SHINYAAA)

Oh yeah. The drowning rant. Disregard it. It came NOWHERE close to dying from the last two days i've been through ;____;

Yes see, my parents friends came over, and they're nice and all I guess, but they have two devil kids that I had to look after >>

One of them was a girl going into sixth grade, she's not *that* bad, but she tailed me *Everywhereeeeeeeeee* and would read my convos online and stuff over my shoulder x__X. God, and I was in a quiet mood already but she kept hammering me to talk and there was seriously nothing I could say x__x. Which is strange because i'm quite good at conversing usually, but then again, i'm also excellent with children usually =___=u

Anyway, so if that wasn't a harassment enough, that little boy was SUCH A BRAT OO I've NEVER called a child that but I swear to GOD that's the *only* word I could find for him! He's so SPOILED! He was making a mess of expensive furniture (we worked hard for that X___X!! And the sofas that I picked out were almost stained with chocolate milk damnit) and he was jumping on my sister's back (who's only 7 mind you) and goddd. He also started to swear >> (at everyone, his mom included mind you) so I got mad and figured you have to reprimand a kid at this point. So I *firmly* (I should have yelled at him >>) told him not to do it again and its a VERY bad thing, and he got *pissed* at me and started to cry =______=. That's never exactly happened to me before so I was like ".__.uuuu oh shitttt"

And then the next day they proceeded to rub sidewalk chalk all over their faces and make a mess of it, and he hit me and left a really nice bruise on my upper arm. (he also said he hated me, but at that point I was like "...yeah that's nice, I kinda noticed")

And then the girl forced me to play 'make up' (I hate wearing that stuff often >> the only reason I have it is for VERY rare occasions, not every day basis =___=) and paint her nails. And then she insisted on painting my nails so now they're this atrocious shade of pink =____=.

Ohh let's top it off with me having to stand outside in the freezing cold night to buy them ice cream, catching a cold because of that, my headphones breaking and not eating for a day because nobody even cared to give me a break =____= that's what I call near dying my people

But praise the Lord they're gone ;___; I was near crying when they left because I was free from this torture. See, if my mom was there, (she was off being a hero trying to deliver a baby at the hospital cause her best friend was the mother >>) things would have been so much easier >> but of course, of all days. And then we cleaned the house till 3 AM almost cause my dad fell asleep =_____= gahhhhh

But i'm free ;___; I feel so alive now it's sad. Ironically enough though, I've homework to do =___= so ill have to catch you guys later-I promise to visit your sites X__X but that maybe hard cause summer's coming to an end and I have SO much stuff I slacked off on

Stay safe, may the devil's creation not find you
-Kao

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Tuesday, August 8, 2006

Backk

Music: *snicker* Rock 'n Roll Sinners - The Pillows (thank you Shinya/Hikaru XD), Destiny Islands (piano instrumental) - Kaoru Wada (x3 kaooruuu)

Ahhh <3 missed you people! How've you been doing? Sorry I didn't check your sites >> the day I left for vacation the comment thing wouldn't work. Goddamnnn

But yes, I'm back from vacationing. It was fun!

We had a hotel really close to horse stables x3 and just to explain, i'm a big horse person >> favorite animal. I still wanna pony damnit.

But yes, I scared the stable hands because I could name like, every breed, and I could pet the really ornery ones too X3 AND THEY LET ME FEED THE GOAT! Her name was Rocky and she was so cute ;__;!

Then we went white water rafting the next day and I almost drowned x3

Yeup, you kinda realize how great life is AFTER you're near death.

But it was really interesting, see? There was a rapid, and since when you go rafting, you kinda sit on the edge of the raft, not actually *in* it, the thing jostled me since I was sitting in a bad angle and WOOSH! i'm in the water clinging to the rope around the boat for dear life.

But there were some strange things going on, I mean, the day before I did this, I had a 'premonition' like dream. See, I 'felt' that either it was me, or my sister who was going to fall, I was like 100% sure of it >> but i'm glad it was me, since my sibling is 7 and that wouldn't have boded well.

But yeah, in the water too, i don't remember how I got there all too well, or how I got out as good, but everything was so clear underwater. I mean, my eyes were shut (if I opened them, i'd have lost my contacts) but I could *sense* everything around me. And I could 'see' the rocks, so I didn't hit any or run into anything. Maybe i'm just imagining X3

But yeah, my arms decided to quit working, so I couldn't pry myself into the boat, so some random person dragged me from behind =__=u. I swear, after that, everyone's like "Hah! It's the chick who almost drowned! How was the swim, kid? XD!"

All in all though, it was pretty cool X3 I'd do it again

But yeah, done for today x3 i'll come back tomorrow to check on you guys!

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Tuesday, August 1, 2006

Shalalaa

Music: Chokotto Love *weep* -MoMusu (it's horribley stuck in my head i HATE IT), Hit That- Offspring (x3 all your fault shin), Miss Murder -AFI

Oohh, the same day I went a-complainin', I went to my good buddy's house so see, it made the day a wholleee lot better.

Yanno? Everytime I complain, something good happens so, I should stop complaining else I'll be a hypocrite =___=uuu now I actually feel guilty

Anyway, today my buddy Shin is sleeping over. She's coming late cause I was *supposed* to shimmy down over to KoP but mom had meetings back to back (=___= I sometimes wonder what she does, but she's this really niftay businesswoman managing some project, so it just sounds cool.)

Still, Shin is coming, and I can't waiiiiiiiiit <33! I've been so humanly deprived that it's wonderful to have outside company. Chances are though, we'd be KH-2ing all night.

Dude, I wanna make an Organization XIII cloak so bad =___= I know my grandma (who is this AMAZING clothes designer, i am SO surprised she didn't take that as a career cause she could have done realllyy well) could make me one, so i'll have to commission one (and like, six others for my friends, heck, 12 so we can just recreate the damned Organization XIII x3)

Ooh, and I got some new manga. Anyone ever heard of Tarot Café or Petshop of Horrors? I'm a big junkie of those two =___= I LOVE THE ART! See, I like realism art a lot cause that's what I hope to evolve my style into.

Anyway, how have you all been doing? I seem to fail to ask everytime I'm here.

I should ask those little mini questions things-those are always cool but see, my brain is too dead to think of one >>

Well, i'll figure something out to harass you all later with ^^ :P, See ya in a bit!

-Kao

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Sunday, July 30, 2006

And the following consequences...

Music: something really soft and instrumental cause i really dun wanna hear lyrics today =___=u

Gahh, well, I quit the whole idea. The two out of the three people who I actually cared to see can't come. And there are only 4 people going (not including me) and one of them is not my favorite +___=u

Yeah so the one girl is real pissed cause she's been asking me to come down for ages. I can't exactly help that coming down is hard for me, I mean, I definately appreciate the fact she drove all the way up to see me, but the timings are ALWAYS off when she calls me, and the days I *can* do the drive, she's busy working. I mean, that's kinda unfair in way =___= i didn't call her over when she was pressed for time.

Uhh yeah, so that kinda got on my nerves, cause there's no explaining that to her without her arguing her point with me. So I kinda dropped it. I may stop by later to her house so she wouldn't harass me, but I highly doubt. My mom's kinda iffy on that cause we have a guest at home and everything

Chances are I won't see her for the rest of the summer either. Cause she's basically *only* free on Sundays. And I'm only free when she's working on the weekdays. And every sunday, i'm practically booked (next week vacation, two weeks from now, wedding [again gah =___=]).

So I'm pretty frustrated, cause I really don't know who to be mad with. My mom's lack of sensitivity or her lack of understanding =___=u ahh well, about now I don't care for either much *shrug* I'm dependant on someone for travel, so I can't exactly be blamed for either. Urghh my mind hurts though =___=u

Anyway, I guess two more years before I'm on the road *shrug* I'm pretty sure i'll get a car then, just have to tackle the whole idea of 'driving' down =___=uu

Mmhmm, so i'm done getting my frustration out, or at least, some of it. I'll figure it out later, chances are i'll go buy some manga for ref. doodles later or something. That'll get my mood upped. Sorry for bothering anyone's day (hopefully it didn't, it's just the ramblings of a frivolous teen <3)

-Kao

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Friday, July 28, 2006

Oivey

Music: Suspension - mae, runaway - mae, Harder to Breathe - Maroon 5,

Deary me, been a while since I updated, huh? Well, better late than never

Been trying ot be more regular on checking on your websites, been lazy too though x3 spare me

So let's see, I updated my art today <-go see, it's L from Death Note, considering Shin (and the original Chibi) got me hooked to it. It's a great concept, very well planned plot line.

Anyway, I've also been rereading Petshop of Horrors, don't know how many of you have read that-but I seriously suggest it. First one isn't all that good, but as the series progresses, it gets real good. Really pretty art and interesting ideas heh. Kudos to Orcott, our good ole dumbass cop <3

So let's see, nothing new with me. Played lacrosse all of this week. Kinda fun, met some new people, most my coaches liked me, but I swear one wanted to *maim* me so badly.

Uhh besides that, nothing really. I tried to do hw, but i'm so mentally distracted. I haven't been able to think, and I feel really tired and quiet. And I haven't been sleeping at all-I mean, i've tried but, i can't get to sleep till around 12 or later if i'm *lucky*

Ehh...c'est la vie. Perhaps it's a passing thing, I guess i'll be fine. I'm not too sure what's bothering me. Guess i'm kinda just lonely or something @___@ i dunno...

Well, on Sunday hopefully i'm going with my old friends to the movies. I'm not too sure i'm looking forward to that, cause in that group, I really don't like this one girl (and it's pretty mutual). I mean, she doesn't say much, but she's so rude and condescending. Don't get me wrong, I'd have no problem with her if she just didn't treat people like they were inferior. One thing about me, I may have flaws, but you damn well better show me respect =__= i've got a real pride for myself, flaws and all.

What I don't get is that she's been SO rude to her best friend, yet the girl didn't do ANYTHING. She's ignored her for the whole school year, and to make it all up, she threw a trip to some amusement park and they were 'all cool again'. I dunno, I just question those morales. I mean, I guess if you're best friends with someone, you'd wanna patch things up but, with treatment like that, I'd prefer an apology than any monetary (or basically monetary) return.

Ehh well, whatever happens yanno. I've no hot temper, so I won't flip if she's catty, but I certainly won't stand for it. There'll probably be some icy tension goin' on-but it won't ruin my day. And jeesh, I don't even know if i'm going.

so yeah..I'm gonna go back to read or draw, that usually preoccupies my mind. Hope you all have a good night (morning, whenver you read this ^^)

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