Saturday, November 20, 2004

11:54 AM.

Quack Experimental Karmi la la la: Kittie - Spit munch munch: Gingerbread cookies. adorn me: Pajamas. face paint: None. tic toc: almost noon. I have a lot to do today, mostly housework. Bathrooms scrubbed, rooms to be vacuumed, laundry to be washed. I also have a Chem lab I have to finish up, blah. I gave my oral (oral, hah hah) report on Claude McKay for the Harlem Renaissance, and I did pretty damn skippy! Which is good, because I very much need to bring that grade up. ^^;; After the class was over, a guy named Zack came up to me and he's like "How do you talk so much about poems? How do you understand them?" I didn't know what to tell him. I was flattered, of course, but then I actually thought about it. Reading and trying to understand poetry is something that I've always been able to just do, it's more automatic for me that even tying my shoes or riding a bike. And I enjoy doing it. I never really thought of it as a talent. But anyway, I went with a whole bunch of friends to go see Spongebob: The Movie last night, and it was hilarious. Call me immature, I don't care, it was totally worth it. Anyone who wants to be snobby and be all "Oh, spongebob, that's so STUPID." can go right ahead, because they're the only ones missing out. The movie is also the most LSD-influenced thing I have ever seen, except maybe Rocky Horror Picture Show. The last scene...oh my god. .:Commentary Mich, Mein Kapitän :. Shinmaru: Your inner child ate my soul. Lea: I <3 you too. Call you later. .:Viele Danke:. Fact O' Teh Day: The King of Hearts is the only king without a mustache. -Karma

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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

   10:01 PM.

I think people went through withdrawl while myO/OB was offline. Well, they did. Everyone's like "Crap. Now I have absolutely nothing to do. I have no life. ;-;" Including me, lol. But like so anyway...* winks at Syk3 * Yea, all countdowns are officially OVER. DS has already been released (drool) and Thomas...thomas thomas. I was reading his livejournal, and was rudely awakened to the fact that he is "happily taken". At first I was majorly upset/depressed. But then, I realized, it didn't matter. In my heart of hearts it only hurt me to hold on to something that would never work out. I was just avoiding it because at first such a thought hurt too much. So, after officially letting go of Thomas, I was led into some serious thinking, particularily about my "best friend" who is his little sister. That relationship is also messed up, because she's very dependent, and sometimes I feel like she's suffocating me. The exact same thing came up last year, but then summer happened, and by the time we saw each other again I was just happy to see her and had forgotten about all the crap she can pull. Well, now it's come up again. So I've been distancing myself from her too, trying to hang out more with people who make me happy, and who I make happy. And it's good. It's hard, but it's good. I can feel that it's good for me. Another big thing I let go of - RJ, my boyfriend. He's leaving the 23 to go to the Navy, so I just ended with him, with no hard feelings. We're still friends, which I'm glad for. It's nice being single again-I'm a pretty 'free-spirit' and I enjoy being flirtatious and outgoing. Being tied to a guy who's never around was killing me. So freedom = yay. Speaking of flirtations...a guy I had known back in elementary school appeared back in my life recently, and it's pretty shibby. He's cute, and we're both outgoing and playful so we get along well. He rode my bus home today cause he was visiting Toran, and then he, Tor, and this other dude came by and we went for a walk. It was hilarious. They were totally immature and oh my god it was hilarious. Immaturity isn't always bad. Sometimes it's good to let out the inner child, you know? =3 .:Commentary Mich, Mein Kapitän :. Shinmaru: State testing is so stupid. hEvN: WHOA. Mimmi: LOL! You kept up with the countdown better than me. I gave up. Teehee. Yes! Go have yourself a GOOD DAY! :D .:Viele Danke:. Fact O' Teh Day: Most cats are left-handed. -Karma

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Monday, November 15, 2004

   9:48 PM.

Why is the word phonetically spelled with an F? Goodness for today. You know, it is absolutely amazing how nice a day can turn out if you just say "I'm going to have a good day" and approach everything with that attitude. I did that, and things that normally would have bothered me a lot more (ie: My English teacher) were like "well okay. I just don't get along with her, and it's not like this one class is going to determine my future...so who cares if I make a C or B instead of an A?" And it was good. So, I had a very pleasant day. I plan on doing this every day. Except like, when people die or the world explodes or something...Anyway, I rented Puni Puni Poemy, which was directed by the same guy who did Excel Saga (Watanabe?), and it was absolutely hysterical, albeit a bit short. It was just a big, overtly sexual parody of Magical Girl Anime. And, myself being a big Sailor Moon fan, I found it very amusing. If you can get a hold of it, rent it! Also also also...Gravitation Vol. 8 came out! * drools * Damn, I hope I get my paycheck soon. Tommorow is going to be a nice break from a massive amount of "let's pile a bunch of crap on honors students right before the holidays so they can stress out and have a mental break down wheeeee!" because all the sophomores have PLAN testing, which is basically just practice for the PSAT and SAT and ACT and all those stupid state tests and whatnot. So it doesn't matter if you suck on it or not. That's for the first two periods, third period is German which is always so much fun, and then fourth period our school is hosting a rock concert for a local band called The Falls Lost, and I bought a VIP ticket so I get free pizza, ice cream, and soda, and get to be right next to where the band is playing. Thus, my vacation. FIVE DAYS UNTIL THOMAS COMES HOME. SIX DAYS UNTIL DS IS RELEASED. * moans in pure pleasure * .:Commentary Moi, Mon Cappi-tahn:. Shinmaru: Depends on the car. Godel: Yes, I know, it's so sad. We should buy him some hookers for Christmas...how much money you got? Godel 2: I know. * sinks into furry sexyness * OtakuSennen: Because you weren't online you bastard. Mimmi: I wish I could hold the whole world in this jacket and show it how warm and delicious it is. ...then again, that's kind of sick. hEvN: Nice to meet you, and I agree, Mimmi and Solo in the Kensington Gardens would be great. * brings video camera and camo-gear * .:Merci Beaucoup:. Fact O' Teh Day: Humans and dolphins are the only animals who in engage in sex for pleasure. -Karma

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

   5:26 PM.

Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you, dear. My Awesome New Jacket Which I Have Told Everyone About Because I Am Obsessive Compulsive: You know you love the jacket. I got rather bored, so I made up this game. I went around asking everyone who was online to name a random object, a place, and a person. These were the results: #1 - Shinmaru will lose his virginity in the mountains, with Natalie Portman and a bed. #2 - Mitch will lose his virginity in the inner walls of the vagina with George W. Bush and a telephone. #3 - OtakuSennen will lose his virginity in a park, with himself and a printer. #4 - Mimmi will lose her viriginity in Kensington Gardens to Solo with a pillow. #5 - Solo will lose his virginity in college, with Mimmi and a set of car keys. I love these games. They're so amusing. .:Commentary Me, Captain:. Mimmi: I hope you find the tip helpful. ;) Sara: Don't worry, neither can I. All the plural pronouns seem to get mixed up in my mind. Especially when you get into accusative and dative cases. @_@ Solo: Free good food = best parties ever. James: I agree with you, but the Christian population of America doesn't, which is basically what I was trying to say. It's going to take awhile for a large amount of Americans to be able to seperate marriage and Christianity, which is why gay marriage is such a hard thing to get legal. Shinmaru: Yea. Hemingway seems like an insecure, dried up old prune. I hate his style...it's so dry and choppy. .:Thank You:. Fact O' Teh Day: One of Hemingway's sons had a sex change. In his 60's. -Karma PS: Let's have dinner by candlelight, love. And now in black... Secret limelight in the mirror. EDIT: Thanks to Sennen for the font on the jacket picture. THERE I GAVE YOU A PLUG ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?!

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Tuesday, November 9, 2004

   3:34 PM.

So I guess I owe everyone an explanation for the Ohio comment... Well too bad, you're not getting one. First and foremost - has anyone ever heard of the band Snow Patrol? They're bloody awesome. If you haven't, go download "Run". You will love it. You WILL love it. [/subliminal message] Anywho, I finally finished reading The Sun Also Rises, by Ernest Hemingway. The first half is horribly boring and dull and stale like year-old bread, but the last half is quite good. However, while I was reading the first half, I got so bored that I took a pen and started underlining all the innuedos I saw/hallucinated. This made the book incredibly more interesting and amusing and I encourage it whenever you begin to get bored reading a book. Not sure how much it will help you on the test but... Now, a political rant: Someone asked me why I supported Bush while I was bisexual. Gay marriage is a complicated issue, with many more strings attached than something such as racism. Personally, I believe that the federal government needs to simply give equal benefits for married couples, regardless. However, since there is not true 'seperation of church and state' this isn't possible, because marriage is irrevocably tied to religion, and in america religion equals Christianity a majority of the time. Marriage is also tied to tax benefits, because, obviously, you're 'commited' to that person for forever (until you get a divorce, lol) so in the eyes of the government, you are entitled to part of your partner's financial wealth. This isn't right, but, as James actually mentioned in one of his posts, it is something that is bound to be rectified in time as America becomes more diverse in both relgion and opinion. So, while Bush isn't making gay marriage legal anytime soon, he can't make it illegal either without having a good portion of America absolutely up in arms against him, throwing the first amendment and seperation of c & s in his face like a banana creame pie. I agree with Bush and what he's done on a lot of other issues, whereas Kerry I disagree with just about everything. So I support him. Meanwhile, I am perfectly okay with having a common-law marriage should I want one with another girl. =) And I'll end it there. Ich liebe euer! -Karma

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Sunday, November 7, 2004

11:32 AM.

Welcome to the Autumn of my Insanity Random Facts You May or May Not Know About Karmi: -I've fallen down my stairs 23 times. -I've sprained my ankle three times. -I will be the first person in three generations of my family not to go into the medical field. -My favorite fruit is watermelons. -I own an insane amount of Gundam Wing models. -My favorite band is No Doubt. -I have a thing for blondes. -I'm bisexual. -I'm a pacifist. -I'm a virgin. -I have 4 cats. -If nudity wasn't illegal, I'd walk around naked all the time. -In Ohio, cannablism is legal. -I have over a 100 articles of clothing. (This does not include hats, gloves, and underclothing.) -I am a materialistic person. -Potatoes are my favorite food. -Cheese is close second. -I hate seafood. -I believe in a thing called love. -I'm pro-life. -I think gay marriage should be legal. -I support Bush. -I want to be cremated. My weekend was boring. Well, except when my boyfriend came over, then it was fun, but then later it was boring again. But but but--We got Sims 2! And it rocks! (except the whole freezing up every five seconds thing) So then it wasn't boring. I'm going to stop now while I'm behind. -Karma

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Thursday, November 4, 2004

   6:50 PM.

Behind the boathouse, I'll show you my dark secret. I love that band. Anywho...I'm feeling a little Cloud-9ish today. I think it's a mixture of learning a lot of culture and philosophy (see: Existentialism and Frida Kahlo) and hearing from someone I've been missing. And good music. It was such a beautiful day today. Really gorgeous. Perfect temperature, slight breeze, sunny but not too bright, not a lot of noise, happy people. Sooo pretty. My kitty cat says hello to you all. Now, just because I am lame: (And just in case you missed the boat, answer this and put it in my comment box. w00t.) 1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 7. Describe me in one word. 8. What was your first impression [of me]? 9. Do you still think that way about me now? 10. What reminds you of me? 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? 12. How well do you know me? 13. When's the last time you saw me? 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? 15. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? 16. What song are you listening to right now? 17. Do you love me? Hugs and kisses to all. And especially Solo.;) -Karma

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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

  

Diluted Sigh of Relief I'm rather angry right now, because the guy who told me Jenn was dead, turns out, he told me because of a rumour he had heard. She, thank God, is still alive, although barely. I am so pissed off at Jade though, because he acted like the rumour was flat-out truth. You don't ever, ever go around saying someone is dead unless you know it, for sure, beyond the iota of a shadow of a doubt. But I cannot express my intense gratitude at the wonderful amount of love and sympathy and empathy that everyone has shown to me. Thank you all an infinte amount of times over for your support during this difficult time. I'll keep y'all updated on Jenn's status. This week has been rather convulted. I stayed at my best friend's house for a week and a half, and it felt so good there. It's like 'this is what it is to be part of a non-psycho family. this is what it is to breathe.' I came back to my house earlier tonight, and it's an absolute mess. The mail hadn't been brought in since I left, my little brother...reeked...as did the bathroom. My father was polite but removed, while my mother was all bouncy and excited that I was back. Frankly I just want to leave again. I don't belong here. Other than family problems, life is pretty good. I went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show Ballet performed Saturday night, and it was absolutely hysterical. I can't even describe how awesome it was. It's just something you have to experience for yourself. (And I encourage everyone to definitely try it, at least once.) Halloween night, three of my friends, my boyfriend, and I went trick or treating. This was also quite kick-ass, as our costumes looked excellent! I was the Cheshire Cat, my best friend was the March Hare, my other friend was the Queen of Hearts, and her little sister was the Mad Hatter. My bf, RJ, we're not quite sure what he was when we began, but by the end, he was a gay cross-dressing warlock. It was a very interesting night. Oh, yes, btw (lol), I have a boyfriend. It's more of a fun relationship though, because we both came out of really rocky relationships where we commited ourselves to the other person and got it slapped back in our faces. So we can relate with that feeling and we're keeping it light and non-serious. It's pretty cool. I don't know what I'm going to do though, because he's leaving to join the Navy right before Thomas comes back. I still have feelings for Thomas, and honestly, I don't expect it to last between RJ and I since he'll be gone for...a LONG time. Maybe once he leaves, I'll just avoid relationships for awhile. Random subject change: Who did everyone vote for?? (Or who would you have voted for, were you old enough, because not being old enough is the only excuse for not voting!) -Karma PS: See pictures from my Halloween here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/karma_of_chaos

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Saturday, October 23, 2004

5:18 PM

Just when you thought you'd hit the bottom, the floor falls through. On Friday, one of my friends, Jennifer, was in a moped accident. She had just gotten the moped the day before. We all thought it wasn't a serious thing, kind of silly, because it was a moped. Then, about an hour ago, my friend Jade came online. He told me to call him, so I did. Turns out she died. Of head trauma. Her moped had been completely split in two. So, it's not even a year later and another one of my friends is gone. I never wanted to have to deal with this again, but here I am. I can't feel. It's the shock. You hear so many songs about wishing you couldn't feel, because the pain is just that bad. But they're wrong. Not feeling is worse, worse than the worst pain in the world. It's just like when Chris killed himself. Memories keep popping up, and I'll start sobbing because I'm casting them in stark relief against the image of her in a casket, but it never fully sinks in until you actually see them there. Dead and covered in powder. I don't even know if it the wake/funeral will be open casket, or if her body is just too scarred. So go grab your phone and call all your friends and tell them you love them. Call your brother and sisters and fathers and mothers and tell them you love them. Life is fickle. -Karma

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   1:32 AM.

Shinmaru Cassarole Superuber thank yous to everyone who left a kind comment on myO post yesterday. It made me feel a lot better, knowing that I have the support of so many people. All of you are dear to me. Status: Current Residence: Best Friend's House Current Mood: Tired as all get out. Current Grades: Decent. Current Love Life: Crap. >>This guy asked me out today right after our pep rally. He's my friend, and an awesome guy, but honestly, I have so much emotional shit going on right now, and I'm still kind of attached to Thomas, so it just wouldn't be right of me to go out with him when I've got all this stuff I'm preoccupied with. I would not make a good girlfriend. That's how I justify it, anyway. Once again, superuber thank you. I love you all. <3 <3 <3 for everyone!! -Karma PS: My freaky freak of the week is...Sara!

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