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Wednesday, November 19, 2003

   11:50PM.Tuesday.Nov 19.

It's 11:50 and I still haven't done the last half of my geometry homework...good thing the answers are in the back of the book! Half of them at least. ^.~

Life continues on in the normal, repetetive cycles. Dan and Lauren, two of my friends recently dated and then broke up. Now one of Lauren's friends that Dan used to hate and Dan have crushes on eachother, and Dan and Lauren hate eachother deeply.

How fickle their minds are.

Also, I've found that a group of my friendly acquaintances all are fighting against eachother, battling because of stupid RPG wars and foolish insults thrown. It amazes me that they are willing to throw away their friendships away, just like that. Because of this stupid thing. Some of these people have known eachother for a year or more. But as soon as things look bad, it's over. The end.

After all of this, and other things, I found myself wondering...does anyone really care for eachother anymore? Corny as it sounds...it's still rather sad. People go around putting on this mockery of friendship, knowing people for years and not truly understanding them. Social groups become simply means of survival, so that you are not alone. Any sort of true emotion isn't even there.

Two people will jump into a relationship, not even thinking. Their minds are so filled with infatuation and lust, that they do not even stop to consider the consequences. They just assume things will work out. Sometimes they've known eachother for a day, sometimes even less.

So how do we go on? Do we continue with this pathetic charade of emotion, simply going through the motions of being a good friend? I find that existing like that, living with false love, not caring about people, is something I cannot do. I care for all my friends...and I keep trying to piece together the wreckage they leave in my wake.

But perhaps, it is not my place to fix this. Maybe they need to learn from their own mistakes, to actually suffer from their actions of frivolty. I cannot protect them from everything, and it is useless and exhausting to try.

I refuse to be their crutch any longer. Sometimes the only way to learn is, unfortunatly, the hard way.

-Karma

PS: Gee, think I should start my homework now? Lol.
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