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Thursday, October 21, 2004

5:35 PM.
Can't forget what you never said.

Today...well, today sucked. Today's suckiness started yesterday though. My dad lost it again and went on massive rage mode, started screaming "fuck you!" and all this crap, and slamming cabinents and stomping around and threatening to hit people (mainly me). Basically just acting like the complete and utter asshole with a total lack of self-control.

But I was scared in a way that I hadn't been since like...last March. Which is not okay. I never wanted to be scared like that again. So I talked with my mom (she tried to blame me for all it, go figure), and I just told her that I couldn't live there anymore. It was either move in with a friend for awhile, or move out to California for the rest of high school. So when she comes home tonight we're going to decide what's going to happen. I'm most likely going to go live with my best friend for awhile, until I can deal with being in this house again.

I'm so fucking tired of all this bullshit. Does it ever end? Do things ever really get better? I'd like to believe it can happen, and that's what I've been holding on to, but when people continually fall back on their old, angry, destructive personalities, it's gets harder and harder to keep believing in hope. But I digress. Let's move on, shall we?

One good thing about today was that I think I did surprisingly well on my English test on The Great Gatsby. For those of you who were up all night with me (Lea, Nick, Asphy, and James-thanks you guys), you know of the awful book. I was totally stressed out about it last night, and ended up staying up until 4 am reading an online copy of the book, because, surprise surprise, my dad never bought the book for me. But yea, I took the test, and it was like "Wow! I actually know all this crap!"

Here's my interesting thought of the day: What happens when you get scared half to death twice?

-Karma

PS: New poetry on OB, and new art on deviantart.com (karma-of-chaos) Check it out! :D

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