Wednesday, November 3, 2004

  

Diluted Sigh of Relief I'm rather angry right now, because the guy who told me Jenn was dead, turns out, he told me because of a rumour he had heard. She, thank God, is still alive, although barely. I am so pissed off at Jade though, because he acted like the rumour was flat-out truth. You don't ever, ever go around saying someone is dead unless you know it, for sure, beyond the iota of a shadow of a doubt. But I cannot express my intense gratitude at the wonderful amount of love and sympathy and empathy that everyone has shown to me. Thank you all an infinte amount of times over for your support during this difficult time. I'll keep y'all updated on Jenn's status. This week has been rather convulted. I stayed at my best friend's house for a week and a half, and it felt so good there. It's like 'this is what it is to be part of a non-psycho family. this is what it is to breathe.' I came back to my house earlier tonight, and it's an absolute mess. The mail hadn't been brought in since I left, my little brother...reeked...as did the bathroom. My father was polite but removed, while my mother was all bouncy and excited that I was back. Frankly I just want to leave again. I don't belong here. Other than family problems, life is pretty good. I went to see the Rocky Horror Picture Show Ballet performed Saturday night, and it was absolutely hysterical. I can't even describe how awesome it was. It's just something you have to experience for yourself. (And I encourage everyone to definitely try it, at least once.) Halloween night, three of my friends, my boyfriend, and I went trick or treating. This was also quite kick-ass, as our costumes looked excellent! I was the Cheshire Cat, my best friend was the March Hare, my other friend was the Queen of Hearts, and her little sister was the Mad Hatter. My bf, RJ, we're not quite sure what he was when we began, but by the end, he was a gay cross-dressing warlock. It was a very interesting night. Oh, yes, btw (lol), I have a boyfriend. It's more of a fun relationship though, because we both came out of really rocky relationships where we commited ourselves to the other person and got it slapped back in our faces. So we can relate with that feeling and we're keeping it light and non-serious. It's pretty cool. I don't know what I'm going to do though, because he's leaving to join the Navy right before Thomas comes back. I still have feelings for Thomas, and honestly, I don't expect it to last between RJ and I since he'll be gone for...a LONG time. Maybe once he leaves, I'll just avoid relationships for awhile. Random subject change: Who did everyone vote for?? (Or who would you have voted for, were you old enough, because not being old enough is the only excuse for not voting!) -Karma PS: See pictures from my Halloween here: http://www.livejournal.com/users/karma_of_chaos

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