Wednesday, November 17, 2004

   10:01 PM.

I think people went through withdrawl while myO/OB was offline. Well, they did. Everyone's like "Crap. Now I have absolutely nothing to do. I have no life. ;-;" Including me, lol. But like so anyway...* winks at Syk3 * Yea, all countdowns are officially OVER. DS has already been released (drool) and Thomas...thomas thomas. I was reading his livejournal, and was rudely awakened to the fact that he is "happily taken". At first I was majorly upset/depressed. But then, I realized, it didn't matter. In my heart of hearts it only hurt me to hold on to something that would never work out. I was just avoiding it because at first such a thought hurt too much. So, after officially letting go of Thomas, I was led into some serious thinking, particularily about my "best friend" who is his little sister. That relationship is also messed up, because she's very dependent, and sometimes I feel like she's suffocating me. The exact same thing came up last year, but then summer happened, and by the time we saw each other again I was just happy to see her and had forgotten about all the crap she can pull. Well, now it's come up again. So I've been distancing myself from her too, trying to hang out more with people who make me happy, and who I make happy. And it's good. It's hard, but it's good. I can feel that it's good for me. Another big thing I let go of - RJ, my boyfriend. He's leaving the 23 to go to the Navy, so I just ended with him, with no hard feelings. We're still friends, which I'm glad for. It's nice being single again-I'm a pretty 'free-spirit' and I enjoy being flirtatious and outgoing. Being tied to a guy who's never around was killing me. So freedom = yay. Speaking of flirtations...a guy I had known back in elementary school appeared back in my life recently, and it's pretty shibby. He's cute, and we're both outgoing and playful so we get along well. He rode my bus home today cause he was visiting Toran, and then he, Tor, and this other dude came by and we went for a walk. It was hilarious. They were totally immature and oh my god it was hilarious. Immaturity isn't always bad. Sometimes it's good to let out the inner child, you know? =3 .:Commentary Mich, Mein Kapitän :. Shinmaru: State testing is so stupid. hEvN: WHOA. Mimmi: LOL! You kept up with the countdown better than me. I gave up. Teehee. Yes! Go have yourself a GOOD DAY! :D .:Viele Danke:. Fact O' Teh Day: Most cats are left-handed. -Karma

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