Friday, April 29, 2005

   9:08 AM.

Her placenta falls to the floor. Wow...it's been such a long time since I updated. Sorry guys! There has been a LOT of crazyness going on in my life the past couple of weeks. Allow me to recount my affairs. ;) Okie, a couple days into spring break, my mom was getting really screwed up (messing with meds, having uber-depression spells, etc) and we kept getting into these really big fights. Finally, she kicked me out of the house. So, I went to go live with my best friend. Then like, the next week, my mom was all, "I'm sorry! Come back!!" and I was like, "WTF? You can't just throw your daughter out and then expect her to come back at your beck and call. I'm not your plaything." So I ended up staying over at my friend's house for about 3 weeks, which was a very healing experience for me, except for this one night my mom came over and demanded I come home and I refused, and we started screaming bloody murder each other and then I started basically just wailing because she put me in such misery. Then she left. But yea, that's why I haven't been online lately. I'm so lucky though, that I have my best friend and her mom to be there for me so much when I don't have a family of my own to fall back on. It really has become like I'm just her adopted daughter or something. I don't think family is necessarily always a 'blood bond' thing. I think you form 'blood bonds' with the people who in the end, truly are your family. Uhm, okay, on to happier news! Last Friday was 3 months for Johnnie and I. :D I'd be lying if I said things hadn't been difficult with him, but I'm very glad I'm with him, and I want us to enjoy the relationship for as long as possible, even though it is obvious to me that this is not something that is going to last past the end of the school year. He's graduating this year and I won't see him in school anymore, and we're not going to see each other at ALL over the summer, so it would be pointless to pretend that we can keep it going after that. But I am happy with him. So yay for Johnnie. Oh, and of course the biggest thing going on in my life right now is my sweet sixteen!! Yes you guys, in two days I will be sixteen years old. I am so insanely excited. Sixteen has always been this super magical age for me. Like I would never actually be cool enough to really turn sixteen (lol!). But now I am! I really can't explain why I'm so happy about it...I guess it's just because I finally feel like I'm moving toward true adulthood. I mean, I know sixteen is hardly mature or anything, but in two years I will be fully responsible for myself, so I guess this is kind of a signal to myself to start really practicing now. It's a big thing for me. My birthday party is going to be this Saturday, and it's going to rock sooo much! A bunch of my friends and myself are all going to the beach to swim and play beach games and build sand castles and possibly go skinny dipping (;D) so we're going to be there practically all day, and then after that we're going to this bad-ass awesome cantina on the beach with like, the best food ever! Yummy!! And we're doing the cake and presents thing there too. So very much uber yey. <3<3<3 Two more very exciting things also on the horizon: The weekend after my birthday party is prom!! * gasp! * Yep, I'm going to senior prom with Johnnie!! I've got the dress and shoes and everything, and he's got his tux, so now we're just waiting for the actual date. It's neat, the prom is going to be at the aquarium in downtown Charleston, which is soooo cool. Or maybe I'm just a dork. But I think it's cool. :D The second exciting thing is that this summer I will be going to California on June 7th with my best friend and her mom to see my best friend's brother's graduation, and be able to see all the funky cool parts of SoCal that she lives nearby. Then I'll be driving back up to San Fran to visit my aunt for basically the rest of the summer. Aahhh...I absolutely cannot wait. And through all of this, I've still managed to make high B's and A's through school! Yea, that's right, I rock. * cough * My goal for this last quarter is straight A's though...we'll see if I can do it. :) Alright. This is has been KRMI radio, 102.7. Ciao dudes and dudettes. QOTD: "Do not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand." -Baruch Spinoza -Karma

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