Saturday, April 29, 2006

   bored..........
Well not a lot happened yesterday I had my 3rd round CCM interview my AP metting and my UPG meeting and discovered I really don't like come of my teammates..*sighs*

anyways with nothing more to really say I'm just going to post part of the what I posted yesterday since no one read it *crys* jk anyways here ya go

well awhile ago some things in the chatroom have happend that have left Yami devistated and with out hope of any salvation and dragon and lunnaei have been looking for chance for a while to be able to witness to him...so its Yami, Talim, and Lunnaei..and heres what happend during that little chat...

Lunnaei: Yami....*swallows* You remember when I told you a moment ago....that there is hope for you? That you're not lost to the darkness? *will wait for his reply*

ami: *desperately wants to believe that . . . another small nod*
Lunnaei: You asked how......My friend.....this is a choice you make....you can choose to go to one that will banish the darkness from you...........

Yami: *small shake of head - can't be done, he /is/ Darkness, it's the core of his being, can't separate him for his very make-up, whatever he once was in life*

Lunnaei: *firm* You are /not/ darkness....you are made of "dark energies" but that is not the darkness I speak of Yami. I speak of the dark hopelessness you are drowning in. *gestures to the room around them (I'm assuming it's still dark, though the constructs are gone...?)* Do you /want/ to stay in this?
((it's still dark, yes - in fact, since Talim and Lunnaei are mind-to-mind right now, he'd be able to let her know that it's always been cool and low-light at best . . . like the inside of a dimly-lit tomb.))

Yami: */very/ soft sob* No . . . */almost/ added "Tai" out of "habit" from his own hurt and experience and others' memories [Talim, Shyler, Wes . . . ]*

Talim: *flinches slightly at the unspoken "Tai"*

Lunnaei: *pang of hurt at the unspoken word, but isn't going to address that...* Then you have a choice. There is a way to leave this darkness friend. One that will take you as you are and put /his/ protection over you....his light.
Talim: */softly/* Life Light....

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Friday, April 28, 2006

   trying to get Yami saved....
well um...yeah..so basicaly nothing really happend yesterday...and nothing yet to day either other than that my supervisor to a few of us out to subway for some random reason...not complaining though was better than the hot dogs in the cafe...now to explain the subject..*caughs*

well awhile ago some things in the chatroom have happend that have left Yami devistated and with out hope of any salvation and dragon and lunnaei have been looking for chance for a while to be able to witness to him...so its Yami, Talim, and Lunnaei..and heres what happend during that little chat...

Lunnaei: Yami....*swallows* You remember when I told you a moment ago....that there is hope for you? That you're not lost to the darkness? *will wait for his reply*

ami: *desperately wants to believe that . . . another small nod*
Lunnaei: You asked how......My friend.....this is a choice you make....you can choose to go to one that will banish the darkness from you...........

Yami: *small shake of head - can't be done, he /is/ Darkness, it's the core of his being, can't separate him for his very make-up, whatever he once was in life*

Lunnaei: *firm* You are /not/ darkness....you are made of "dark energies" but that is not the darkness I speak of Yami. I speak of the dark hopelessness you are drowning in. *gestures to the room around them (I'm assuming it's still dark, though the constructs are gone...?)* Do you /want/ to stay in this?
((it's still dark, yes - in fact, since Talim and Lunnaei are mind-to-mind right now, he'd be able to let her know that it's always been cool and low-light at best . . . like the inside of a dimly-lit tomb.))

Yami: */very/ soft sob* No . . . */almost/ added "Tai" out of "habit" from his own hurt and experience and others' memories [Talim, Shyler, Wes . . . ]*

Talim: *flinches slightly at the unspoken "Tai"*

Lunnaei: *pang of hurt at the unspoken word, but isn't going to address that...* Then you have a choice. There is a way to leave this darkness friend. One that will take you as you are and put /his/ protection over you....his light.
Talim: */softly/* Life Light....

Yami: *listening . . . *
Lunnaei: Yami, He has to prerequisets for coming to Him. He don't care what you've done, He already knows what you'll do, and yet he love you still.....*glances at Talim not sure she wants to say this, but....* If he can forgive a mother of murdering her child, even if she has justified the reason to herself over the years, he can forgive and love /anyone/....

Yami: *soft snort* *he had already chosen /her/, and knew why she did what she did - Yami's not even of that world . . . and /is/ an intimate part of the very evil that threatens "his" world and "his" beloved creations - if not directly, than by the power he wields . . . *

Lunnaei: *snorts back* Anti is not evil, Yami! It may be used for evil, and the Tervai may have mastered it, but it is /not/ evil, and you being made of it changes nothing. You being from another world changes nothing. You know who waits for you one Earth? The one called Christ, God, Jesus - whatever you want to call Him; He's got many names, and He is /no/ different from Reirinsei's Life Light. *sighs, softening a bit* Is this hitting you yet, Brother? Two separate worlds, the same God? Same mannerisms, same character, same nature, same love?

Yami: *same lies, same hypocritism, same holier-than-thou righteousness? - doesn't voice, thoughts dart through before caught, from experiences of Yugi's and the "teachings" of one friend at school [lol - what the heck, can almost see him making a Christian friend, finally opening up about Yami's existence - only to be warned of the "demon" inhabiting him!]*

Lunnaei: *sighs* Sadly there /are/ people out there like that...but that is /not/ the Life Light, and I personally appologize for those that would deface Him like that. If you knew Him, knew his character, you would know that he's not as some people make Him out to be.
Talim: *swallows* I'm sorry too, Yami.......people standing for the Life Light should act that way..........

Lunnaei: Yami...the Life Light...God......his nature is Love. Do you know what /true/ love is?

ami: *after Talim's comment - swallows, small shake of head* Not your fault . . . *to Lunnaei's - /very/ small smile* Aibou . . . *soft chokesob*
*Yugi's voice, echoing* Hn, no. I'm not his Light. He /has/ no Light . . .

Yugi: *in the back of Talim's mind*



Talim: Yami. *will Yami anything Yugi wants him to*

Lunnaei: *small smile* Yugi lives love well, doesn't he? Love is patient...love is kind...it does not envy....it does not boast.....it is not proud.....it is not rude or self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps not records of wrongs done against it. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always persevers. Love never fails, Yami.....in other words....Love gives everything to benefit the one loved...even if it costs the giver everything they have........*nodnod* Yugi lives love.....but you know what..........so do you.......not entirely *soft teasing laugh*, but you live love for Yugi....and for your friends.....for one who is "Darkness".....you sure shine brightly, my brother....

He has yet to open his eyes . . . but he's not trembling anymore . . . nor /openly/ crying*

Talim: *sheepish smile* You don't just shine when the Horus Eyes are active....*almost trying not to laugh*
Lunnaei: *SWEATDROP* My point Brother.....Is that the Life Light's love......Christ's love......is so much deeper than Yugi's could ever be, given far more freely and even your Aibou could give. And that love....it directed /right/ at you.....just as it was directed /right/ at me...and everyone else...

Yami: *doesn't believe that, can't . . . not possible [he's not "being difficult," just truly, honestly can't fathom that]*

Lunnaei: *smiles* I don't think any of us can, Brother, but that is what makes it so wonderful......did you know that Christ died for you? Paid the penalty to save you from darkness?

Yami: *mental snort - now /that/ he does /not/ believe . . . besides, if he's not mistaken, this Christ person, if he even ever truly existed, lived a 1,000 /after/ he did - Yami's a third older than this fairy-tale prophet!*

Yami: *soft sigh, finally opens eyes but is still not looking at them* I know what Aibou believes, and a little of what Nicodemus believes, and what he has told me /I/ was taught as a child . . . *shrugs* who knows the truth?

Lunnaei: It's actually very easy to know the truth if you think about it.....what does Yugi believe? And what were you taught as a child? And I know Nic believes the same as I.....so what are your thoughts....?

Yami: *heavy sigh, shakes head* I don't. *steadfastly refuses to think about any one thing . . . to do otherwise is dangerous, invites thoughts of final destinations and what awaits the souls of the Judged . . . *

Lunnaei: *brushes his bangs from his face* *gently* That's why you /must/ though......the Life Light paid the price for the "judged souls" already, my brother....He's your only hope of peace when that time comes..

Yami: *shakes head* . . .
Yugi: *silent, listening . . . his Shinto beliefs certainly can't help Yami the way he needs . . . and what of himself, if half of what he's heard over time is true?*

Lunnaei: *soft sigh* *gently hugs Yami* It /is/ something that you need to think about, Nyal (Brother....though by now I'm sure you know that, eh? ^,~). When you are open to talking about it /please/ find me. *brushes his hair from his face again* And in the meantime.....*looks him over* *shakes head* Don't hold to this.....it hurts to see you like this and I'm not just talking sympathy pains.
Talim: *soft shudder*
Lunnaei: These wounds are mental now......clean up, and come back to us... And /please/ think about what I've told you...I speak the truth I've experienced....*smileing warmly at him*

Yami: */still/ not meeting their eyes, looks down at himself, slow nod . . . slower healing, wounds and finally blood disappearing*

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Thursday, April 27, 2006

   Chapel was Awsome!
hey yep well first well I have deffently been aeting ramen instead of beans and rice...which basicaly I guess we're supose to be eating because there are a lot of misionarys in countrst where thats the stable *shrugs*....however God is amazing and has suplied me with ramen *grin*

okay anyways not much happend yesterday...cept a drew a quick pic it took me less than an hour so needless to say its not very good..well its not really bad either just a bit out of poporiton maybe and diffently of center...

and I'm a little frurstarted with the person I'm supose to be working with but other than that...yeah...

okay so anyways during chapel today instead of a typical lecture type thing there was more of an iterview type thing with this one Iraq general who had been there threw the first war in Iraq and now that Sudam is gone is helping with the new goverment and such and helped the guy interviewing him talk to some of the people to help get and admidment put in there constitiution where if you change religiouns you arn't killed and such...also he thanked us as Americans in general for sending in people and freeing the people there from their dictator...as well as told us about how there had been wepons of mass destruction there it was just moved and now sadly the terorist still have them but still that we did come at the right time...and also told us about all the opertunitys and such that God had given him it was great!
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

   rice and beans...*makes face*
yeah thats what they're serving all day today and tomorow and I hate it and didn't realize it so curently today my lunch consist of an apple, then doritoes, cocoa krispies and choclate choclate chip cookies stolen from Lunnaei's desk.....well not much happend yesterday or today for that matter sooooo um yeah....

"Puppet"by TFK

Gonna get this party started

It's all around me,
And I can't wish this away,
You so amaze me,
You took my monster away, [x2]

Wake me, c'mon and wake me up now I
Want to cut off my strings and break,
Loose of your control of me,
Cut your strings and be free with me, [x2]

[bridge]
Everybody, shake your body,
Lift your hands, stop frontin',
You're just a puppet, [x2]

To all the marionettes

(chorus)
If your gonna run, how fast ya gonna run?,
And If your gonna jump, how high can you jump?,
All you perpetrators be walkin' round frontin',
What?, you fakers afraid to stand for somethin'? why don't ya stand
Up n' break me off somethin'? [x2]

Ya wanna make it outta sight?,
Somebody wanna get live tonight?,
We can hit that, flip that, settle the score,
'n' ain't nobody rock a crowd like this before,
Ya wanna make it outta sight?,
Somebody wanna get live tonight?,
Like an earthquake, let it shake,
Make the floor vibrate, Krutch y'all,
Back to set the record straight.

All y'all people, listen, it's on,
Krutch marauders we on a mission,
Hittin' ya with the ill ammunition,
At war with the puppet master, ..
I'll bring it on if I had to,
Rip it 'n' leave the whole scene shattered,
Like, chik, blaow!, what ya think of me now,
I'm lettin' my dawgs out,
Makin' it loud so hear me shout, what?,
We be comin' laced with bass,
Hit the place with no trace,
When we rock the space,

[bridge]

To all the people still sleepin'

[Chorus (x2)]


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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

   explination time yeay!!!!!!!!!!
okay so why didn't I post since Thursday? well I'm glad you asked! jk...sort of...anyways yeah so Friday I had my work day so I didn't have a chance to get on a computer until 4:30 at that point I was way to exausted though to post. So what exactly did I do to wear myself out? I cleand trash cans...ick yeah exactly we did all of Misson control..downsatairs HA, the women RD's, IT, and 2 rows from the epicenter...yeah...that was kind of sick but thats okay...even though the sun tried to kill me as well I still survived and had a nice little war with the ants (the annoying things just refuse to drown!

Then on Saturday I spent most of the day helping with the True North seminar for people who want to be LD's on our mission trips

I'll admit Sunday I was just plain lazy

And I didn't post until latter yesterdsay cause I usualy post during lunch however because Adam and I were the only two (other than supervisiors) in admitions to work on Good Friday and to sign up to help with the simminar they took us out to lunch at subway and we got back 30min late....yeah...okay...well thats all for today see ya!
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Monday, April 24, 2006

   raaaaaannnnnndooooooommmmmm
sorry I havn't updated since thursday a lot has been happening.....I'll tell ya'll about it tomorow....just thought I'd post a warning now that tomorows post shall be long.......see ya!
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

   bake potato!
yep thats right we had my favorite meal again.....well my pic is messed up....some how I acidently saved it as a document instead of a pic...as soon as thats fixed it will be posted....and

In other news...with any luck I will be funraising Sunday why? because I need $500 by Monday at midnight or I have to leave campus...$400 of that is supose to be in the mail...but I have yet to see it....

*sighs*....well it was lighting and our power went out and orical messed up....so were having problems doing some of the stuff...they may send me over to finance again....hmmmm well what else to say....theres a work day tomorow so I may not be able to update.....but I will try....and yeah..I think thats all thats happening right now.....see ya
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Background checks.....
yep thats what I'm doing right now...there arn't many and its pretty easy so I'll proably be done soon........well not much happend yesterday me and Lunnaei and Kibou rped some..and I manged to get some money for to do my wash...still couldn't get to sleep till after one though...oh and we had another syposim today...it was on misions though it just felt like "the Plan" all over again...though..some how I found it more boring.....wrote out a fight sceene though...decided I really hate doing fight sceens I just need to do some more details in it...overall though it was suprisingly not to bad...oh and I was stupid...I didn't put the pic on the Edrive so now I have to wait tell I get a chance to do that before I can put it up sorry guys...and um.....yeah thats about it...see ya..
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006

   chips and hot fudge!
yeah so yesterday we left the comps at 8 *gasp* amazing I know and me Kibou and Lunnaei went to Lunnaei's room for some chips an cheese Queso (sp?)anyways yeah so we ended up talking about random stuff...though most of it consisted of what Lunnaei and Dragon did to Yami, and differnt things and possible situations in the chat room, and what ever was going on with Hannah....*has no idea*...and talking about the Kuni (deffently spelt that wrong...the dagger things they use in Naruto) that Lunnaei is going to try to get off ebay...they're supose to be full-tang...and um....yeah while playing with Kibou's throw daggers (there were three perfect coincedince eh?) and um.....yeah...some how we didn't leave until one not that thats unusual for that room...its just...usualy not us...and it was sooooo hot in my room to it made it very hard to get to sleep *sighs* anyways I scaned the pic and will try to post it today...doesn't look awsome but its pretty good for me! yeah...okay see ya....

oh and some Rock lyrics for everyone else...who's wasn't big on worship ^_~
its Kutless---Shut Me Out

Tell me something I don't already know
I know that you can't stand these things I'm preaching in the streets
But how can I contain the truth I hold inside
With all the hurting people that I see

So I don't mind putting up with you
And all the things you say
I'm not about to stop
Or even change my ways

There's nothing you can say
That will take me away from this life
There's nothing you can do
To shut me up when I'm speaking the truth

You may not like all I have to say
But you can't prove that everything is filled with empty words
I know my life and inside how I've changed
A testimony to the truth I speak

So I don't mind putting up with you
And all the things you say
I'm not about to stop
Or even change my ways

There's nothing you can say
That will take me away from this life
There's nothing you can do
To shut me off, to shut me out when I'm speaking the truth

There's nothing you can say
That will take me away from this life
There's nothing you can do
To shut me up when I'm speaking the truth
There's nothing you can say
That will take me away from this life
There's nothing you can do
To shut me off, to shut me out when I'm speaking the truth
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Monday, April 17, 2006

   sorrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyy
okay sorry I didn't update yesterday I was lazy and didn't get the pic scaned....hopfully I will tonight.....*sighs* and Matt was requesting his Heero pic today so I need to find a good refrance and start working on that...he's was sad to find out we have a full car when we go anime whaching...yeah oh speaking of which Lunnaei should be getting her car back next weekend...so with any luck I will be doing fundraising on Saturday and we will go over to the childrens park sunday afternoons and stick our feet in the water and work on finnishing Yu Yu Hakasho...yep....okay....well not much more to say.....sooooooo yeah.....see ya..
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