Friday, April 7, 2006

Maybe I shouldn't be... lol...
Haven't posted in a while. Since Tuesday!! But I have a very good reason. And that is this: I've been waiting. For what you ask? What, you don't ask? Oh, come on! Please! I've been waiting to tell my story for a while! lol.

Anyways, my reason is that I wrote another article. I wrote it Tuesday, right after my last post. And since then I've been waiting for my article to come up, and THEN I would post again. lol. But it seems it still hasn't come up. I'm starting to get slightly worried...

Whatever.

Anyways, here's my little (actually I don't think it is that little) story (actually it's not much of a story) on why I wrote the article, right after saying that I wasn't really in the mood for writing. It's because I got myself in the mood for writing.

Wait! Just here me out, it's kind of funny. The thing is, I was looking around theotaku, and more spefically, at other writer's blogs. Well, one thing I've noticed about myself (quite a while ago I suppose) is that I have a very annoying tendancy (I think I'm the only one that kows about it though, lol) to be VERY competitive. I don't think anyone else really knows because I try to make my competitiveness seem just like easy, laid-back coincidence that I'm just as good (or better, lol) at something as someone else. Pathetic? I suppose, lol.

Anyways, when I saw other writer's sites, I saw them talking about things like how they have this new article idea, and how they're so happy that they've written so much, or are so popular, etc., and I (very irrationally and childishly, I suppose) thought to myself, "So they think they're so great by writing, eh? Well I'll show them!"

I suppose most of you are by now shaking your heads at me. Don't worry, I get that a lot, lol. I bet I just went down a few pegs in all of your opinions (that is if I ever had a high reputation)! Anyways, seeing other people being happy about being able to write, and doing well, or having a high rating, etc., made me want to write, just to show them that (I suppose this is the real, real, and very sad truth) I could too, and that I was better.

lol. I'm positive no one actually cares! lol. Ha! Here I am, just laughing at myself and my own stupidity! lol. But I suppose it's good I know I'm like this! lol. Now I won't seem horribly arrogant (at least I hope not, I HATE seeming arrogant, unless I'm being sarcastic).

I mean, why would I be like this? I KNOW that no one actually cares if I write more than them. I KNOW that no one cares if I have a higher rating then them. But the sad truth is that I'm so competitive, that I do, to a certain degree. lol. Remember, CERTAIN DEGREE. I'm not crazy about it, I just want to be aknowledged as better. lol.

I'm very pathetic, aren't I?

lol.

P.S. I laughed too much this post. Sorry if I annoyed anyone. I annoy a lot of people with my excessive laughing. Just ask Backlash Wave. He'll tell you some funny stories.

Oh! Final note. I just noticed something. Today is exactly one year after I joined theotaku! Pretty neat. Although, I actually didn't start doing things here until October 31, 2005. That was the first day I posted something on my blog. It's been a while I suppose.

Anyways, I'll now leave you all to comment on how pathetic my childish competitiveness is. lol. Don't hold back! I can take it!


Quote of the Post: "Arrogance is a kingdom without a crown." - American Proverb
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