Thursday, December 20, 2007

And like, woah! That proved nothing
AKA, "The Portfolio Review Post".

So after sick days and...children sick days, Katana's AP art portfolio review was on Tuesday. The entire day, she managed to remain calm, but come fourth hour, she was starting to jitter.

Alright, enough of the third person.

Fourth hour comes and I whip out my portfolio to organize it all. I sorted The stuff into four categories: intro, drawing, painting, and independent study. It was rather amusing to go back to stuff I made my freshman year and see what I got right and what I got...horribly not right. XD;

Regardless, I sorted the piles from best to worst, pleasantly surprised at some and horribly mortified at others. But the entire time, I was a bit apprehensive and confused, because the art teacher was supposed to help me sort out my stuff, etc. Well, she didn't. [It went down like thus: "You were supposed to come after school one day to do that." "When?!" "Like, two weeks ago." "You never told me that!"]

So blah blah, school ends, I scooter off to the photography room to set up. I was nervous to say the least, but ended up bouncing around the room instead. >_>; So with it all set up and both art teachers there, the review began.

It was quite possibly one of the most humiliating moments of my academic life.

Such is the way that it turned out. It's hard to really differentiate where one ended and another began. All I know is that, in the same breath, they would both praise and belittle the same thing.

Example A: "I like this background/Your backgrounds suck".
Example B: "I like your marker work/You should get a new medium."
Example C: "Your figure work is excellent/You should really get out of doing figures."

And while I understand it all, and I understand their intentions, I was getting this feeling of being...chided to. They ended up saying "you're on your way", but didn't quite give me a clear-cut answer on whether or not I was qualified for the class.

Which bothers me.

Because everybody else I talked to basically said "yeah, they told me I was in". And upon hearing one teacher say 'we won't know until the end of the year' makes me both queasy and upset. Tell me now - did I qualify or did I not?

Their reasoning was that, if I was to get the recommendation now, I could just give up second semester and not have to work at it, etc. etc. Which, to me, signifies this...lack of trust? I mean, Jesus Christ woman, you've known me for two and a half years. And the one who is my current art teacher? Two years. Honestly.

I'm probably paranoid.

Though they did tell me to draw from my imagination rather than photo refs and such. So that's what I'm doing for my sixth and final project. Started it today, due tomorrow. Aren't I a model student?

Edit! On a totally random note, online registration for ACen is up and running! I think that if you pre-reg before the end of the year, you get the $40 rate...[or $41.50, for your badge in the mail]. Er, as in, that's the price you get to pay no matter what. I hope. :3;

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