Tuesday, July 5, 2005

   FILLER
Okay, I know I haven't up-dated in quite awhile... but anyway... here's my catch-up!

I haven't seen or even talked to Jason since school got out... I think he's either working a lot, or completly blocked me.

But I've practicly been living at Joe's house, I'm there so often, lol.

We went on a 4 hour drive just to get Gitaro Man for his bro's B-day. It was crazy fun. And he's *trying* to teach me to swim, lol. OooOOOoooo... the other night was a lot of fun.

His family was having a party, so he invited me, Lori, Caroline and Matt over. We were swimming at 1 am. His house had fire works, his neighbors did, and so did some people accross the street. There was a big bon fire at his house, the music was playing, we were dunking each other and laughing, and the stars were shinning. Moments like that where you just want time to freeze and live there forever.

We had a marathon of Cowboy Bebop and watched the entire season. I cried 3x in the last episode... how sad T_T It really was depressing. But I really wanna know what becomes of Jet and Faye. I only have one thing to say: YAY FOR FANFICTION!!!!!!

I REALLY like the ending of Fruits Basket 10... tee hee hee chou kawaii ^^

Get this.. I got my Mom to watch the anime of Fruits Basket!!!!! (I now own...

ANIME-

Fruits Basket- All 26
Bleach- 1-8
Mai-Hime- 1-6
Xeno Sage- 1-4

and I'm getting fullmetal Alchemist, the rest of Mai-Hime and Bleach.

MANGA-
Fruits Basket- 1-10
Love Hina- all 14
Pretear- all 4
Pita-Ten- 1-3
Tsubasa- 1
Naruto- 1, 2)

But anyway... the mission trip to Detroit went really well! In the begenning, I only concentrated on the past and such. But after the first two days, I found someone who adopted me as their little sis who went through the exact same thing as me. It really helped me out so much knowing that I have someone who is going to be here for about a year to help me through this.

They really were such an encouragement to me. I really got close to my girls: Juli, Jenn, Constance, Ran, Kelsie and Audra: "I LOVE YOU GUYS! Thank you for lifting me up and letting me be myself!!!!"

Last night we played Hide-and-go-Seek in the church till' 1 am. It's always so much fun! I hid in a trash can and it took 5 people to get me unstuck!!!! Ha ha ha... good times! (but my neck still hurts!!!

Then I spent the night at the Clingerman household... crazy place it is! 11 people... sheer madness!!! And sooo stressfull -_-* I sympethisize with Mom and Dad... (I've been *adopted* into their family, lol)

But then this morning I went shopping with Meg and Cindy. cindy is visiting us humble Michigan-folk from collage. It's sad.. but I found out that she was in an abusive relationship.. please keep her in your prayers!!!

I really think that I'm starting to get a crush on Joe. Me entire family is wrapped around his finger. MY DAD even likes him!!! When he saw out prom picture (I went w/ Joe) the first thing Dad said was "They would have such beautiful children..."
MY DAD!!!!! MY dad!!!!! lol

But I can't let anyone know becasue he has a gf... and I'm really good friends with his gf, lol. And besudes, I always feel uncomfortable around people when I know they like me. And I really enjoy pending time over there... I never want that to change.

I can't take a step forward because he has a girlfriend.

I can't take a step back because I'll lose him.

So I'll just stand here, happily.

wow... I've really written a lot... oh-well, I haven't up-dated in a loong time, lol.

I'm really starting to feel inspired to write some more FF. I'm thinking about a story called "Broken Spirit" Where Tohru goes to speak with Akito, and I think the title explains the rest.

Heh, I haven't written a FF in a year or more... lol. So I'm still depating ^^

Oh, speaking of writing, here's a poem I wrote on my mission trip, tell me what u think!!!!


My Prayer

June 21st, 2005

Thank you, thank you
For searching me again
And giving what I need
To reach the souls of man

I’ve tried to look ahead
But the futures so unsure
The fear I’d felt right then
Seemed more then I’d endure

But time and time again
You’d give the strength I’d need
And the only thing you’d ask
Was to plant your holy seed

You shed your precious blood
And saved my tainted soul
You sent your love to me
And made my life feel whole

Where would I be without you
To hold my life in place
The world would serve such pain
Much more then I could face

Why do you bless me
In all the ways you do?
I’m ungrateful for my life
And most of all for you

But how can we truly see
A love we can’t comprehend
And you’ve known this all along
I’m so glad you understand

You see all the parts of me
Some I’d rather hide
And you see every emotion
From every possible side

Why are you so calm
When I’m twisted up inside
And all along you’re right by me
Standing by my side


You, you… only you
Can fill me up this way
To reach and touch my life
And give me what to say

You’ve been there all along
So I might forgot you’re there
I’m so sorry for my ignorance
As I leave you’re loving stare

My God, my Lord
You are the air I breathe
Help me Lord to live my life
So others might believe


heh heh, lol.

Well, on Saturday night... I really had a rough night.

It was one of those nights where you can't sleep, and yet there are no distractions. And you focus on your fears. I never want to have another night like that ever again. This is the second one... the last one was like.... December ish. Someone said something to me that was sorta like a slap in the face with one hand, and a high-five with the other. And it makes it so much worse because they didn't even realize what they were saying which means that it was comming from the heart... so idk!!!!

I've been trying to call Poki-chan for the last few days... but I haven't been able to talk to her since school got out... **sigh** stupid people with social lives.....lol

But anyway... noone realy reads this, so I should probably just stop or else it won't be able to send.... that would suck....

please post a coment so I know someone is reading this!!!!

**copies to Word... just in case...**

I love ya!
Katie
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