Thursday, May 18, 2006

Blegh... Long day so far, but I passed all of my TAKS tests and got commended performance on my English test! :D Seth: So tired... Me too... oh wells. -------- Wuffers - Call me! Everyone - Habe a good day! -Kawaii Seth<3

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Too busy to make a really good post here... thank you all for the wonderful comments! Have a wonderful rest of the week! I'll get around to signing guestbooks and making comments ASAP! I swear, dearies. -------- Arduous: I missed you too!!!!! *Tacklehugs.* -Kawaii Seth<3

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Time: ... Song: ... By: ... Mood: XD! As of today, I am considering myself a "slacker" for the next few weeks. I'm not going to let stress get to me anymore because of work, I'm just to sit back, work a bit every day and wait for A-kon. Seth: Sounds a little tricky... How so? Seth: Well... you're always working. o.o; You're right... but I'm not going to work as hard now. Seth: But... *Blanks out.* I... .... forgot again? Seth: Yes... u.u; Sethy... you have ADD... badly. XDDD Seth: What's ADD? Erm... just don't worry 'bout it. -Kawaii Seth<3

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Monday, May 15, 2006

o.o; MyOtaku looks weird now that the school has blocked photobucket. Seth: I just think that- *Blinks and looks away.* I forgot what I was going to say a moment ago. ^^;;; ... I love you, Seth. XD!

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

... I give up.

Time: 11:15 PM Song: S By: Dir En Grey Mood: Content/Pissed off puragu wo neji komi biteki . hatsujou . ka atari wa ichimen kuroku somatte ita suiteki ni utsutta nageki no kyanbasu hitomi ni yakitsuku kuroi nosutarujia karada wo mushibame kiseichuu no you ni kokoro wa mienai manekin no you ni shiroku hikatta suhada ni kuchizuke buzama ni korogaru anata no nikukata ga... English Lyrics Verse 1 Are the others coming also screwed? Waiting to hit is it a difficult one… Verse 2 It is cute how it throws… the hard pupil in the barrel has done it… Chorus It is empty and spoiled! Coming this way is the only consequence! The heart is not visible... ...There is no way is can be…. Verse 3 The oral margin that was applied to the skin It’s a difficult one to hit, as it rolls… Chorus It is empty and spoiled! Coming this way is the only consequence! The heart is not visible... ...There is no way is can be…. -------- Saturday was a good day for me when it comes to shopping for cosplay stuffs. As many know, I am going to be cosplaying Ryuichi Sakuma from Gravitation. Yay! Hyper-ness will ensue at A-kon as I get to carry around a pink bunny doll and toss him at people. For the longest time I had the urge to cosplay the outfit with his striped shirt and jacket: Isn't the outfit just so cute? Anyway... I cam across a small problem; I couldn't find the right damn shirt to go along with the costume. I don't have the time to sew together anything for A-kon and shopping in prep stores for a simple striped shirt for $30 is just not my thing. While Lemony Slash, Muun Purinsesu and I were out cosplay shopping... Lemony pointed out the perfect shirt for the cosplay. During Gravitation, Ryuichi performs a song with a frilly white shirt and some blue jeans. We found the perfect white frilly shirt at Wal-Mart. So now I'm doing this outfit: D'aww.... so cute, ne? -------- We're doing a cosplay group for A-kon. Targeted anime: Gravitation. Lemony Slash = Hiro Muun Purinsesu = Shuichi Shindou (Cargo shorts outfit) Bishojo Tenshi = Shuichi Shindou (School girl outfit.) Sethos = Eiri Yuki Woo! :D -------- Anyway... *Clears throat and prepares to vent.* If you don't give a shit like my rants... then please turn your back and run off before your mind gets blown away by words. :3 I am SORRY if I don't have the fucking time to spend with anyone right now! I have things to DO and have been very busy as of later. Aside from homework (Yes, because MY school is abundant in such work to help PREPARE for College) and getting ready for try-outs (Which are NEXT fucking week!) I have tons of other shit to worry about. Yes, I love my best friends dearly and all, but even I have my busy moments when I can't talk on the phone/do anything because I AM BUSY! Life is a busy thing for me right now since I have tons of things going on this month. Such things like: Finishing Cosplay Outfit for A-kon Getting ready money for A-kon Getting my Sweet 16 ready Going to a GSA pool party (If I even want to attend anymore.) Captain Try-outs Freshmen Camp San Japan Picnic (If at all possible) FOUR fucking projects due in ONE week And analysis paper Getting ready for finals (My school life is important to me) And I'm sure there's tons of other things too! See? I have things keeping me busy and I need to keep up with myself in order to keep myself from being overwhelmed by all of the work. CALM YOUR ASS DOWN! And quit losing your temper with everyone... it's beginning to piss people off and make everyone feel shitty because they are trying to be responsible and get shit done that needs to be done. *Breathes out.* e.e;;; Seth: *Yawns.* Are you done? *Foams at the mouth.* Seth: ... you should go to bed before you say more. ... yes.... I should... -------- -Kawaii Seth<3

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

Haha!

Time: 11:11 PM Song: None. By: None. Mood: Pissed. -------- Let's face it... my dad is totally fed up with me to the point that it's absolutely hilarious. For months now I've been speaking of getting my permit and getting a job and all of these things that sound so grown up. Do you know what he did when he heard such things leaving my mouth? ... he bitched, griped and moaned about it. I'm almost sixteen and he still expects me to act as if I'm his little girl and I'll never grow up. Earlier today he was all like, "I hate driving you everywhere all the time!" And I responded calmly with, "If I had my permit and if you had not procrastinated so much on Driver's Ed... I would be out of your hair." Then he made a comment about how he's going back on his promise to buy my first car for me. After all of these years, he turns around and shoves this in my face like it doesn't matter that he's broken yet another promise to me. There are so many things I wanna do with my life that he just restricts me from doing all of the time and it's beginning to piss me off. He says it himself... I'm everything he looks for in a daughter. I have good grades, I hate drugs, I don't drink (So he thinks), I stay out of trouble the majority of the time, I'm mature and I'm a good role model for my little brother. If I'm everything he looks for in a daughter, then shouldn't I be re-payed for not causing him such stress like most other teenagers do to their parental unit? -------- I've been talking a lot about getting a lip piercing now these days and my dad will not have any of it. What harm is a little lip piercing going to do? Seriously... it's a way to express myself through the pain I'm willing to endure for it. It's a form of bodily art and he's all against it. At least I was open with him when telling him that I wanted a lip piercing. I didn't just go out to the mall one day with some friends and return with a loop in my lip did I? *Sighs.* My dad... the party nazi. I am a party type person. I know I'll be getting at least one tattoo when I get older and some piercing other than my ears at this current moment. One doesn't stay an innocent little girl forever, ne? Seth: You look tired Kawaii... I am... I should sleep. Much cosplay shopping is to be had tomorrow. Seth: *Nods sweetly.* -------- TWIN! Call my cell phone before you come to pick me up! I'll be waking up around 10:30 AM. We need to go to Wal-Mart, Good Will and possibly Hobby Lobby if Sethos has the transportation. e.e; -------- -Kawaii Seth<3

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Friday, May 12, 2006

jfksdhf

Time: None. Song: Filth By: Dir En Grey Mood: A little intrigued S teki S teki S teki S wo kakusei S teki S teki S teki S wo umekome S teki S teki S teki M wo setsudan S teki S teki puratonikku wo hajimemashou kibanda yoku no mushi wa yokkyuufumanteki rikaisha kusatta ringo ieki no naka seiyoku suupu mo omeshiagare S yoku horumarin tsuke no dokudoku tareru pinku no uji kusatta ichigo asoko no naka ketsueki jitate no marina sawaa Filth Hi eiga wo miyou kimi no yakusoku dohri te wo tsunai de yoru ni wa owakare desu ringo to ichigo ga kusaru mae ni yume wa hirogaru kimi no yakusoku dohri kisu wo shi nagara kimi to wa owakare desu saigo no bansan tanoshimimashou Filth Hi S teki S teki S teki S wo nomihose S teki S teki S teki S karu, horaa S kakusei ga odemashi da yotte rasshai mite rasshai S teki S teki shinkuro shikomi no retoro horaa nikuyoku fesutibaru ga hajimaru seiyoku fesutibaru ga hajimaru S teki fesutibaru no bousou jinniku jinsoku saiko horaa kanzou iri no orenji jyuusu jinzou majiri no amakuchi karee suizou shikomi no pesukatohre itoshi no itoshi no saiko horaa English Lyrics! Sadistic sadistic sadistic awaken the sadist Sadistic sadistic sadistic bury the sadist Sadistic sadistic sadistic sever the masochist Sadistic sadistic let's begin this platonically The sallowed, greedy insects Are my frustrated sympathisers Rotten apples inside my gastric juices Won't you try the soup of sexual desire? The dripping, oozing pink maggots that Soak in the formaline of sadistic desire Rotten strawberries inside of that* A sour marinee prepared with blood Filth Hi Let's see a movie, holding hands like I promised you Saying farewell in this evening before the apples and strawberries go rotten The dream stretches forth, while we're kissing like I promised you Saying farewell to you let's enjoy the Last Supper Filth Hi Sadistic sadistic sadistic drain the sadist dry Sadistic sadistic sadistic sadistical, horror The sadistic awakening comes forth Come one, come all and see Sadistic sadistic synchro prepared retro horror The festival of carnal desires will begin The festival of sexual desires will begin The out of control sadistic festival The rapid human flesh psycho horror Orange juice with liver Sweet curry mixed with kidney Pescatore prepared with pancreas The beloved, beloved psycho horror -------- I’m beginning another project here in this computer class that consists of creating an advertisement for a “luxury” item of some sort. Now, I’m not big into cars or big luxury items like that. Nor am I into television sets that are over-priced or devices that no one could ever really need. I’m not into wasting my money like some people are these days. The only thing I could think of to advertise that costs money is the Gothic Lolita style clothing that are sold in stores for big prices and what not. Since people seem to be losing the ability to sew together their own Gothic Lolita or lack the imagination to do so… they began to sell this style in stores. However, I could the style as a luxury item due to its price. It’s a little like people going somewhere to buy pants that are ripped and faded for about $40 instead of going to Wal-mart, finding the same style for $20 and ripping and faded them on their own. Gothic Lolita is really easy to make, but people would rather pay their money just to get their hands on Gothic Lolita. Personally, I love Gothic Lolita to death and would give anything for the time to design some of the outfits I’ve come up with… so no one should be offended by what I say. I just don’t like how people go out to buy Gothic Lolita worth tons of money like some do. For example: I went walking in Hot Topic the other day and I saw, with my own eyes, a Dir En Grey shirt. I am so happy that Dir En Grey is making such good progress and all, but knowing some people… they will just buy the Dir En Grey shirt because it’s being sold in Hot Topic! Some won’t know who Dir En Grey is or anything, but since a popular place like Hot Topic is selling it, the shirts will get bought. It’s almost like a cruel way of commercial advertising. Just like places like American Eagle and all of those other designer shops. People will go out to have the newest trends of clothes for $50 a shirt, enjoy the style for at most a year and then throw the clothes away after the style is over and done with. I’m sorry, but if I want a polo shirt with stripes, I can buy one for a much cheaper price at Wal-Mart or Target. -------- Anyway… so that’s my post today. All nothing but personal opinion. xD Seth: I feel dizzy again… Go lay down. O.o Seth: Alright. *Smiles.* -Kawaii Seth<3

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

Time: Song: None. By: None. Mood: Blank. -------- All is kind of well again, I guess… but possibly things are just going to get worse than I am thinking at this moment, you know? It’s like a feeling that just scratches the back of your mind with random worries. Just a thought, of course… I should get going. Later guys. -Kawaii Seth<3

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

A world with no feeling...

Time: None. Song: None. By: None. Mood: Thoughtful. -------- Excuse me for any typos… someone came into the class earlier and switched around some of my keyboard keys. The B and N keys were switched even more though… I can’t find any others other than the arrow keys. xD I finished my puzzle thing here in class so I have nothing to do right at this moment. I feel a lot better than yesterday since all of the stress and what not is leaving me behind and summer break is on its way. All year in Biology we’ve gotten tons of work DAILY and it began to get really tiring for me. I stayed up until about three in the morning working 13 assignments that were assigned THAT DAY. I dislike my teacher with a passion, but am very grateful that she is allowing us to throw away our study guides now. That could only mean that possibly our work load will decrease a lot more than it has been. HUZZAH! -------- [Now for a little something that’s been on my mind and put on paper.] Last night I had a dream… nothing was everything and everything was nothing to behold. I found myself in total darkness, but surrounded by light so blinding that the darkness began to eat it away. I thought to myself, ‘How is this possible?’ yet the thought couldn’t be received. I was trapped in a world that did not exist. Where... everything just contradicted itself. A screaming voice that could not be heard… Eyes that beheld no vision… A puppeteer without a puppet to control… A faint sickness that could not be cured… A motionless cloud in the sky plagued by immovable winds… A shrill call that had no end and no one to recognize it… A body that lie motionlessly while standing afoot… A brain that held no thought process… A group of friends that considered each other strangers… Lovers that held no love, nor compassion… Music without a tune to carry out… Poetry that meant nothing but jumbled words… A phrase that reached out to no one and made no sense… A teacher that knew not of what they taught… I found myself… in a world without function. All together it hit me and the realization fled in. Then…. I couldn’t breath. -------- Seth: So that is what you kept writing about on that paper? Yes, but a teacher looked at it and commented about going to the counselor. Seth: I hardly see reason to visit a counselor over nothing but thoughts. Teachers are just paranoid, hun. Seth: Yes… -------- Kawaii Seth<3

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Tuesday, May 9, 2006

I feel lost, left out, sad, and completely horrid... How is everyone else? Seth: *Sighs.* ... Expect a more detailed post later on... too bogged with homework and thoughts. -Kawaii Seth

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