Sunday, April 16, 2006

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Time: 11: 05 PM Song: Comfort Me By: New Found Glory Mood: Distracted Inside Im all twisted round Feeling uptight And i cant come down And i need someone to tell me Im safe again And i need someone to tell me That they really care What have we become Could you comfort me Comfort me The whole worlds come undone Could you comfort me Comfort me Back up ecolution here Of the sick fucks Being born to kill They just Need someone to tell them There safe again They all need someone to tell them That someone really cares What have we become Could you comfort me Comfort me The whole worlds come undone Could you comfort me Comfort me Your gonna bring the whole world down Bring the whole world down What have we become Could you comfort me Comfort me The whole worlds come undone Could you comfort me Comfort me What have we become Could you comfort me Comfort me The whole worlds come undone Could you comfort me Comfort me Tonight is much too busy and distracting for me... so I hope ever has a very Happy Easter. Seth: *Gives chocolate bunnies out.* ^^ Kawaii Seth<3

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

It isn't easy to admit...

Time: 11:06 PM Song: First Kiss By: New Found Glory Mood: Withdrawn You're more than tongue tied this time Well I can feel it in you lips Nobody told me you were a sucker for a kiss Music low We're all alone Being wrong never felt so right Tell me about your first kiss Tell me or have you already forgotten it Tell me about your first kiss What do I have to do to get through all of this? I'm writing it down I bet you thought this song was about you You're more that just mad this time You've got that look in your eye Nobody told me you were a sucker for a kiss Music low We're all alone Being wrong never felt so right Tell me about your first kiss Tell me or have you already forgotten it? I'm writing it down Just leave me here and tell me to my face what you think about Can we figure out What happened to our happy ending anyway? How you feel about Leaving me here With a lot more left to say Music low We're all alone Being wrong never left so right Tell me about your first kiss Tell me or have you already forgotten it Tell me about your first kiss What do I have to do to get though all of this? I'm writing it down I bet you thought this song was about you Seth: Have I told you that I missed you lately? I bet I haven't... ... I really do. What really makes a person miss another like some do? What makes a person constantly gaze at the phone in wonder as they wait for that one person to call them for a small chat or just to talk or ask to come over? The world may never know. I miss you so much that it hurts at this very moment. I don't believe I've ever missed anyone this badly before. It's amazing how I have never really missed you this much until this very night, but... What triggered it? What made me desire to be near you this much on this night? Is it the fact that I saw the sunset and how the colors of azure and amethyst mixed together so perfectly? Or the way that I sat around the room and listened to Kawaii tell these stories aloud to me about us? You seem so far away from me that it hurts to think about how you may be doing. What are you doing right now? I wonder if you are thinking of me and how much of a lovesick romantic I am... it is all because of you, really. I think about the times we shared and sadly feel my heart breaking as this void grows bigger and bigger with each passing moment. Oh, how I wish to see you once again and just feel you near me and hear your voice beside me. I have not felt much emotion lately and I guess this is the only time I will ever really get all of these off of my chest. I may not be the best person in the world to turn to... ... but at least I can admit... That I deeply miss you... And wherever you are... I hope you feel the same thing too. _-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_ Aww... Sethy can be so cute, ne? I decided to leave this whole first half of the post to his thought process only so that everyone knows how me dear other half is doing. Poor thing is lovesick... Yes, some of you may not be too clear on this, but Seth is just another part of me that seems to have taken a different role in my life. He is my opposite self, thus making him another part of me. (Yes, I know I'm crazy... but who isn't anymore?) I am so happy that you guys accepted him so quickly though. He's like a part of my little family. *Hugs Seth.* This is the only place he can ever really come to life and I thank you all for understanding. We all have a different person inside of us.. it just depends on how open-minded we really are that makes us choose to express that other personality or not. In case you wonder, he's an Egyptian spellcaster. But instead of all tan... he's really pale and girlishly skinny. :D Seth: *Falls asleep by the phone.* *Covers him up.* I would love to thank ALL of you for commenting on my last topic. It seemed very out of character of me, ne? I can be a pretty deep person, but I love discussing opinions with others. Let me ask you this. What do you think makes a person miss another? G'night, my friends. Kawaii Seth<3

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Friday, April 14, 2006

Love is....

Time: 11:05 PM Song: None at the moment. By: The sound of silence. Mood: Distraught/Thoughtful/Tired/Awake I hate how night time seems to ruin my overall thought process on everything around me. It seems as if the uncomfortable thoughts that bore themselves into my mind go away by night and suddenly emerge by day. Then again as I peer into Seth's journals day by day his own thoughts and questions seem to remain constant in the processing gears of my mind. For instance, what is love? How is love defined as an emotion and not just a word? A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. Sexual passion. Sexual intercourse. A love affair. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment. An expression of one's affection: Send him my love. How is it that just one word can easily sum up what one can feel for another? Surely just actions would have to do other than just those simple three words that seem to cause such great happiness. "I love you." A sentence so strong and is said to have been filled to the brim with undying passions. Yet the world today spouts the three words day to day like a never-ending lullaby... it begins to lose it's overall sincerity. How can someone have the right to go on and say that all anyone ever really needs is love? In all reality, love can make your heart fly up to the skies and rejoice with a song (I'm such a fucking poet it's disgusting me) or can seize your heart in its vice-like grip and rip it to shreds in an instant. Seth: I believe love is something meant to share with another that you can feel truly open with. If you feel an intense desire to constantly be near that person then of course you find yourself admitting that you love them, right? But can't the term desire be directly related to the word lust? There's a thin line between desire to be with someone and the lust one feels for another Seth. How can love be defined as all of these different things if it is only one word? Seth: Not just a word... but an emotion that is stronger than that of pain. Love is hatred, blindness, lust, completion, comfort and pain all in one. But if you love someone... why hurt them so much? Seth: Pain is just a messenger to ignite your senses with life. Without pain... you would feel nothing and would not even know if you were alive. So complex. e.e; Seth: If you love someone... let them hurt you and share their pain and guilt... Deep... Kawaii Seth<3

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

I dedicate my last breath to the curse that is your heart.

Time: ... Song: ... By: ... Mood: Haha! Just a bunch of songs today. Seth doesn't feel like talking and neither do I. So here are some pretty songs that will remind some of us of a certain couple. This is for Ate. ;D Anytime I need to see your face I just close my eyes And I am taken to a place Where your crystal minds and magenta feelings Take up shelter in the base of my spine Sweet like a chica cherry cola I don't need to try to explain I just hold on tight and If it happens again I may move so slightly to the arms And the lips and the face Of The Human Cannonball that I need to I want you... Come stand a little bit closer Breathe in and get a bit higher You'll never know what hit you when I get to you Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out I'm the kind of person who endorses a deep commitment Getting comfy getting perfect is what I live for But a look and then a smell of perfume It's like I'm down on the floor And I don't know what I'm in for Conversation has a time and place in the interaction Of a lover and a mate but the time of talking Using symbols, using words can be likened To a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat Come stand a little bit closer Breathe in and get a bit higher You'll never know what hit you when I get to you Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh, ahh... Ooh, ahh... Anytime I need to see your face I just close my eyes And I am taken to a place Where your crystal minds and magenta feelings Take up shelter in the base of my spine Sweet like a chica cherry cola I don't need to try to explain I just hold on tight and If it happens again I may move so slightly to the arms And the lips and the face Of The Human Cannonball that I need to I want you... Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out So can we find out? Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out Ooh I want you, I don't know if I need you but Ooh I'd die to find out This if for the two of them. Hey, If we can't find our way out of these problems then maybe we dont need this standing face to face like enemies at war we build defences And secret hiding places I might need you to hold me tonight I might need you to say it's alright I might need you to make the first stand 'cos tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man hold me tonight say it's allright Hey More than angry words i hate this silence it's getting so loud well i wanna scream but bitterness has silenced these emotions it's getting hard to breathe so tell me isn't happiness worth more than a gold diamond ring? i'm willing to do anything to calm the storm in my heart i've never been the praying kind but lately i've been down upon my knees not looking for a miracle just a reason to believe i might need you to hold me tonight i might need you to say it's alright i might need you to make the first stand because tonight i'm finding it hard to be your man Do you remember not long ago? when we used to live for the night time cherish each moment now we don't live we exist we just run through our lives so alone that's why you've got to hold me Hey, If we can't find our way out of these problems then maybe we dont need this standing face to face like enemies at war we build defences And secret hiding places I might need you to hold me tonight I might need you to say it's alright I might need you to make the first stand because tonight I'm finding it hard to be your man Kisa. No more blame I am destined to keep you sane Gotta rescue the flame Gotta rescue the flame in your heart No more blood, I will be there for you my love I will stand by your side The world has forsaken my girl I should have seen it would be this way I should have known from the start what she's up to When you have loved and you've lost someone You know what it feels like to lose She's fading away Away from this world Drifting like a feather She's not like the other girls She lives in the clouds And talks to the birds Hopeless little one She's not like the other girls I know No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life In her mind she's repeating the words All the love you put out will return to you I should have seen it would be this way I should have known from the start what she's up to When you have loved and you've lost someone close to you You know what it feels like to lose She's fading away Away from this world Drifting like a feather She's not like the other girls She lives in the clouds And talks to the birds Hopeless little one She's not like the other girls I know She's fading away Away from this world Drifting like a feather She's not like the other girls She lives in the clouds And talks to the birds Hopeless little one She's not like the other girls I know Siris. (Come back!) Haven't slept in a week My bed has become my coffin Cannot breath, cannot speak My head's like a bomb, still waiting Take my heart and take my soul I don't need them anymore The one I love is striking me down on my knees The one I love drowing me in my dreams The one I love over and over again Dragging me under. Hypnotized by the night Silently rising beside me Emptiness, Nothingness Is burning a hole inside me Take my faith and take my pride I don't need them anymore This bed has become my chapel of stone A garden of darkness to where I'm trown So take my life, I don't need it anymore Sethos. Strange signs, crooked signals Strike down the last aerials Heaven's bending Below the world begins to break Life's ending The time has come to escape Down to the chambers Drink this blood and we'll become Immortal, baby this love is breaking The one last bond We chose the silence Hatred, cruel violence We should be ashamed We had a chance that we ignored And now it's too late The end is knocking on the door Ready to claim us Surrender to my love Sacrifice your soul Your picture in the frame Is fading like a ghost Never say goodbye Never be alone Never say good night Never say die Selen. No words, no talk. We'll go dreaming No pain, no hurt. We'll go dreaming Walk with me, The future's at hand. Here with us, Here where we stand. We both know the power of pain, We get back up and start it again. With new hope, no place for tears, Leave behind those frozen years. Come with me and we'll go dreaming. We don't know how it can be, Searching out dignity. Nothing can be as savage as love, One taste is never enough. With new hope, no place for tears. Catch my hand and come with me. Close your eyes and dream. No words, no talk. We'll go dreaming No pain, no hurt. We'll go dreaming No words, no talk. We'll go dreaming No pain, no hurt. We'll go dreaming Walk with me, The future's at hand. Here with us, Here where we stand. We both know the power of pain, We get back up and start it again. With new hope, no place for tears, Leave behind those frozen years. Come with me and the dream. We don't know how it can be, Searching out dignity. Nothing can be as savage as love, One taste is never enough. With new hope, no place for tears. Catch my hand and come with me. Close your eyes and dream. No words, no talk. We'll go dreaming No pain, no hurt. We'll go dreaming No words, no talk. We'll go dreaming No pain, no hurt. We'll go dreaming (repeat) We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. We'll go dreaming. Catch my hand and come with me. Close your eyes and dream. No words, no talk. We'll go dreaming No pain, no hurt. We'll go dreaming Phew... that's it. I love you all dearly. Kawaii Seth<3

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

D:

Time: 2 PM Song: Promises By: Savage Garden Mood: Saddened 'Tis a really good song. :3 Well don't you know I need a little indulgence? Listen to the hunter becoming hunted Every day there's a million advances Don't be too forceful you'll ruin your chances Well don't you know that time is a broken glass That splinters against the wall? But the picture is coming back now, baby And I want to take it all Don't go making all these promises you know you cannot keep There's a time to play a king and a time to be a thief 'Cause if you're making all these promises you know you cannot keep You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone So let your body move a little bit closer Silent like the sound proceeding a cyclone Don't you know that powerful thinking Can be a force you don't want to relinquish? Well don't you know that They say that hanging on will justify the wait? But patience and elated wisdom don't share a common phrase Don't go making all these promises you know you cannot keep There's a time to play a king and a time to be a thief 'Cause if you're making all these promises you know you cannot keep You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone Well, I'm only hanging on for what goes down I'm floating high and my feet don't touch the ground I'd take advantage but I can't see through this charade So don't you, don't go make it harder than hell 'Cause when it comes down to the making You better be damned sure you can take it Hey baby Well don't go making all these promises you know you cannot keep There's a time to play a king and a time to be a thief 'Cause if you're making all these promises you know you cannot keep You know time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up alone Time will be the thief and your fallen king will end up..... A fool, a fool, a lonely sorry fool Oh baby, 'cause I told you baby Well things have been slowly returning back to normal, but everything is also a little hellish as of late. .-. Seth: ... And Seth's back! *Huggles Seth.* Seth: *Winces and whimpers.* Awr... *Runs a hand through Sethy's soft hair.* Gomen nasai. Anyways... report cards are coming out soon and here are the grades I have! English 2: 98 Geometry: 82 Biology: 95 Latin: 95 Comp multimedia: 97 World History: 91 Speech: 98 Mi padre will be a little ticked when he sees the Geometry grade and all. He thinks that just because he's a brainiac in math means I have to be one too. I hate it when people want me to be something I'm not. Seriously, if you don't like the way I run my life... shut the fuck up and quit hanging around me.<3 Seth: I want to feel him near me again... I am a little more than tired lately. We have this Friday off... but it kind of defeats the purpose of coming to school at all. Then again... anything would be a good excuse for not going to school. xD Seth: Just one kiss to make me so happy... *Blinku.* Ehm... I'm getting farther on a fanfic I am writing that should be finished by the end of the school year (if I'm lucky and laziness doesn't kidnap me) and it's pretty good so far. Seth: *Grabs at his bandaged eyes.* To comfort him and take all of his fears away... Poor Sethy got hurt in his eyes and has to keep them covered. He looks like a blind ninja... kinda cute. :3 Seth: I just want to be near him after so long being away from the warmth! And I- Seth: Are those words not sincere enough? *Goes silent.* ...damn Seth.... you can be so deep it hurts me to hear you... Kawaii Seth<3

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

IMPORTANT!

Time: 5:40 PM Song: Nothing By: Nothing Mood: Loopy XD!!!!! The marquees are back! Weee!! :D I'm so boreded! So today I actually did a good deed! This girl had her locker jammed and I managed to pull the bottom open. Maki held it open while I stuck my WHOLE hand into it to get the things out of the way. Then I slammed the locker shut and all was well and she thanked us. See? I'm not a mean person. PENIS! << You know it made ya laugh out loud. x) >> Marquee! Can you tell I have nothing to say? That's my post for today. Hope you smiled. ;D Kawaii Seth<3

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Monday, April 10, 2006

*Grabs head.* SO BUSY! Kawaii Seth<3

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Saturday, April 8, 2006

:D!!

Time: 11:05 PM Song: Force of Gravity By: Bt Mood: Grateful Remember the words we use to speak The promises made have turned to all apologies The weight of a storm, our memories Still you fly to fight the force of gravity (Force of gravity...) Remember the words we use to speak The promises made have turned to all apologies The weight of a storm, our memories Still you fly to fight the force of gravity I remember the days I still could breathe Now I'm sinking beneath the waves are crashing over me The empty space that lay between Is all that's left of where our love was meant to be Do you cry your eyes asleep? Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak? Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn ravaged heart? Do you cry your eyes to sleep? (Do you cry...) Do you cry your eyes to sleep? Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak? Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn ravaged heart? Do you cry your eyes to sleep? Do you cry your eyes to sleep? Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak? Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn ravaged heart? Do you cry your eyes to sleep? Do you cry your eyes to sleep? (Do you cry...) Do you cry your eyes asleep? Is it peace you seek at night when your body's weak? Did it leave you with the scars of a war-torn ravaged heart? Do you cry your eyes asleep? (I did not draw that picture, so therefore it is not labeled as my artwork. kthx. ;D ) Seth: We would like to thank you all for caring so much and offering such kind comments. Whether you guys know it or not, we really do appreciate all of your comments and friendships. Yes! *Smooches and hugs all.* Well Seth... you ready for today? Seth: *Breathes in.* I guess so... All will be interesting. Seth: *Leans on Kawaii and closes his eyes.* Everyone have a good weekend filled with tons of fun. Seth: *Sleeps quietly.* Kawaii Seth<3

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Friday, April 7, 2006

Time: lkgjp PM :D! Song: (It's too long!) By: Panic! At the Disco Mood: Hyper Sit tight, I'm gonna need you to keep time Come on just snap, snap, snap your fingers for me Good, good now we're making some progress Come on just tap, tap, tap your toes to the beat And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well Don't you see, I'm the narrator, and this is just the prologue? Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives Applause, applause, no wait wait Dear studio audience, I've an announcement to make: It seems the artists these days are not who you think So we'll pick back up on that on another page And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well Don't you see, I'm the narrator and this is just the prologue Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen Swear to shake it up, swear to shake it up Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention I aim to be, your eyes Tomorrow is the long-awaited sleepover... AKA: Egyptian Day! I really have nothing else going on beside the sleep over. Seth: *Hides blush.* ... What's wrong with you? Seth: ... Oh yeah! I saw you naked... again! Seth: *Dashes into his room.* Hew's so hawt when he's embarassed... and naked. ^^ Anyways, I wish I could say more, but nothing life-changing has really happened. How's everyone else doin'? *Peaks inside Seth's room.* C'mon! One more look! Seth: It's MY body! Technically... it doesn't belong to you anymore. Seth: ... Need some ice for that burn? Seth: Get out! *Skitters off with glee.* Kawaii Seth<3

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Thursday, April 6, 2006

Boys will be boys...

Time: ... Song: Time to Dance By: Panic! At the Disco Mood: Frustrated Mr. Loverboy! Read these lyrics... please! You may figure something out! e.e; Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor Just for the attention. Cause that's just ridiculously on. Well, she sure is going to get it Here's the setting Fashion magazines line the walls now The walls line the bullet holes Have some composure And where is your posture? Oh, no, no! You're pulling the trigger Pulling the trigger All wrong [x2] Give me envy, give me malice, give me your attention Give me envy, give me malice, baby, give me a break! When I say "Shotgun", you say "Wedding" "Shotgun", "Wedding", "Shotgun", "Wedding" She didn't choose this role But she'll play it and make it sincere So you cry, you cry (Give me a break) But they believe it from the tears And the teeth right down to the blood At her feet Boys will be boys Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams (Give me a break) Have some composure And where is your posture? Oh, no, no! You're pulling the trigger Pulling the trigger All wrong [x2] Come on this is screaming "Photo op." op... Come on Come on This is screaming This is screaming This is screaming "Photo op." Boys will be boys, baby Boys will be boys Boys will be boys, baby Boys will be boys Give me envy, give me malice, give me your attention Give me envy, give me malice, baby, give me a break! When I say "Shotgun", you say "Wedding" "Shotgun", "Wedding", "Shotgun", "Wedding" Boys will be boys Hiding in estrogen and boys will be boys Boys will be boys Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams I'm so tired of trying to fix relationships, but the show must go on! Sorry guys... can't post much today. If I do, the internet will explode with confusion. o.o; Seth: *Sniffles.* I should not have done that... You were cornered and didn't know what to say. *Pats.* Seth: ... Men... if you wanna talk to the one you love... do it when you have the chance. Don't walk off and expect to talk to them when they come walking by. It further confuses people. o.o Bai, friends! Kawaii Seth<3

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