Monday, March 8, 2004

   Have YOU Fallen Out of a Tree Lately?
And the prize for unluckiest girl goes to.. me!

Yeah, basically, to sum up my weekend, I didn't do much, except visit cousins. And resolve a missunderstanding (THANK GOD THAT'S OVER!) with someone.

Now, I also have some new.. injuries. I have a nice little gash on my forehead, two bruised and damaged fingers, two knots on my leg, along with complimentary bruises, plus a few other nice little ouchies.

How did I get them, you ask? Well.. to put it bluntly, falling out of a 30 foot tree (high.. very high up..) and landing on my face. YES. ON. MY. FACE. It hurt like you wouldn't believe.

Ah well, no injuries that are TOO serious.. just a wounded pride I guess. I'll leave it at that. Ciao people.
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Sunday, March 7, 2004

"Starved"
Are you so guiltless?

I must have just slipped your mind - oh, pay no mention to me! I'm nothing more than a reminder of your past, a momento, if you will.

Do you recognize this face? No, no; it seems no one does anymore. No one sees that same, cheerful face that once used to be, no one remembers what I once was.

Well! I stand before you once again - but I'm not the same little girl I once was. I'm no longer that naive, love-struck creature you so easily ensnared. You see? I don't have that child-like innocence anymore - it's now a hardened sense of our savage reality.

I no longer live in the dilusion that life is an idea state of being - at times I feel the contrary is equally desireable. I don't try to sugar coat life anymore; the sugary layer of lies only made it easire for me to swallow. I don't want that.

I don't want the morphine like lies you've so often sold me as truths. Keep them - you may need them someday when you have nothing to hold close late at night.

Cradle those lies close - let them be your comfort; let them be your security blanket. Just don't expect me to be there to hold your hand.

You've starved me of the love and attention I need to sustain life.

Your lies and deception killed me.

-- Mal

~*~

Just a piece of depressing art. I'm not expecting praise for writing sad things, but hey, I like them.

Lots of things have been happening lately; I won't go into detail right now.. ^~^;;

Thanks anyone who's been looking at my site and pics. XP

I'm going to leave you alone now, ciao.
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Thursday, February 26, 2004

   This Feeling..
Life can be so confusing sometimes; one force is pulling you this way, another is pulling you the opposite. You can almost feel yourself being torn apart by the two extremes.. that's kind of how I feel right now. I'm not exactly sure why, but it's true.

Sometimes, I wonder why things happen the way they do; like when I'm laying awake late at night. Instead of staring into the bleak emptiness and falling asleep, I ponder over the "what if's", which I very well know won't help me. So why do I?

I guess this confusion is just part of being alive.
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