Friday, December 5, 2003

   It is snowing......I WANTED TO GO TO SCHOOL! Its no fun here.
Last night, my dad found out that there is no parents over her house. HE wants to take an hour off my time. that only gives me 2 hours. that aint fair.....after a long talk, i started to fight back. Then i said there was a reason i liked to stay there.This is the stupid part. I said it was a harmless secret. My dad forced it out! That was the last secret i had! I said i loved her. I hate him. He said ill thank him. For what? What did he do? Pryed into his own son's personal life! gawd he thinks im too young to love. HAS HE HEARD OF YOUNG LOVE?!?!?! i dont like him. He berely lets me do anything. My parents are WAY TOO PROTECTIVE. Hey, what do you think? Here is a poll:
1)keep me from my loved ones and subbed anime
2)let me stay with my loved one
3)stay at home
4)not watch subbed anime
5)give up
I know my dad wants me to be safe, but i think i could use a bit of freedom to get to ber alone. I have berely ever been left alone. That is want i want for my birthday in 12 days.More freedom and to be treated better. Has this ever happened to you? I am so pissed riot now. I hope he gives me freedom.
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Thursday, December 4, 2003

   My first....(youll have to read to find out)
Sorry i didnt update sooner again! Well, I went to Katrina's house again today. we headed upstairs to watch the rest of nightwalker. Then since no one was there, she leaned on me again. Then after she leaned on me, she went and made grilled cheese! Yummy! Then after watching nightwalker, we watched RK. Then, We got into a conversation. She mentioned that she finally doesnt like mat, because of the threats he said to her. Mat said he kill Katrina ;.;. Then, she asked if i loved her, since she got worried since she flirts with other boys. Yes, i said. The she got all comfy on me, and then we talked about her past. She had been a fighter in the past. She protected her friends. She also mentioned that she got some kisses. I never got a single one ;_;. When I said that, she felt sorry for me. Then we just sat there and watched, pairing out yaoi couples in RK. Later, she went out and said "i love you" And i said same here, and then she hugged me,. Then, she gave me a kiss. I hugged her back:). then, she said that when she broke up with mat, and then i said i loved her on e-mail, she thought of hope. She mentioned that she wanted something from me, when we were older........Ok, after cuddling a lot, I had to go. We gave each other a hug, and she gave me another kiss goodbye. I wonder what she wanted from me..........maybe ill go over again if we have off school tomorow.
I love her with all my heart. She gave me my 1st kiss and ill never forget it. I am crying out of happiness right now.
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Wednesday, December 3, 2003

   Heh, sorry i didnt update sooner^__^. Well, lemme explain me day. I wasforgaven! Anyway she left without me ;_;.Well, the usual with katrina, hi all the time. After school, i went to her house! Finally......Well, when I was there, she showed me her hamsters and guinea pig. Then, we sat down to watch Nightwalker. That was a first to me. Im addicted! must watch more.....so, we watched it. When the 1st tape was done she put in the next one. she sat next to me when she sat dow, and she leaned on me, and played hamham heartbreak*blush*. Then she got popcorn, and when she came back, she had something from mat from last year. It read "mat and katrina forever". IM NOT JEALOUS!!!Well, it was last year, and i did see her writing in her binder read,"I hate mat and jimmy(mats friend)i hate mat and jimmy" It filled the page, ever since mat said she was dead to her. ok, we watched it for a little more. Then her brother came home for 'supervision' cause her mom dont trust us alone. SHE IS NOT MY GIRLFRIEND! IM NOT LIKE THAT! ok, then he said katrina had to stop leaning on me. And he made us mad with all his questions about yaoi and yuri, and about Nightwalker, and about us. that is pretty much what wedid. During the end of my stay, Katrina leaned again, but it felt a little more...........................then i left, im here and i miss her. I could of borrowed Nightwalker, but her bro said no since it was borrowed.
I think her bro is jealous ^__^'
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Tuesday, December 2, 2003

   I know i was dumb.
Well, I got over being all 'sad'. I dont feel so worried and i dont hate anything ^__^'*thats good*. SOoO, all this html is still getting on my nerves. I think later in the year we will learn html in computers. Ill be an expert. img src=Url, with the greater and less than signs is an image.
a href=URL-Your text here-/a is a link. Ok, i wont bore you with things you know already, like my comp teacher.
I sent an apology e-mail to Katrina. I think that we will get things cleared up tomorrow. Maybe ill still get to go to her house? hmm....possibilities.....

I hope she aint like sparkle when she's mad.....
I hope she is nice and forgiving like Pashmina.

Lol i just used the center html.....ok i hope shes a pashmina.
RRgh they restarted dragonball.......

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   .........
Today, Katrina finally appeared today! I was so happy I surprised her at the door with a, "HI!!!". Then we just talked, went to breakfast, hi's in the halls. After computer science, Katrina and me walked and her arm was around my head since i waited for her. Then, I was invited to her house. I had to wait for her to come after school. When I was waiting, she didnt come. I waited for 30 minutes. My parents were there in the car, waiting. They got fed up with it, so they said i had to go. I tried to stay, but couldnt........I hope Katrina is alright on her own......maybe she left without me noticing, or she was still there......I wish I could go back.......I hope she dont hate me.......*sob sob sob* i was crying when i left. i hate my parents...they are not patient like me. I feel that i should of stayed. I hate myself. I hate my parents, and maybe I might be able to make it for tomorrow? I was standing out there at below freezing temperatures, waiting, while my parents were snug in a car. I was determined to find her, but I could not. If Katrina doesnt forgive me....................i hope she forgives me and lets me come over still. i have no idea about nothing right now. I am mad at my parents, and I am sad for Katrina, having to walk in this cold weather. I HATE MYSELF!

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