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Tuesday, December 2, 2008

   The reason why...
TS, I'm not even going to give him a chance. I don't want those twisted feeling to come back. My heart has changed. It knows what it wants and is willing to be more patient. This is going to sound horrible, but Doug is not good enough for me. I know dating doesn't mean I have to marry him, but why should I bother if I know he would ruin my life? He's going to college to become an author. A foolish and fickle dream. He'll just be another one of those starving authors who still lives with mommy when he's forty. He has a weak personality. He's the type that would cling to her girlfriend for constant reassurance. I don't want a baby boy, I want a man. Please don't feel sad. That's how I feel. I can't change that. Maybe he'll change one day, but even then I still won't be interested.

I'm nothing like him. I asked him out two years ago because I really liked him. He asked me out the other day because he's afraid to be alone. Cry me a river.

I should be careful though. In life, all swords are double edged...I might hurt Doug, but then TS will lose respect for me and I might get treated differently when I go Jillian's house. It does hurt to hurt people. I am by no means enjoying this situation. I wish it would just go away, even though it won't. It's as if the nightmare that started when he hurt my feelings two years ago still hasn't end it.

Oh I wish I could wake up!





KawaiiMelody out!
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