Thursday, May 25, 2006

Doin even better
sorta lately I've been having major break downs and well they ain't to pretty, but on he up side I designed a shirt for a book project for english and it looks awesome and everyone loves it, I've been drawing alot and they look so cool, lets see what else, I finally am wearing my hair with chopsticks again and look awesome I swear people think I look good with them and I've also been wearing pink and it's freakin people out cause I hate pink with a passion seriously but I'm learning to deal after all it's just a color shit teachers on her way over so byes
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

Bored as hell in school as usual
Well in Biology and only have a little less then an hour till I go home. i got most of my work done so I can give myself a little break I deserve it I've been doing good lately. Not enough to really raise my grades but enough to make it so I can pass my classes with solid D-'s so thats enough for me. And also I beat Kingdom Hearts 2 I was so shocked when my cousin finally got it me and him spent hours playing, but it was worth it, and also I changed my whole myspace up to match kingdom hearts. Its kinda weird but awesome at the same time. Wow I just found out I'm the farthest and I'm just basically slacking off wow for my awesome computer skills go me. I'm on neopets listening to music on Otaku and doing my work, that also could mean the other people are just slow. Yeah lets go with that.Uh this is getting boring doing the work cause she doesn't even check them so its totally point less but at least I'm not taking any chances and I only have one more page to go while everyone else is so far behind muhahaha I feel happy now so bye!!!!
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Friday, May 12, 2006

Yo Long time no been on
Well I'm at school as usual and I'm sick though which sucks cause I sorta shouldn't be here and shouldn't have been here for like five days now but I used up all my absessences so yeah. it sucks, but i blame myself cause I was at my friends house last weekend and didn't take any medicine or anything so I let myself get sicker I guess so it's my fault I'm still sick. But hey I had a blast at her house at least ^_^ and we took lots of quizzes like this one on quizilla

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i like taking them for the pics, though some of them make me so depressed cause of some of the results but oh well bye
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Friday, April 28, 2006

JACOB IS STILL IN TOWN!!!!!
Somewhere he moved into his new house and well his mom pulled him out of school to keep him from his boyfriend who still doesn't even really notice what's going on and I didn't get in yet to change my schedule so I'm hoping for monday but in the mean time I still have to do a project for class and I lost all my stuff so I have to start from scratch I have no luck with that class but right now I'm gonna go so bye kaye
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I got the cd!!!!!!!!!!^_^
I'm feeling better then yesterday cause I had a perfect dream that felt so real it kinda make me feel sad to wake up but then I got on the bus and Liz gave me the Panic! at the disco cd and now I've been listening to it so yay I'm all happy no so go my *dances* so anyway I better go I got work to do befor my class kill me for doughnuts that reminds me I'm gonna try and change my schedule so I won't have journalism anymore so wish me luck bye
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

This day just gets worse and worse
I CAN'T GO TO THE PANIC! AT THE DISCO CONCERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*CRIES********************** My mom said since the tickets are $140 for three days of amazing bands playing but me going for just one when its $60 dollars for camp for 5 days with my friend I better chose wisly and my friends conviced me to saying I'd go but then I changed my mind but by the time I got to my mom with the desicion it was to late and I was so excited about the concert I WANNA GO TO THE CONCERT NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!KONJKOJKLECJKLrhwbjhwrhkdhfhdhjlsfjlkHSKF ummmm you didn't see that alright, but on a serious note thats all I really wanted to do over the summer and now I can't which is total bull cause this is the only chance I'm gonna get to see them and I love them and I can't stop listening to their music, I've had the camp experience its fun but not great and either way my friend mercedes moved so she's not even going this year so its not going to be as fun I just wish school was over now life sucks when you have to make desicions specially about the best band in the world and your friends get to your mom first and they make the desicion for you and you miss the best concert in the world..................that never happened to you?o.O sorry about all the ranting it's just I need to see that concert *cries*
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Jacobs gone
he's been absent for a week and now he's been taking off the list for attendance and no one has a clue to how to get in contact with him which really sucks cause he has my evangelion dvd and also I kinda.....................miss him but only a little bit and I have to chose between going to camp with my friends or going to the Panic! At the Disco concert cause the day that camp is over is the day of the concert and it takes like three to four hours we get out at 10 am and I have to be at the concert before noon because the concert starts at 1 so I really have to pick and chose unless the concert time changes which I hope it does cause omg I want to go so badly so here's a few songs by panic at the disco!!!!!!!!!!!



THE ONLY DIFFERENCE BETWEEN MARTYRDOM AND SUICIDE IS PRESS COVERAGE

Sit tight. Im going to need you to keep time, come on just snap those fingers for me.
Good good now we're making some progress come on just tap those toes to the beat.
I believe that this may call for a proper introduction.
don't you see? I am the narrator, and this just the prologue

Swear we'll shake it up if you swear to listen.
Oh we're still so young but desperate for attention
And I aim to be your eyes (heart&mind)
Trophy boys, trophy wives, this time it's time.

Applause! Applause! No, wait wait...

Dear studio audience,
I've an announcement to make.It seems the artists these days are not who you think.
But we'll pick back up on that on another page.
Yours truly

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LONDON BECKONED SONGS ABOUT MONEY WRITTEN BY MACHINES

Stop stalling. Make a name for yourself.
Boy you better put that pen to paper and charm your way out.
If you talk it better walk it better back your shit up
with more than good hooks. While you're all under the gun
Start talking. "a sensationalist"
oh he's slightly clever to just a certain extent
If you talk it better walk it better keep your mouth shut

(panic at the disco: meet the press)
It's time for us to take a chance.

Oh and, just for the record,
the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of:
A. Indifference and(or)
B. Disinterest in what the critics say

I'm burning. and I'm blacking my lungs
(this happens if you keep your mouth shut)
boy you know it feels good with fire back on your tongue
Start talking. "a sensationalist"
oh he's slightly clever, to just a certain extent.
Keep quiet! Let us sing like the doves,
then decide if it's done with purpose or lack thereof.

Well we're just a wet dream for the webzines,
make us it make us hip make us scene
Or. Shrug us off your shoulders.
Don't approve a single word we wrote.
(oh oh oh blessed objectivity)

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CAMISADO

This is the scent of dead skin on a linoleum floor.
This is the scent of quarantine wings in a hospital
And it's not so pleasant. And it's not so conventional
it sure as hell ain't normal, but we deal, we deal.
The anesthetic never set in and I'm wondering where
the apathy and urgency is that I thought I phoned in.
No it's not so pleasant. And it's not so conventional
it sure as hell ain't normal, But we deal, we deal.

Sit back, relax.
Sit back, relapse. again and again.

You can take the kid out of the fight but you cant take the fight out of the kid

You're a regular decorated emergency.
the bruises and contusions will remind you what you did when you wake.
you've earned a place atop the ICU's hall of fame.
The camera caught you causing a commotion on the gurney again.
(2nd highest all time number of curses, swears and punches)

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NAILS FOR BREAKFAST, TACKS FOR SNACKS

Watch your mouth. your speech is slurred enough that you might swallow your tongue. I'm sure you'd want to give up the ghost with just a little more poise than that.
Or was it god who chokes in these situations? Running late? No,no, he called in.

Problem: The hospice is a relaxing weekend getaway, where you are a cut above every sick sad patient. Where you're on first name basis with all the top physicians.

Solution: Prescribed pills to offset the shakes..to offset the pills you should take...um.. take it a day at a time (fix a vice with a vice.)

That's when you stutter something profound to the support on the line.and with the way you've been talking every word gets you a step closer to hell. A pessimist? No I just can't help it. To say what everyone else is thinking..(let me state the obvious again).

I am alone in this bed, house and head.
She never fixes this but at least she makes me forget

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TIME TO DANCE

Oh please, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention.
That's just ridiculous... ly on. But she sure is going to get it (the attention and the bullets) here's the setting, fashion magazines line the walls, now the walls line the bullet holes.. yea you sure let her have it.

she didn't choose this role, but she'll play it and make it sincere, so you cry.
But they believe it from the tears and the teeth right down to the blood at her feet.
Boys will be boys, hiding in estrogens and Aubergine dreams.

Have some composure, and where is your posture?
oh no no! You're pulling the trigger all wrong.
Come on this is screaming photo op.
Give me envy
Flash
Give me malice
Flash
Give me attention
Flash
Give me...a break.
When I say shotgun you say wedding. Or whatever comes to mind.

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LYING IS THE MOST FUN A GIRL CAN HAVE WITHOUT TAKING HER CLOTHES OFF

Well Is it still me that makes you sweat?
am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Well Then think of what you did. And I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as you're fingers touch your skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch...a better fuck
than any boy you'll ever meet. Sweetie you had me.
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
exchanging body heat in the passenger seat? no no no you know it will always just be..me

Let's get those teen hearts beating. Faster faster!

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls:
will you dance to this beat- and hold a lover close?

Now I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus!
In case I lost my train of thought where was it that we last left off ?
lets pick up pick up
Oh now I do recall, we just were getting to the part...
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
Well then think of what you did. and how I hope to god he was worth it
For that I'm very sorry love... and though you may have butchered us...
I sure hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
(besides) did you really think I'd let you kill this chorus?

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BUT IT'S BETTER WHEN WE DO

Now I'm of consenting age, to be forgetting you in a cabaret
somewhere downtown where a burlesque queen may even ask my name.
As she sheds her skin on stage,
i'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the clubs PA.
And the strip joint veteran sits two away,
smirking between dignified sips of his dignified peach and lime daiquiri...
Isn't this precisely.where.you'd.like.me.
You know, Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety?
But I'm afraid that I, well I may have faked.
I wouldn't be caught dead in this place.

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I WRITE SINS NOT TRAGEDIES

Imagine; as I'm pacing the pews in a church corridor,
and I can't help but to hear an exchanging of words:
"What a beautiful wedding!" says a bridesmaid to a waiter.
"Yes, but what a shame, the poor groom's bride is a whore."

Oh dear, her infidelity just spilled all over the floor. Can somebody help her?

and I'd chime in with a "Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door?!"
No ,it's much better to face these kind of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
In fact I'll look at it this way, I mean technically our marriage is saved! This calls for a toast, pour the champagne!

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I CONSTANTLY THANK GOD FOR ESTEBAN

Give us this day our daily dose of faux affliction,
forgive our sins (and those who've sinned against us).
forged. at the pulpit with forked tongues selling faux sermons.
Because I am a new wave gospel sharp, and you'll be thy witness
So gentlemen, if you are going to preach Then for God sakes preach with conviction!

Strike up the band!
Oh the conductor is beckoning,
Come congregation, and let's sing it like you mean it
No. Don't you get it don't you get it? Well don't you...move.
Just stay where I can see you.
Douse the lights!
...We sure are in for a show tonight

In this little number we are graced by two displays of character,
We've got: the gunslinger extraordinaire vs. the walking contradictions
Because I for one can see no blood from their hearts or the wrists they allegedly slit
And I for one wont stand for this
if this scene were a parish you'd all be condemned.

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THERE'S A GOOD REASON THESE TABLES ARE NUMBERED HONEY, YOU JUST HAVEN'T THOUGHT OF IT YET

Please, leave all overcoats, canes and top hats with the doorman.
And from that moment, you'll be out of place and underdressed.
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it.
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and choreographed.
Because.
When you're in black slacks with accentuating, off-white, pinstripes...
Everything goes according to plan.
I am the new cancer, never looked better and you. can't. stand. it.
I know because you say so under your breath.
Reading lips asking "When did he get at all confident?"

Next is a trip to the ladies room in vain.
No, you just can't keep up with these fashionistas.
Tonight you are the whispering campaign.
To them, your name is "Cheap", and you look like shit.
Talk to the mirror, choke back tears. And keep telling yourself,
"I'm a diva I'm a diva!"
Oh and the smokes in that cigarette box at your table,
they just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin.
(don't you hate this feeling?)
I know I know, It just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.
I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.

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BUILD GOD, THEN WE'LL TALK

It's these substandard motels on the on the corner of 4th and Freemont Street.
Appealing, only because they are just that un-appealing.
Any practiced catholic would cross themselves upon entering.
The rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe a just dash of formaldehyde,
and the habit of decomposing right before your very eyes.
(along with the people inside.)

there are no raindrops on roses or girls in white dresses.
It's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
at the shade of the sheets before all the stains
and a few more of your least. Favorite. Things.

Tonight tenants range from: a lawyer and a virgin
Accessorizing with a rosary tucked inside her lingerie
(she's getting a job at the firm come Monday.)
the Mrs. will stay with the cheating attorney,
moonlighting aside, she really needs his money.

Oh. What a wonderful caricature of intimacy.

and not to mention, the constable, and his proposition, for that "virgin".
Yes, the one the lawyer met with on "strictly business"
as he said to the Mrs. only hours before.
Well after he had left, as she was fixing her face in a compact,
there was a terrible crash. Between her and the badge.
She spilled her bag and her purse held a "purse" of a different kind.

And here is where he entertains that proposition:
arrested on possession

Or.

(now if this were you)

think of what you wouldn't want to happen.

They ended up...well, making love isn't exactly what I'm looking for.
But.
You.
Get.
The.
Picture.

Oh. what a wonderful caricature of intimacy.

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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

uhh
I am so bored Jacob is still not at school thats a whole week he's been missing to the world he no longer has a myspace he doesn't have a phone don't know where he live so arg, and also its way to early and it seems I'm the only one of my friends whos going to be alone for the rest of my life plus I'm still sick I fail a couple of my classes so I have to take them over so I had to change my perfect schedule the teacher blocked of purevolume aim and xanga which all totally suck luckily for me I'm the only one who uses the otaku so he doesn't know it exist and now back to blogger to work on my blog so buh bye
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bored
well I can't sleep, my computer is now fixed but thats not why I can't sleep but oh well some one plz PM me asap cause well eh bye I'm going to bed
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