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Monday, October 3, 2005

well No new on Nick and ow my eyehurts
I took out my safety pin that I had on my eyebrow for Rotc class which is the last class of the day for me cause people kept poking it and Steve wacked me in the head with his leather jacket and it got hooked onto my eyebrow and it hurt like you wouldn't know. Either way I was just losing it today. I remember the last thing I said to Nick at the carnvial over the summer. It wasn't exactly nice and he mite just do it. I told him I never wanted him near me or my friends again and that I hope he'd drop dead with a most painful dealth. Well seems I got my wish, but luckly he ain't dead yet though. and hopefully he'll get better. All the pictures I had of him were draw on and saying ruid comments I fixed that so they look like they honor him instead of mock him. Today the school banded us from walking infront of the school for passing so they are making us go through a construction area for the school, and I just about lost it! When I saw a cherrypicker as I walked down the walkway I saw Nick agianst the wall gasping for air. When I got to class I couldn't talk. I spent the whole art class hugging my Carebear laying my head down on the table crying I don't even know why cause I did hate him for always messing with me and my friends and yeah I feel sorry for him now but why on earth is what happened to him haunting me? I can't get it out of my head and for the split second I did I asked out this guy named Nick who is in my class which I don't even know why and when I realized what I did I was like you know what forget it then I ran off. My vision is even starting to blur so right now I'm wearing my classes but its still blurry. And I'm scared and I don't know why. Then only thing I think will make me feel comfortable is Johns comfty soft legs. What I wouldn't do to lay my head down on them right now cause I felt completly relaxed when I was with him. Which I never do,but yesterday was differnt it felt like me and him had never onced argued never once hit each other never once hated each other. It felt good to connect with him even if it was just for a day. I even know that he took what I said to him to heart. Which that mite even help him out and I know he needs help at this point, hes going to keep me updated on Nicks condition so just please keep Nick in your thoughts that he may at least live another day.
*Katie*
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