Monday, November 6, 2006

Really? We can?

[Time : 3:10am]
[Mood : excited]
[Music : EXISTENCE - Laruku]

I'm super excited right now! x333 Even though it's about 3 in the morning. xD;;;

I was talking to my Senpai and some of her other friends and we have now expanded our doujin circle. :3 We now have four members. xD;; I'm really excited. And Senpai even made me the leader. X_x;; I'm terrible at making decisions. XD GAH. But anyway, I'm really excited~ It's like my inspiration level just went up about 500. xDDD

And tonight I'm working again~~ I tried to draw Luke, but I only got about halfway done when I realized that I needed to go back and fix his hair. D: So I think I'll do that later.

My room is becoming messy, just as I thought. xD;; Which is fine. It's a lot easier this way.

And now I think it's time for me to get back to work. :X

See you all later~

- Kazuka
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Sunday, November 5, 2006

~Thank you~

[Time : 2:15pm]
[Mood : productive]
[Music : OH MY JULIET - Takashi Fuji]

Buh, I guess I can't go to sleep until the early hours of the morning. xD;;; And I just woke up. o.o;;; I guess that it's okay, since I'm getting stuff done.

I have a feeling that my room is about to become a mess. XD I don't know why I just feel like I can tell. It happens sometimes when I'm working. And I think it's about to happen again. xDD But I really don't mind, since it just means that I'm too busy with work that I don't keep things all perfect like I usually do. :X

Working on many things at once really does help me to get more done, I think. Since when I can't seem to make any progress on one thing, then I can work on something else and come back to it later. Instead of being upset that I can't work on one project as much as I want to. Does that even make sense?

Ah, I was wondering, but I kept forgetting to ask, does anyone have any kind of messenger? :\ It's okay if you don't I was just wondering. xD;;;

Now I'm getting a couple of ideas from ToA. DX I don't think I need any more ideas of anything. xDDD But the good thing is that right now I only have a couple and that means that I can just write them right away~ Unlike my KH idea spam. ._. I don't know if I'll ever be rid of it. xDD;;; Which I suppose is alright, since I'll never have to worry about the lack of ideas. :D

I don't know where this is going, so I think I'll stop here. Thank you to everyone who's been reading/commenting on these posts, you guys are what's keeping me updating on here. =D

See ya~

- Kazuka
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Saturday, November 4, 2006

Today~

[Time : 2:22pm]
[Mood : super groggy DX]
[Music : This is a GIRL - Nana Kitade]


Yesterday was a good day~ Which is really good, since I haven't really been feeling that well lately. I went to Barnes & Nobles with Kana and read manga, and got a couple of sketches done. And then we came home and I started drawing and writing like I haven't done in a long while. x33 I think I need to keep practicing writing down ideas and sketching things out right when an idea hits me.

This is one of the pictures that I was working on last night. It's actually all the way colored, I just didn't have a screen shot of the finished version. And I still need to figure out what to do for a background. :/ But I asked my senpai to check it and she said that all the proportions were fine and that it looked okay! I was soooo happy to hear that from her, because she's such a wonderful artist~! :3 Does it even look like Namine, though? ._.;;

Today, I have to clean my room. [I actually just woke up half an hour ago. :X I went to sleep around 6 am, I think. I don't know how long it took me to actually fall asleep. xD;;; And I want to try and finish a sentence challenge that I'm working on, finish up another picture, [this time, Kairi =D], work on some more doujin outlines, and a few more projects that I have going on. xD;;; I know, I know. I try to do too many things at once. ^^;;; Ah well.

I think that's all for now~ See you all later, hope you're doing well. ♥

- Kazuka
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Here I am

[Time : 10:25am]
[Mood : groggy]
[Music : Nightmare - SNoW]


Thank you so much for all the comments yesterday, everyone~ ♥ They really mean a lot to me.

Well, I didn't get anything done yesterday. ._. I didn't even listen to my new music. Towards the end of the day I started feeling really depressed. And like I couldn't do anything. But I'm doing better this morning. I think. I slept for a super long time, I went to bed before 11 and I just woke up. DX Ugh. I'm all groggy, but I was trying to sleep off all the bad feelings. I think it helped a little. But, man, I need to get a normal sleeping schedule... But I don't think that's going to ever happen, so I guess it's okay. ^^;;;

Uh... I'm not sure if I have much else to say, except what I end up saying every day, I have to go work now xD;;;; Who knows maybe one day I'll actually end up getting something done. xD

See ya~

- Kazuka
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Thursday, November 2, 2006

This is where we start

[Time : 1:02pm]
[Mood : blah]
[Music : I Dare You To Move - Switchfoot]

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, to my wonderful Senpai~~ ♥ ♥ ♥!! ^_^=

We just got back from coat-shopping. xD;; It wasn't really that interesting. We had to go to one store for coats and another for boots. And then Kana, Sae-chan and I wanted to look in Hot Topic and Waldens. I don't think we even ended up getting any coats. xD;; We couldn't find anything that we liked that wasn't too expensive. Both Kana and Sae-chan got boots though. I like Kana's a lot, they're really cute! ♥ And I think that Kana got some manga or something. I didn't get anything. I couldn't find anything that I liked. I do need a calender though, and the Kingdom Hearts calender is sold out already. D: And besides, I have no money to buy one even if it wasn't, so I suppose it doesn't matter.

*sigh* I need to get to work today. Like seriously. D: I'm slacking and I need to practice. I'm going to concentrate on trying to improve my art. I'll stay in my room all day~ xD;;;;

I found a bunch of new music yesterday, so I can work and work and work~♥! At least I hope it works out that way. We'll see. XD I better go~

Oh, RK, did you find the Death Note anime? I think if you go to youtube, they should have the first episodes. xD;;;

See ya~

- Kazuka

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Wednesday, November 1, 2006

*waves*

[Time : 12:50pm]
[Mood : inspired]
[Listening to : the WORLD - Nightmare]



*sigh*

I feel alot better today, thanks you guys. x3 ♥

This'll probably be a short update, since I have to get to work soon.

I wish that I would stop getting so many ideas. All it does is clog up my head. But I guess at least this way, I won't ever have to worry about not having any ideas for doujin. xD;;; I have plenty. Enough to give someone else a lifetime of work, probably. xDDD It's really that bad. DX I can't afford to obsess about more than one series at a time. It will lead to a brain overload. @_@

Oh, I watched the first episode of Death Note last night. I forgot how much I love that series. :3 Even if it is kind of dark and creepy. xD;;; And the theme songs are awesome! I'm listening to the beginning right now~ ♥

Okay, well I better go! Hope you all have a good day! ^^

-Kazuka
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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

*sigh*

[Time : 12:25am]
[Mood : slightly discouraged]
[Music : Crazy - SE7EN]

Today I did nothing. -_-;; I'm slacking off...And I think that this is going to be a sort of longish update. I can tell already.

We beat Abyss today~~ I won't say anything else because I don't want to spoil it for anyone. ♥! And now I'm going to try and translate the theme song. I guess that'll be my project for the night. xDD

I spent some time looking around on Deviant Art (which I'm not sure if that's a good idea or not, since it seems to depress me when I do, but I love looking at all the pretty art D:) and it made me feel talent-less. ._.;;; There are people that will submit something that I wish I could be able to draw in years, and comment on their own work like it's junk. T_T I wish I could draw as good as they can. I can't see any difference between them and professionals. D: And here I am trying to draw doujin, which these people could so easily do. ._. But they aren't. Does that mean it's hard, or impossible or something? .-.;;;; Ugh. I don't think that it's good for me to be looking at fanart. DD:

It's like they have some secret to making their work look so... finished, professional, I don't even know what to call it. My drawing look like a 6 year old scribbling compared to them.

It's like I've heard, from I think it was Watase Yuu-sama who said it: If you want to draw manga, you should never read another manga, or something like that. I'm not sure what the exact quote was. But it makes me sad to think that that's what a person has to do. I mean, the reason that I want to draw is because I love it so much, and I love looking at other people's drawings, so... if I'm not supposed to look at anyone else's work, then maybe I shouldn't be an artist. But I'm not sure how anyone is supposed to improve their skills isolated from what they're trying to create. Does that even make sense?

Ah, but yes, it almost seems as though I'm going through these times a lot more lately, which I suppose makes sense seeing as how I'm drawing a lot more when before I was just thinking about drawing. D: I think it can't really be avoided.

Actually, I feel a lot better after typing this all out. I think I have no choice but to keep practicing and trying as hard as I can. Which I will do after I'm done translating this song.

Another something random: My Senpai might be moving in with us in January. She's living in Alaska right now, and she doesn't really feel like it's home where she is, and so she might move in! I'd really like it if she did. :D Since then we could work on doujin, and then she could save for going to a makeup school, since what she wants to do is theatrical makeup. :3

Heh, I think I'm off to translating now. xDDD

- Kazuka


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Monday, October 30, 2006

[Time : 11:40 pm]
[Mood : a little overwhelmed?]
[Music : Colors – Utada Hikaru]

Ah, thank you everyone who read and commented on these last two posts! You guys are keeping me going here. xD Thanks you guys! ^^

This update's not going to be as long as the last one, since I'm actually in the middle of sending an outline to my Senpai. ^^;;;

Today was good. We played more Abyss, and I think that we might be close to the end of the game, but that's what I thought earlier, too, so we'll see. xD I got distracted from my work again. I think I'm about done sorting out things in my head, and that'll help me a lot with getting things done that should be done. I don't even know if that made any sense. ^^;;;;

I've been in a writing mood lately. I think that when I wake up tomorrow I'll stay in bed and write for a bit. There's a challenge that I'm trying to finish so I can start something else. Although I'm not sure what the something else is quite yet. xD;;

I've also been in an 'Utada Hikaru' mood lately. xDDDD;; I really love her songs~ ♥! I can listen to them over and over and over! And they're really good for BGM when you're writing. Especially Kingdom Hearts. x333 But that's probably because she sings the theme songs. I love 'Passion' and 'Sanctuary' especially. ♥ ♥ ♥

If anyone can suggest some good bands/artists or songs, I'd love to give them a listen! =D

This update is actually becoming longer than I though it was going to be. xD;;

I'm actually getting tired, and it's only 12:30. o.o;; I'm not sure what happened. I think I'll clean up my room a bit and then go to sleep. And something else that I forgot to mention. I think I'll be updating in the evenings rather than the mornings, since I tend to wake up late, and then I might forget to update at all.... So by the time you're reading this, 'today' almost always means 'yesterday'. Maybe you figured out that I was doing that, I don't know. xDD

*sigh* I guess that's all for now! :D See you all later~ ^^

- Kazuka
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Sunday, October 29, 2006

Tsukareta~

[Time : 1:00 am]
[Mood : tired]
[Music : First Love (Techno Remix) – Utada Hikaru]


Yes, I will try and update everyday like I used to. Now I just have to see if I can keep it up. But I'm really making an effort this time, so I think it'll work out. I think I figured out the problem I was having. I have too many online accounts. ^^;;;; And keeping track of all of them can get confusing if I don't pay attention. So for now, I'm going to concentrate here, on MyO. ^^

Ah, and on my last post when I said that I thought that people would be happier doing what they want, I think that what I meant was more like... if in your heart you want to be an author, then go out and work as hard as you can towards that goal. Not really, just do whatever you want. Because I really don't think that would be for the best for everyone.

And don't get me wrong, I loved going to the university! I really like the atmosphere, and I love learning. x3 It's just that I realized that school itself was taking up more time than I was liking or thinking it would.

Today we played some more Abyss! I love that game. It seems like it just keeps getting better and better. :3 At one point I thought that the game was going to end, but it didn't it just kept on going and now it's as good as ever. xD

On a random note: I got my hair straightened! =D I really like it, even though I still can't really do much with it. It's still too puffy to do anything with. D: But at least this way it's managable. xDD

Well, I better go get to work now, I'm behind on what I should have done. ._.;;; I'll most likely be up again all night. If I keep this up I'm going to end up turning nocturnal. o_o;; But I suppose that it doesn't really make that much difference what time I'm awake, since I don't have to be anywhere at any certain time.

Ah, and I know this is sort of an odd question to ask, but if it's not too much trouble, do you think you could call me 'Kazuka' now? ^^;;;; It didn't really feel like the name 'Kanau' fit me. ._.;;

That's all for today! ^_^
Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post! ♥

-Kazuka



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Saturday, October 28, 2006

I'm back!

[Time : 12:56 pm]
[Mood : groggy]
[Music : Re:Re: - ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION]


Ha~, I'm sorry that I was dead on here for such a long time, updating only once in a while with really nothing to say. I'm sorry, you guys! And so I'm going to make an effort to update on here a lot more like I used to. Hope you guys'll stick with me!

Well, a lot of things have changed since I've been on here regularly. Before I was planning on going to a school in Japan for foreign students. Things came up and I was going to wait another year before applying, get a job in the meantime and save up money. And then I started thinking. Yeah, I was fine with going to school, and it's what I've been doing my whole life. But I started thinking and my life was revolving around school, and yes, getting an education is important, but I don't want to spend all my time working on schoolwork when I could be drawing, writing and doing other things that I love.

So I made the decision to quit school and start drawing. I'm going to be a doujinshi-ka! For now I'm planning out my first book, and it should be ready in a couple of months. I'm really glad that I decided to do this, because now I don't have to worry about what to do when I get out of school, worry about getting stuck in a job that won't give me any time to do what I want to do. I know that people have to make a living, and I will. I'm just really glad that I decided to do what I want. I think that people would be a lot happier if they would do just that.

My room now has two more desks in it, and I've sort of turned it into a studio. Kinda. More like a one-room apartment. xD My Senpai's helping me get things done by being my manager, and just a few days ago we made the decision to start a doujin circle. We're gonna sell at a con next year! x3 She's helped me so much!

Also, when we last talked I believe that I was obsessing about Hagane no Renkinjustushi. Well not anymore! xDD Now it's Kingdom Hearts! That's what most of my projects now are focusing on now. And my doujin for the foreseeable future are going to be KH books. :3 Wah, I can't get enough Kingdom Hearts. ♥ ♥ ♥

See my layout? Roxas! xD;; I think it's okay, but only because Kana made the background, my banner and icon making skills are pathetic. D:

I think that's about it with catching up, I really hope to see you all more often, I've missed you guys! ^_^

Recently...
We got Tales of The Abyss. *_* I love it so much! I like Jade. xD Has anyone else played it yet? It's sooo fun. It's a lot like ToS, but I think that some things about it are even better! There are a lot more skits, at least it seems like it... But I really wished they were voiced. ._. Even in english would be okay, since the voices aren't that bad. :D [Although we all know I would prefer Japanese. Come on, Jade's seiyuu is Koyasu Takehito-san! x3]

Ah, but enough of my babbling. I can't believe that I just woke up. D: I went to bed at 7am, so that might explain something. But now I'm hungry, I'm gonna go grab something to eat. xDDD

See you all later~! Take care! ^^

-Kazuka
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