Tuesday, October 31, 2006

*sigh*

[Time : 12:25am]
[Mood : slightly discouraged]
[Music : Crazy - SE7EN]

Today I did nothing. -_-;; I'm slacking off...And I think that this is going to be a sort of longish update. I can tell already.

We beat Abyss today~~ I won't say anything else because I don't want to spoil it for anyone. ♥! And now I'm going to try and translate the theme song. I guess that'll be my project for the night. xDD

I spent some time looking around on Deviant Art (which I'm not sure if that's a good idea or not, since it seems to depress me when I do, but I love looking at all the pretty art D:) and it made me feel talent-less. ._.;;; There are people that will submit something that I wish I could be able to draw in years, and comment on their own work like it's junk. T_T I wish I could draw as good as they can. I can't see any difference between them and professionals. D: And here I am trying to draw doujin, which these people could so easily do. ._. But they aren't. Does that mean it's hard, or impossible or something? .-.;;;; Ugh. I don't think that it's good for me to be looking at fanart. DD:

It's like they have some secret to making their work look so... finished, professional, I don't even know what to call it. My drawing look like a 6 year old scribbling compared to them.

It's like I've heard, from I think it was Watase Yuu-sama who said it: If you want to draw manga, you should never read another manga, or something like that. I'm not sure what the exact quote was. But it makes me sad to think that that's what a person has to do. I mean, the reason that I want to draw is because I love it so much, and I love looking at other people's drawings, so... if I'm not supposed to look at anyone else's work, then maybe I shouldn't be an artist. But I'm not sure how anyone is supposed to improve their skills isolated from what they're trying to create. Does that even make sense?

Ah, but yes, it almost seems as though I'm going through these times a lot more lately, which I suppose makes sense seeing as how I'm drawing a lot more when before I was just thinking about drawing. D: I think it can't really be avoided.

Actually, I feel a lot better after typing this all out. I think I have no choice but to keep practicing and trying as hard as I can. Which I will do after I'm done translating this song.

Another something random: My Senpai might be moving in with us in January. She's living in Alaska right now, and she doesn't really feel like it's home where she is, and so she might move in! I'd really like it if she did. :D Since then we could work on doujin, and then she could save for going to a makeup school, since what she wants to do is theatrical makeup. :3

Heh, I think I'm off to translating now. xDDD

- Kazuka


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