Saturday, July 29, 2006

   Snapping
I just feel like some days I'm just ready to snap, crack and POP! (no pun intended -_-) Taking care of a 9 month old is HARD X( and then when you throw in a 7 year old who has Latteral Hearing Loss and isn't allowed to have a unicorn because they symbolize "Lust" First I've heard of this. (shrug) but that's off topic. I'm near my wits end. I feel like I'm going to fucking snap. I just about put my fist through a window today. Here's the situation:

Current Living Situation: 2 bed, 2 bath, $800 a month, 5 adults, 1 baby, and a 7 year old spending the weekend.

Stress level on a scal of 1-10 (1 like none, 10 Stressed beyond reason): 7-9.5

Exhaustion level on a scale of 1-10 (same as above): 6-9.7

We are looking for a larger place. We found a 5 bedroom condo for $1075 a month, like a mile from where we're currently living. It's available to move in Aug. 12th, we haven't heard anything from the lady in charge that I know of. I miss having my own space.

Doug comes home, I'm sick and exhausted. Asks me if it would be ok if his friend Jeremy and his girlfriend move in in the 3rd bedroom upstaris, where my mom and I would be if we get the place. I waited till they left and I cried. They come back, I've calmed down thanks to my anee-chan (hugs). I don't want them to move in Is what it kept telling her. My reasons:

1. Jeremy and his girlfriend aren't married.

2. I wanted my mom and I to have our own spaces and I didn't want to share.

Yes I'm being selfish, but I have hardly ANY of my stuff here, I have some plushies, my computer, a blanket and pillow, and some of my cloths. I feel... un at home... O_o anyways. I wouldn't mind as much if they were in like a basement apartment. But the basement is unfinished and Doug and Danielle are going to turn that in to their project area. More then half of the shit here is their's anyway with their Sewing shit. Now I love their sewing but it's just a LITTLE crowded with it here in this small of a space. X|

Jeremy starts "fixing" my computer because I have a virus. But because of the fucking firewall here on the net, I can't update my fucking Anti-virus because of it. Then he starts being a fucking smart ass about it. bad talking my anee-chan I snapped and ran to my room and slammed the door. I know very childish but I was ready to kill him for being a fucking ass to her. I bawled for a good while, until my mom came home and asked me what was wrong, I told her that I didn't want Jeremy and his girlfriend moving in. She didn't like the idea either and talked to Doug about it. They won't be moving in. Thank GOD. Because if they did. I swear I would have fucking snapped and beat the shit out of something or someone. Now I like Jeremy we just don't get along. He's a sweet guy but he's a smart ass to boot so... yeah.

Afterwards, after I calmed down, Anee-chan and I went shopping :3 Happy ending to a shitty day. :3
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