Monday, April 23, 2007

New stylz!
Kay, so I updated my page a bit to fit to a new color scheme (three guesses what the color is...) and I think it looks great, lemme know what you think though please.

Aside from that today's gone rather well. Started off a wee slow and definitely groggy, but then I got out to Hannaford for Myth's baptism, Im considering going to their congregation for early services now if I can because they end about a half hour before my sunday classes start. Anyways, after that I headed on over to my own congregation, and since everyone was out of town at a lecturship I got to preach again. And really, this time, I think I did ALOT better. Thats just my own personal opinion though, and Im certain that I still have a ways to go.

After that however, was boredom. I sat around and colored a bit, did some avatar work, read some Death Note, chatted, did some posting on FRP, and finally my parentals returned from the lectureship. They invited me to dinner at our church, I went, met up with Malissa, Andy, and Eric. And sadly, my nightmare. My GAWD I want to kill her. DEATH DEATH DEATH! She irritates me so much and at the same time, it seems being somewhat gentelmanly in return does nothing! WHERE ARE THE HEAPS OF BURNING COAL!? *weeps bitterly*

*le sigh* Im getting better.

So after that I headed out to Rusty's place and whooped up him and Kevin at Risk. I dont play that game at all, but I think Im getting better. I think Ive played it a total of...Three times? And I did a peaceful 3 way win on one of those games (otherwise it would have gone forever), lost one, and this time, I won. So really, I think thats got to be the perfect score right there. 1-1-1. :D

Now Im home, happy, and certainly not ready for bed. XD

OFF TO THE INTERNET! WOOO!

~Sam~

P.S. - Myth, if ever (in four years) you read this, do please send those pics you were telling me about this morning. I'd love to see em. :D
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Thursday, April 19, 2007

Done it again. XD
Boredom dawns with an infinite amount of power. No, really, it does! I just spent a total of a week figuring out a rubik's cube, now Im attempting to apply the workings of a rubik's cube to life in a spiritual sort of way. Ive solved the thing like, 40 times already just today. Not to mention all the other days.

Ive read three books in the last three weeks, (The Princess Bride, Halo: Fall of Reach, and The Jakers Stone). Before that I read a couple books by...is it Dan Anderson? I dont think so but whatever. I've started spending my free time doing puzzles, learning new drawing techniques, thinking of ways to take over the student council, defy my principal, learn to dunk a basketball, write stories, and play cards. I've also been hanging out at DQ alot with Matt and Meg. I have the amazing ability of telling exactly when Matt's going on break so I can show up and steal his french fries. I climbed through the DQ window. Im planning on dying my hair (and getting a perm). Im listenning to hard rock and roll.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?

Thats what I'd like to know, because really, I dont think I was like this at all a few months ago. I mean, maybe I showed potential or signs of it but I wasn't. Really! Believe me! Today I played hacky sack in Study hall (I usually nap). I tried to get a pencil stuck in the ceiling (Havnt been stupid enough to do that yet...). I slept through History, played with the rubiks cube during science, and read the Halo book during math. I ate during English, played with my hair in Drama, and just completely ignored Journalism. Quite obviously, logically, something is wrong with me.

But I dont care. Not anymore. I dont know why. Well, maybe I care some, or I wouldnt have noticed my change. Its odd. Everywhere I look I see smiling faces and...I want either to seclude myself, or be in the center of attention. Is that normal? It wasnt awhile ago. I either like being left out or in the middle of things. No medium works. Im going blah, BLAH! BONKERS I TELL YOU B - L - A - H!!!

If its yellow let it mellow if its brown FLUSH DOWN! OMG I HATE YOU GEZZER! *hugs*

Okay...Im done...officially, I think Im done... Gotta return some books tomorrow, plan a house party, prepare a sermon, make a gift for Rachael, Meet with Rusty to discuss plans of school domination, find my way around dress code rules, print a newspaper, and read another book.

In the mean time, I wish you all a very merry christmas.

~Sam~
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Garrgglleeeboooo
I feel sick. I think I am sick. The thermometer doesnt agree with me. Its stupid. Its a heathen. It needs to burrrrnnn. BURRRNN. BUUURRRRRNNNNN!

Today has been a fairly good day overall though. I've been doing rather well. Dave and I walked through our Gaston / beast fight scene for the play and got that all figured out. I plan to show Miss Hopkins at lunch tomorrow, or during Drama. Whichever seems easier to do it in. But yeah, theres that to look foreward to.

After school I worked for three hours, which is pretty nice. I like working at a book store, theres so many books. And it makes me happy when I can help people out some how or put a smile on their faces. *shrugs* You might not find that fun but I do. And apparently Im the only one who can tame my bosses daughter. The little tyke (now about six or seven years old I'd say...ew...you thought when I said "Tame" I was talking about something else...you pervert! XD) had the worst attitude in the world today and the only one she would listen to was me. I think thats funny.

So it was after work that things started really going down hill. My headache set in a little more and my voice kinda dissapeared. While I was doing something earlier I suddenly became overly dizzy and actually almost collapsed. Oh, and to just top off the day with the most perfectly horrid ending: Someone who had a hugely negative impact on my early years just stepped back into my life today. Were not together for five minutes after Bible study and she reminds me why I now hate her so. What a perfect time to reappear too, I hate it. I hate it all. I'd ask those of you who read this to pray for me in this matter. It will take some time to get used to her presence once again.

In other news, I think Im converting a friend of mine from school. Its funny, he's started coming to our youth group more and more instead of going to his own. I find that cool though, its fun having him around.

Ohhs, and one of Mythrin's friends came to our school today. I hope he liked it. He's got alot of social problems and confidence issues, I really hope that being at our school for a day encouraged him somehow, and that he came out of today with a better understanding of God and who we, as christians, are. I really do pray for him, he's a good kid.

Oh. And I think some of my friends officially think Im bisexual now. XD

ANYWAYS, thats all folks, for now, goodnight!
~Sam~
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Monday, April 9, 2007

Youth Ralley Extravaganza! BONZAI!!!!
So I know Ive not posted in quite some time, and it seems that half my friends list has ditched the site for one reason or another, but ALAS! I carry on!

Because Ranting is love.

Anywho, I just spent the last weekend in GreatFalls for a Youth Rally. For those of you who dont know what a Youth Rally is, its basically a giant gathering of christian teens, together to worship and praise God while having a blast at the same time. Its tons of fun, if you do it the right way. Now then, I've participated in a number of these events in the past and they rock, but none quite like this one. This one did, indeed, rock complete and total butt.

Day one: Friday. We left from the church building around 4:00 ish, and ended up in GreatFalls round 5:30. As much fun as the trip there was (sarcasm). OH. MY. GAWD. I never want Willma as a chaperone EVER EVER again! NEVER! Shes like...the most...GARGH. I cant even describe her! Shes just...blah! Shes one of those super retarded old farts who thinks they're part of the "In" crowd, and they're not, but they try to be, and in the process of trying they fail misserably and make themselves even stupider. Yeah...I think thats how I want to describe her.

Anyways, so we got there, got signed in, and the first people I see? None other than the Browns themselves. My fellow colors, amen. (that wasnt a racial joke by the way, my last names White, theirs is Brown...get it?) I was quickly hugged by Titus and then tackled by his older sister who apparently decided that Im her "Backup Boyfriend" in the off chance that her current one dies. Its kinda complicated so I wont go into details. Anywhos...

The rest of the day was more or less uneventful, oh, I got a Rubix Cube by the by. Ive had it for three days so far and Im stuck on the last layer of the cube. I can get every other bit of it just not this one, gotta practice some more. Theres gotta be a way to do it. I spent the night at Titus's house, that was amazingly odd. I kicked his butt in Super Smash Bros Melee, and then we proceeded to watch some stupid girls from Belgrade scream and squeel about a spider they couldnt see but "knew" was out there stalking them. Then we went to bed, which, by the way, was not easy. Titus's room is like Oh. My. Gosh. Messy. We had to kick his little bro out so I could have his bunk, which, though I thought was cool, I soon found out it wasnt. Cuz his bed smells like urine. And I now have a blanket and pillow which smell like urine, that I packed up, with my clothes, which now also smell like urine...yeah...Im doing laundry while I type this. >.<

DAY 2: Saturday
Saturday was fun I guess. Well...to put it better...it was...interesting? I dont think Ive ever really realized how much flirting I do with other people. Seriously. The whole day it seemed like no matter where I went someone was flirting with me. And although that just made me go "wtf" it also made me feel good, somehow knowing that lifes not completely over and there are options...idk, thats how Ill describe it for now. Interesting was certainly the way to go though. I think I broke someones heart by the end of the day but Im not sure. *shrugs* Anywho, moving on.

So we got breakfest, then hit the youth rally with full force. The whole day was spent either chilling with other Christians, singing, learning, studying the Bible, or just downright having fun. Some kid got tied to a tree, I hugged random people, Joe and Chase solved my rubix cube and Kelsey called me dumb cuz I cant solve the wretched thing yet. CURSE YOU RUBIX! I SHALL SOLVE YOU YET!

Later that night we hit Zachs house for a bon fire, that was a blast, as always. We got to play some lightning (I won, woot!), there were also nachos and hot chocolate for anyone who wanted em. Outside the bon fire was goin on with a bunch of people huddled around singing. I won a t-shirt, put my camera in the bag, and then lost the camera...though now that I recall placing the camera in the bag first I might know where it is because I wasnt looking in the right place for it in the first place and wow this is an amazing time to have an epiphany. >.<

So yeah...wow...thats an amazing part of the puzzle I left out...hopefully I can find the camera now...lots of pictures on it...lots...

ANYWAYS, that was random. So then there was also this crazy dog that was running around chasing basketballs and barking while everyone else was trying to be all serious like and hold hands and sing songs and yeah...I must sound like such a girl. XD

So then the end of the night came and we had to go home.

SUNDAY: was fun I guess. We all woke up late, Titus left the windows open for some dumb reason through the night so when I woke up I was freezing. I didnt get to take a shower cuz the Belgrade girls hogged it. We made it to the sunday morning service a bit late, thank God they had a little break session or else I'd have never gotten to sit with the people I wanted. After all that was over we packed up, I realized my camera was missing so we looked around for a bit and finally I gave up. We came home today but Im still calling aorund for that camera, I gotta find it. I dont wanna owe my dad 400 dollars. T_T

So now that Im home things have been better. I took my shower, got new clothes that dont smell like urine. I went to go see Blades of Glory for the second time with a bunch of friends from school. And now here I am, at home. Happily typing this up. Though, I think Im gonna head to bed now. I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow...I must solve the rubix cube ONCE, and then AGAIN! XP

Cya'll later! :D

~Sam~
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Sunday, April 1, 2007

Last post be gone! XD
Yeahhh...remember how in my last post I said "This will be my last post"? Yeah...I cant ignore the insatiable urge to rant any longer. Its desire to spew out of me is too strong. So here I am.

Though...now that Im here, I cant think of anything terribly important to say to you all. I wonder how many people bother to read this? Comment if you do, it'll make my day. Cuz I think Oneechan's the only one whos bothered to comment on most of my things. I know I should be more social around here but Ive only been towards the people I know personally, sorry guys. Im just like that I guess. I apollogize, really!

Anyways, Im off to doodle some more. Ill post something later I s'pose. Toodles for now tho!

~Sam~
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Friday, March 23, 2007

Con and...last report?
So there I was, with an AO ticket, getting dumped. Ive just spent $35 dollars on the damn thing, Im gonna use it! AND I DID! I accompanied Mythrin and Etaru to the Anime Oasis DX convention in Boise Idaho last weekend, boy...thems was some weird times. Im kinda glad to be back.

Anyways, day one: (Thursday Night)
We got to Etaru's, got all our stuff out. I got some time to finish Karasu and my Kankuro hat. Got em fixed up. I was forced downstairs around eleven or so cuz Etaru's mom didnt want me anywhere near her daughter after bed time. I swear, every time I caught her eye I could just see her thinking about all the ways she would skin me if I even looked at Myth and Etaru wrong. Which really creeped me out, but anyways...

So I was stuck downstairs on the couch, right under Etaru's room...right under the noise...Oh. My. Gosh. Have you ever tried sleeping when the people you want to be with are right above you, out of your reach, and being noise? Its impossible! Impossible I tell you! I was up till about 2:30 in the morning just staring at the cealing and hoping one of them would randomly come downstairs and keep me company, did it happen? No, didnt stop me from hopin tho!

Day 2: (Friday)
We got up, got packed, I kinda moped around in that emo fashion that I so frequently use these days. Time seemed to pass exceptionally slow that morning. We finally got goin around 9:00 or so, got on the road and all that. Took us about eight or so hours to get to Boise. Which was fun, I guess...had it not been for the awkwardness that comes with sitting next to Rachael on the entire trip. Anyways, moving on!

We got to Boise, and I got suited up. Whats that mean exactly? Means I suck at putting on Makeup, really, thats just about all it means. We had to return to our rooms just so Mythrin could fix it it was so horrible. I really never payed that much attention to Kanky, honestly.

So we got to watch some really nice AMVs, then the swimsuit contest, Etaru won (Go KOSMOS!). I got to buy some Deathnote stuff, we went to dinner in costume, and finally got back and went to sleep.

Day 3: (Saturday)

Saturday morning was spent getting the makeup as right as possible, which turned out later to still be wrong...either that or Etaru just plain got bored and decided to add a few more lines to my face. We went downstairs and hit the dealers room, OH MY GAWD. I loved it. Everything you could possibly NEED to survive in life, all in one room! I musta spent atleast a hundred dollars easy on stuff. It wasnt that hard to do, believe me. So now there I was, with armloads of DeathNote and Chrono Crusade items, all happy like. What came next? The Deathnote Movie. Oh joy to the world! They did a good job on it, I didnt really like how it ended, but aside from slight changes here and there I found nothing wrong with it. Kudos to Death Note! :D

Next came the skits. Myth and I did a skit about Temari missing, which was pretty fun. It kinda sucked waiting in line and not being able to see the other skits before us. And there was this one Itachi cow that kept flirting with Myth and I wanted to kill him. Yes, thats right, kill him. Cuz everyone knows Kanky can kick Itachi's ass any time anywhere. Thats a fact. I think I got that message across to him though, either him or Myth cuz he left us alone after that. I was kinda happy. At the end of the skit Myth was supposed to trip me (which she did) and I was supposed to fall (which I forgot) and so I was a wee late (in falling) and thusly, she tripped me, and I fell down the stage stairs, thus splitting my knee open and cutting my wrist. Which I think mixed with the adrenaline of being on stage and somehow got merged with my already growing emo attitude, and thussly gave me an overwhelming headache.

After the cosplay was a dance, I sat around for about a half an hour watching Nads (Etaru's lil sister), then when Etaru and Myth showed up that was it, I was out of there. I sat around outside for a bit where there wasnt any loud music to amplify my headache, but that didnt do much good as it seems smoke doesnt help headaches either. And I somehow seem to have these false hopes that if I seclude myself, people will come looking for me. I mean, Im not that hard to find, Ive got a freaking huge puppet on my back. But alas, Myth and Etaru were having a blast inside and didnt come looking, I finally got tired of sitting there and went back to the room, where I wittled away my headache by reading Chrono Crusade. Which helped until I stood up to clean my face off, then I hurt like hell again. >.<

But apparently Myth n Etaru had fun down there, dancing. Im kinda peeved that I missed it, but at the same time it's probably for the better. I probably would have just been fighting with every other person that tried to dance with Myth. I've found, since the breakup, that Im still overly protective of her, maybe even more so now that theres no title of boyfriend/girlfriend stopping people from flirting with her. That and I find myself very jealous of her attention. Which probably doesnt help anything at all.

Day 4: Sunday

Sunday went by pretty quick. I woke up with somewhat of a headache, not much of one. We hit Denny's for breakfast, I got some asprin for Myth but none for myself. Then we hit the con again, dealers room for a bit. Then Etaru and I went and chilled on the couch while Myth went and continued to be indecisive about what she wanted to buy. She was in there for three hours straight and didnt buy anything until just before it closed. Next up was the batle cosplay, which was pretty cool. I wanna join that next year. It was lots of fun until Myth left...and then Etaru left looking for Myth...and then Myth came back (yay!) to get some money (crap...) and they left me there. Now, once again I found that the emo attitude Ive been frequenting and the slight headache I had can converge into one, and that made things so much worse. So here I am, with a headache, thinking the most self demoralizing things humanly possible, and telling myself that the only reason Im here is because they needed a Kankuro to complete the trio, and if I couldnt serve that purpose, I was useless. Oh, they needed a camera man too. That was another annoying one. Which I was brutally reminded about when Myth came back, grabbed me, told me we were getting pics with some famous guy (I was like "Oh, cool!"), and then we got out there and they handed me the camera...That...That just freaking hurt. I took the picture and proceeded to shift immediately into emo overdrive, I went back to the hotel room and prepared to head to the movie 300 (the next thing on our to-do list).

We got to the theater quick enough, I was still being emo. I didnt mean to be, I tried not to be, but every time I started thinking I felt like crap, and every time I stopped thinking I felt like crap. I just plain felt like crap. We got to the theater and Myth was bugging me to tell her what was wrong and I just kinda snapped. I dont recall, ever before, telling Myth to shutup and actually meaning it. After which point, I felt even more like crap for being a bad friend. So I tried afterwords to keep myself semi chipper, just for them.

The movie, by the by, kinda sucked. Good action scenes, and good plot. But the acting was cheesy, the lines were cliched, you could see exactly where everything was going. There were pointlessly elongated sex scenes (I closed my eyes...really, I did!), and the blood was so pathetically fake that it dissapeared before it even hit the ground. It was dumb. I dont recommend it if your looking for a good movie. If you want to let off some steam and see people kill each other, its a great movie.

Anyways, apparently my lack of liking for the movie was some form of disprespect to Etaru's dad, Im not sure how. I mean, corny rated R movie that my parents would never let me watch in the first place...does that equal good in my mind? No...not really. But I never meant any disprespect, really.

So we got back to the con and went downstairs, we got to chill out with a photographer from Consplayers.com, that was okay I guess. I kinda got ignored the whole time, such is what happens when your in a room full of people you dont know. And I still feel somewhat like crap. So what do I do? I started reciting scripture...I dont do that often, I should do it more. I recited Psalms 23 in my head, 1st Corinthians 13 and also random parts of the Bible that I knew. A piece from Matthew and a piece from Proverbs. Little things like that. And it made me feel better. Some other guy who'd dressed as Gaara also started talking to Rachael and I became jealous again, but I kept my mouth shut and just kept reciting scripture. I think it helped, even if it was just getting my mind off things I felt better.

After that we returned to our rooms, which lasted until Etaru realized she had no trophey for her swimsuit win. So she and I went back down to the lobby and found the guy who ran the whole thing and asked for a trophey. She didnt get one. Then she sat around talking to people, and me, being one who wanted to get back to Rachael or somewhere where I knew people, had to grab and drag her (litterally) from the room. I felt a wee bad for doing that so on the way back to the room we stopped and got Tea, which isnt so bad when you dump a bunch of sugar and cream in it.

We got back to the hotel rooms, I sat around for a bit, they kicked me out to go to bed (which they really didnt, they sat up talking for awhile. Yeah, we could hear you through the walls, your lies wont work! XD) So I, not being tired, decided to take a walk. I headed down to the front and took a pic of the Welcome Anime Oasis sign for Myth. Odd picture huh? Looks almost like someone...idk...photoshopped it or something? huh. Imagine that.

Day 5: Monday

Monday we came back, it was a seemingly short trip, we stopped in a few places, my emoness took over again, I sat around flipping coins and staring at the wall. I love her, she loves me not. I hate that. So we finally got to Threeforks, said bye to Etaru, and headed home. Which was somewhat akward. When we got back to Myth's house we said goodbye, she gave me a brief hug and then I left. The whole thing was awkward, and Im glad that its over. But Im really looking foreward to going next year. :)

by the by, this may be my last post. As I find this site to be one where I express myself more than I want to. So yeah...sorry. :)
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Why? WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY? BAKA! WHY THE POOPIE!?

Im perfectly fine, Im ready to go, and then I get there, and its like stage fright. I cant...freaking...move...Everything that pops into my head seems stupid, I cant talk right, Im so scared that what Im doing is wrong. BACK TO SQUARE ONE!? Yes, I think so.

Anyways, Kankuro: somewhat done. I need to finish the shoes and then mom's helping me with the hat. Were not quite sure yet what were doing for the headband as both Bozeman and GreatFalls are retards and dont hold said item anymore. Its retarded, I hate it. So now we have to make our own, which Im not sure how to do...we'll find something...I hope...

Anyways, thats all I got. Ill update later if I must, toodles.

~Sam~
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Thursday, March 8, 2007

Hum dee doo
Well, I guess I just realized that Ill not really be spending the entire spring break riding my bike around in the nice weather and playing basketball at the school. Ill be spending it doing alot of last minute sewing and preparing for the con. Which means raising the last of the money I need for the rooms, finding those $40 I lost, making Kankuro's hat, getting the damned Hitiatai (sp?), and doing the sandles. Theres plenty left to do, and thankfully, a week to do it.

So lately I seem to be having spurts of energy, its kinda odd. Ive been normal one minute, hyper the next, and then I crash, and the cycle starts over again. Today I was fine all through english, I crashed on my way to math (like literally, I felt my energy just drain away as I was walking down the hall), I got hyped a bit before Bible, was normal again through Bible, hyped through science and math, normal through History, crashed during study hall, and became hyper again during yearbook. Its rather odd. Im not usually like this. And I seem to be crashing alot more after school too, the last few days seem like Ive been really hyper but only to stop myself from crashing because the moment I slow down I start to feel like crap. It's odd. I don't like it. Not at all.

On the fleep side, Im supposed to see the Illusionist on Friday night at my church, and then sometime later this week I guess Im supposed to see another movie with Dave and his little sister and whomever else happens to tag along. Friday I ship out with Rachael and Lada for the convention. And sometime during the break if I get really bored Im gonna go join Jarred in his Helena High classes...or Ill join Tyler, whomever seems funner at the time.

In other news, I found out today that I seem to be the only guy in our school who frequently keeps up with all the gossip about relationships. Not that I really choose to be the guy who knows everything, it just happens. Everyone tells me everything about their relationships and Im not quite sure why. Matt and I have been talking alot about relationships, same with Stephen and I. And Dave...And Buska...and Ashley...and Caroline talks to just about everyone about Cade...and Cade's just...Cade...He gave me a pair of pants the other day. I like them. ^_^

ANYWAYS, The above is sign that its bed time. So Im out of here. And for anyone who cares I put up some new drawings on DA, check em out http://www.kailand.deviantart.com

~Sam~
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Ugh...
They're back. >.<
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At it again!
Gah! Im writing poetry again! Stop me! Stop me now!

*sigh*

Well, while Im here I might aswell update. Ive been feelin a little off and on these last few days. Things are finally coming together, I have some things worked out through my head. A few things are majorly bugging me but Ill get over them eventually.

This weekend marks the annual Northern Lights youth rally in Canada. I'm looking foreward to going, somewhat. I had hoped that Rachael would come along but I guess thats a no. *sigh* I think I've come to expect no's from her on invitations like that but still, never hurts to ask right? Should be alot of fun, assuming we dont get hauled over at the boreder, which I dont think we will. But meh, we'll see.

Next weekend is just empty, and Im happy. I like empty weekends. Their fun. And then the weekend after that is the Anime Oasis anime con in Boise Idaho. Thats definitely worth looking foreward to. Etaru's testing some face paint to use on me as Kankuro, and I need to finish my costume. Its two weeks away though, that means two weeks for me to procrastinate and half an hour to finish it. Im good.

Well Imma go finish that poem now...I guess...cya'll later.
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