Monday, December 17, 2007

Reminice
(if you dont have time you might as well not read this because its gonna be long)
((Note that if any of what I say here offends you, Im sorry and just ignore it, but it shouldnt offend anyone))

I finished watching Lotr The Return of the King
I wasnt able to get on the comp and some channel was playing all 3 and it was already on so I just said what the hell and watched it... Then my mom came home from Houston and we went out to get sushi at my favorite place and although it was still open, we found out the owner had died 3 months ago and since it was like a family that owned it and worked together on it that we were good friends with, that was pretty sad...
So yeah...


And yesterday was Taryn's bday... I avent talked to her in a really long time, she is always busy and doesnt have long to get on and the only way I can talk to her is getting on neopets (I know... its lame... I hate it but I only get on it for her...) but they automaticlly delete the messages after a certain matter of time which usually isnt enough for either of us so if we actually do get each others messages, itl probably stop after 3 messages back and forth max and doesnt happen for atleast a week but usually a month or longer ><... I only hope she sees it so maybe I can get her on here...


Tomorrow is also my lil bro's bday, one who died a long time ago when he was pretty young and several things that my dad didnt want me to touch that have been broken for awhile have been randomly turning on (one is the lights inside of the pool and me and my bro would have to go outside in the middle of winter at 10pm every 15min to turn em off) and it happens that is were he died, so we think it could be him somehow...

While none of it is getting emotional, it does bring back sad times and I really wish these days were alot like the ones baack then...




I have alot I want to say but I dont think you guys really want to hear it all....
All that up there is alot as it is...
Really, Im just reminicing of old friends that I use to be able to talk to whenever I got on but now its mostly decieced to just you guys and not even that because most of you dont get on much anymore either than what I know you use to...


Just talking to one would be awesome... *sighs*



Damn it... I cant even get myself depressed (its mentally a positive state for me when Im remembering stuff like this)









...so many times Ive wanted to laugh but couldnt.... cry but couldnt... ect...
All the nothingness around me as made me virtually empty of everything but memorys that dont even work half the time...

It makes bigger and bigger holes too as time goes on when I have to sneak more and more just to get 10 minutes on here and just to get caught to the point where I have to delete accounts to be safe...
There might come a time when Il have to delete this too......



uhg... I cant even act sad... It sickens yet pleases me... That Im so cold hearted yet kind?





When I say il get around to doing stuff, I wont because the reality is... Theres not enough time for anything anymore...
Pointless knowledge to be gained for what? Almost everyone knows what they ave to about history and they make even more people learn it to "learn from past civilizations' mistakes" but the economy is crashing... We must have learnt alot from that -.- *sarcasm*
Everyone is in a rush because things have to get done because people have high expectations on others and its only making it harder for everyone else...
Theres no time fore anything anymore because people cant stop for even a second to look around to see that their work is pointless...
Cultures, religions, and races are getting mixed into everything and it causes wars and bigger separation that makes alot of people think the world is going to end and therefore work faster to get work done? Lol, what?
If the world was ending shouldnt you enjoy it? ><


The 'terror' crap going around is only a burden on people who beleive in it... If this country was truly free, know one would care what anyone did and that would make crimes meaningless... Law enforcement without blocking emotions... That would make the world perfect because not only would some one who bombs a building get thrown in jail for eternity the second they did it, if theyre not already dead, but they would also realize that what they did had no effect except cause a big mess...
A few of those and people would eventually stop because its pointless and it would prevent stupid things like whats going on from happening...

People ARE going to die one way or another... The only thing tey can do about it is decide how when and where... Its always their choice even when its not...


Im done for now...
Sorry...







Heres a list of what Il be adding to my site(most likely in te order I put it in):

-New Background

-More daily quotes

-Weekly pics

-Fixed scrolly things

-Less lag (really? 0.o wow)

-Less music (maybe)




Things never coming:

-Christmas theme

-New theme

-Count downs

-Ect. of other little annoying things






CONGRATS!!!
You Finished Reading!!!
Give Yourself A Pat On The Back...

The thing I moved was, yes, the comment box thing...
It is now at the top of my page, parallel to where it would be just on the complete other end...

If you have time to comment, Id apreciate it... After all youve read (provided you read all of it, if any of it) you can probably see Im going alil crazy...

*sighs* that tis all.....



EDIT: (4:16 AM)
New background ^^
I made this one too which explains why its so bad... I cant express how bad i need photoshop again...

It doesnt go to well with the grey so might have to mess with it alil later... the link to it otherwize is here and it actually doesnt look that bad...

http://i125.photobucket.com/albums/p77/TriHaseo/Triedge.jpg

anyways... il keep messing with it later... I really need sleep now.. Im getting paranoid to the point that my parents' snoring is starting to sound like really loud people trying to whisper from the back of the house and outside.... Im not sure why it sounds like it would be that far but it just does...
If one of them wakes up im dead...

Anyways... cya
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